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they said i was broke

they sent me to therapy

i showed them my cuts

and asked y i wasnt happy



they said theyd run some test

and theyd surely fix me

my dianosis was depression

i asked how could this be



they asked me strange ?'s

like do i ahve a broken heart

and i looked at them & said

where do i even start?



so i began to tell them

of my sad sorrow

gave them all the reasons

y i wasnt looking 4ward to 2morrow



they told me it was normal

but they dont know how i feel

but this pain i feel everyday

isnt really real



they said i was imagitive

it was all in my head

i looked at them in amzement

couldnt believe what they had said



do u think i like me this way

do u think i like the pain

dont u think they know im suicidal

they know that im insane



and then they just left me

they all turned thier shoulder

i felt like stone

and my world got colder



u wanna see the real

u wanna see me bleed

ill give u what u want

ill show u what i need



i grabbed the nearest object

and ran ot across my vein

now i know this is real

bc i can see the pain



i started to bleed heavily

and then i started to doze

my world stopped

and my heart froze



i looked at them and smiled

and them i took a breathe

my blood all over me

id bled to death



so next time i tell u

that my pain is real

dont try to tell me

what i do and dont feel



i went to therapy to make it better

but its ok bc i dont matter

i still cut my wrist

and i keep getting sadder



i asked the doc to make it stop

so she gave me sum pills

i overdosed on all of them

and became really ill



i died again inside my head

so as u lay by my body and cry

dont, bc i got the better end

i got to die

Im looking at my reflection

seeing every imperfection

i hit the mirror it shatters on the floor

now it cant judge me ne more



i pick up the glass and hold it tight

my painful tears blurr my sight

i run the glass across my skin

and smile as the bleeding begins



im messed up is what u say

u say im deffective im not okay

take away the world take away the stress

my life is fucked up and im a mess



my blood drips on my suicide note

blood mixing with the words i wrote

a slcie my writs for every tear

making my pains dissappear



so tell my mommy do u think im sane

do u not see my reoccurring pain

do u see the sadness in my eyes

do u see me now that i cant cry



i thot life would get better but its worse

i thot id get ris of this tempetous curse

the one ive had since birth

the one ive delt with when i came to this earth



im messed up is what u say

u say im deffective im not okay

take away the world take away the stress

my life is fucked up and im a mess





i look at the darkness behind my eyes

and then i stop breathing and die

so long cruel world and good bye!

they said that i was crazy

just a lil bit insane

my sanity was washed away

by my unbearable pain



everyone thot i was faking

everyone but me

they didnt see the scars

didnt see me bleed



one night i decided to show them

id have a lil fun

i dug into the desk drawer

and pulled out a gun



with shaky hands i touched the cold metal

my anticipation grew bigger

then i placed it to my head

and began to pull the trigger



but as i began my mom walked in

and she started to shout

i tried to walk away from her

go off on my own and pout



but she held me deep inside her arms

and we cried the rest of the night

she aksed me what was wrong

and i said i was alright



i didnt wanna tell her y i had to do it

she prolly wouldnt understand

shed send me away

but she held my hand



she told me she still loved me

so i felt guilty inside

she said i was always hers

even tho i wanted suicide



i stood up and look inot her eyes

i showed her on my arms

she gasped while i showed her

my self inflicted harms



i told her i couldnt take it

i dont want this life ne more

then i slit my wrist

and fell upon the floor



she grabbed me as i bled

blood fell off my skin

she told me that she loved me

and then my heart gave in



i didnt leave a reminder

didnt leave a note

but in ur memories

my words r surely wrote



so plz dont 4get me

ill always be right here

ill be there when ur sad

to wipe away ur tear



so now im off to a better place

i only exist in ur head

ull never see me again

bc 4 ever i am dead!

she looks into the black emptiness thats her life

she wonders why shes like this as she grabs the knife

no one even knows im lost in my own mind

everyone ignores the shadow of man kind

cuts herself then she sighs

everyday more of me dies

im afraid im destined to wither away

am i even gunna mke ti another day?

sum one help me i need saved

my life is ruined and im to blame

i see my body on the bloody floor

i cant take this life ne more

im cutting so deep but i cant feel

is this a dream or is this real?

i call ur name but ur not there

i make believe that ull care

i played this out so many times

how to make all the words ryhthme

so now im writing ym suicide note

i try to breathe i start to choke

sum one help me i need saved

my life is ruined and im to blame

i see my body on the bloody floor

i cant take this life ne more

they told me id bet better but i wont

i told them i hated him but i dont

and now sum other gurl has taken my place

thats the cuase 4 the tears streaming down my face

not only that but now im bleeding

i trust u to acre 4 my needing

all those promises that u broke

on my words i start to choke

sum one help me i need saved

my life is ruined and im to blame

i see my body on the bloody floor

i cant take this life ne more

now i whimper and say good bye

my heart is lowing im gunna die

i looke once more at ur picture

wonder if u ever think "i miss her"

bet i never cross ur mind

i should ahve knew it all this time!

but now its too late and i cant go back

now my life it turns to black

i say "i loved you" "good bye"

then i gasp and die......

sum one help me i need saved

my life is ruined and im to blame

i see my body on the bloody floor

i cant take this life ne more

after that night she was never the same

shed flinch everytime sum one even said her name

she was laying in my bed thinking of the day

when he walked into her room in a strange way

she could smell the whiskey on his breathe

the way he looked scared her to death

he came too close so she tried to run

but his power over came her and he won

tied her hands to the bed and stuck himslef inside

he laughed and got enjoyment everytime she cried

he took the innocences of a child

he made her dirty, sad and mild

he took her soul that very night

she tried to fight with all her might

but he took her and shell never be the same

on that broken night everything changed

she wanted to scream but she forze

time flew past her like she was in a doze

she felt him inside her and she closed her eyes

prayed for forviness paryed to die

he touched her in places that made her sad

when she pleaded no hed only get mad

she told him to stop b4 she told her mom

when that didnt work she tried to act calm

but she couldnt fight back the painful tears

and after that night this continued for years

everynight hed cum in her room drunk

she copuld always smell how much he stunk

she tried to hide it from all her friends

but ppl found out in the end

he took the innocences of a child

he made her dirty, sad and mild

he took her soul that very night

she tried to fight with all her might

but he took her and shell never be the same

on that broken night everything changed

socail worker came to take her away

said no more daddy and shed be ok

but she could still feel the blood inbetween her legs

still remembered how shed beg

no one ever said theyd take away her memories

everytime shed say daddy took something away from me

theyd look at her with such a gr8 sorrow

tell her to cheer up and look forward to tomorrow

but everynight in her bed shed wait

shed cried everynight staying up late

and shed smell him and start to scream

make it go away, wake me up from this dream!

he took the innocences of a child

he made her dirty, sad and mild

he took her soul that very night

she tried to fight with all her might

but he took her and shell never be the same

on that broken night everything changed

for years she vowed never to tell

shed make things ok in her own lil hell

but all the pain got to her

thots of suicide thots of murder

she found where he lived and crept in

she had to be ok, commit the beggest sin

she found his bed where he was lying

this time she could hold back to keep from crying

and she killed him with a smile on her face

like every memory seemed to be earased

then she grabbed the knife and slit her vein

even tho she bled she felt no pain

& right b4 the light grew dim

she took a breathe to smell him

he took the innocences of a child

he made her dirty, sad and mild

he took her soul that very night

she tried to fight with all her might

but he took her and shell never be the same

on that broken night everything changed