Hmm. Well, I've just been having a quick gander at some of my old journal entries, and its amazing how different I feel now compared to how I felt back then. I suppose in a way all I've ever done is try my hardest to get people to like me, and these past few months have made me realise that.. If someone doesn't like me, for whatever reason, it's not important, and it doesn't matter, unless there that important that you WANT them to like you. Some time in February I met someone who in the beginning I seriously thought I was in love with, I gave him everything I had, in more ways then one, and in return he hurt me SO much, and broke my entire world apart. I'm not going to drone on about how hard done by I am and I've had all these bad things happen to me, coz to be fair I could go on for a while and I dont really want a sympathy vote off anyone, but I have, this time last year I was stood in a hospital room because my mom had just had a bad heart attack, I walked out of a job that I loved because my boss was a nightmare, and then I found out my boyfriend of nearly a year had cheated on me with a married woman and was possibly on some kind of drug throughout our whole relationship. I was just struggling to get my life on track, and I had no idea what I wanted to be or do, but I've now realised after battling through all the bullshit that life doesnt take it easy on you, it's gunna throw some hard punches at you and you need the have the thick skin to get through it all. The pain doesnt get any less, you just grow stronger to deal with it.. Thats how I see it anyways.
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