A bit about me02:12 Sep 05 2009
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Some people have complained about the lack of content in my profile. The reason for this is that I feel too inconsistent to write a valid self-description. But here are some bits of info about me, if you're interested. I'll probably delete this if/when it becomes outdated.
I spend most of my days reading and drinking tea, and my nights getting high and hanging with friends or going to clubs. I go from being an intellectual to being a punkass. I like expanding my mind through both literature and drugs, though I'd never want the latter to become a
problem (lol).
Dancing is my passion. I was a professional Polynesian dancer for about 4 years during my teens. I quit because my instructor suddenly thought I was too fat to show my stomach. Now I do bellydancing and perform occasionally, though I'm very self-conscious about wearing costumes that show my belly.
I'm an artistic person, but I'm also an extreme perfectionist. The result is a love-hate relationship with my hobbies that usually causes me to avoid them.
I'm not exaggerating when I say that I'm socially awkward. I'm often detached, confused and frightened around people. Sometimes I'll appear confident, but that's only because I'm so lost in my own mind that I begin to look
through people. My mood, mannerisms and speech pattern can be very erratic.
I'm someone you can always count on to be there, even if you don't deserve it. I have a big heart. But since I'm so awkward with people, I have a hard time showing it (that's why I rarely do small talk). I crave closeness, but don't feel comfortable with it at the same time. There are very few people that I've felt truly connected with, and they've all hurt me. I'm damaged goods (a nervous wreck) when it comes to romance, but I love with so much passion.
I'm more open minded than I've ever been before, and believe that anything we do can't be taken too seriously (easier said than done, I know). Not much phases me...what I'd be okay with hearing is probably more disturbing than whatever you have to tell me.
And finally--since I'm getting tired of writing--I'm a very silly person. I'm the type of girl who will show up to a dive bar, stoned off my ass with a doughnut and bottle of cream soda. I like to laugh and play, and I like to make use of my senses. The world is beautiful
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