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locked in a huge mind sweep

loving many. hurting by all

looking through a window seeing she turned on me. he said I was a selfish bitch.



I look down and think what I could possibly do to call a truce. I tried for a week and yet he says to stay away from someone I known for three years the other I known for more..



They were the only ones I would have died for.

I look around as rain begins to fall. Tears fill my eyes as I look down grabbing my jacket walking straight through soaked without a jacket on.



wondering if someone would ever forgive me instead of making me freeze. I thought I loved him I was wrong. I thought I hated him I cant. I dont know what to do but I do know I dont want to cause a fight between us all.



I thought about leaving but how would it affect the whole thing. Would it make it worse? or make it better? I dont know. all I know is I hurt to many. I want to just hurt myself for it all.



picking up a knife and stab it into my chest watching me bleed. I look around see no one cares that I died for them and made myself bleed the black that I always hid. Becoming engulfed in black flames..



Death surrounds me as I begin to choke I dont know how to ask for help to make her and him forgive me. I wish I had my two best friends back but not anymore. I am rather dead inside. another looking around the corner taking off running down the street not caring. I just watch and drowned in my own blood.



eyes shutting not showing anymore light my body lay lifeless. look at what I thought was the end and look how much more happier they will be.

Memories haunt my dreams as I lay in bed.

The dark showing no end

I look to the wall and cant sleep.

I look to the alarm clock its blink 3 o'clock



The devils hour

I wonder if he will try and take me?

I doubt it. So I lay in bed and sigh

Tears forming and falling hitting my pillow



He caused those tears

Maybe I was wrong.

I roll over. I toss and turn.

Wishing I was never living

always wishing I was dead



Wishing I was six feet under just like I said before. I was ten when I first had my heart broken. by the one I thought I could trust.

He turned on me. Now all that haunts me is my memories of darkness



I want to fade to that Darkness

I wonder what will happen if i do.

will these memories fade or will they just stay?

Or will these memories keep haunting me night to night in my never ending Dreams of death and horrid rides of waves of those horrid memories?