Hard :(03:00 Nov 07 2011
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For the past few months I’ve had this aching in my gut, to be this person that I never thought that I could be. Someone who mattered, who made a difference, who broke the knock on effect that comes from a working class background of working in a Chippy or stacking shelves in Asda or behind a bar pulling pints for the rest of there lives and wasting away like everyone else. I remember telling myself one day at school that I was never going to end up like them, I was going to make something of myself, of my life, I was going to be somebody important and blow peoples minds with my words, and its so frustrating it makes me want to scream. I sit and watch normal, ordinary people who came from nothing and made something of themselves, like Noel & Liam Gallagher, Paul Weller, Ian Brown, people who changed the world with their music and opinions, people who I idolize, and I wish so much and so hard that that could happen to me.. I love Sheffield I do, but for the first time in all my life I’m beginning to feel like a stranger in my own town, like I don’t belong here, like.. Theres something else bigger and better out there for me but I don’t know what or where exactly.. I’ve always been a dreamer, curse of being a Pisces I guess, my heads always full of waves and dreams that I guess are pretty impossible to catch unless I chase them and catch them with every fibre that I’ve got. I listen to songs by Oasis, such as Little by Little, The Masterplan, Don’t Go Away, & Talk Tonight, and they move me to tears sometimes because they inspire me to such a degree it scares me a little into thinking that I’m never going to be given an opportunity to prove myself like they did no matter how hard I try.. I’m just a normal girl from Yorkshire who works behind a bar 1 day a week.. I’m paid to get people drunk and stand and listen to there problems. Who’s gonna listen to mine?.
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