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Tho I know that really no one reads these very often I have not written in a while but here it goes.



Have u ever felt that even tho u feel that u have made choices that u felt were right but u still feel awful for just having to make those choices. I do a lot. some I made shouldn't have taken so long to make and some I just wish I could go back and not have to make at all. this summer I made a choice that I know was for the best for everyone but I can't help but wish that I could go back and say no that I wasn't going to go throw with it. I feel awful all the time. tho I pretend that I am fine and that it doesn't bother me for the sake of those who r around and that know. I haven't even told my sister tho I wish I could but I just don't need to have everyone feeling sorry for me or possibly mad at me. I didn't want to do it in the first place. I was told that it was the best decision. I dislike when life puts these things in my path. it throws me off balance more I guess than what I already am. I am not saying that my life is oo so horrible or anything like that. I just think that sometimes I shoulf have done things different that things turned out different. I guess people do that look back and wonder if only? one day I hope that the things that I wish to happen will. I don't want to end up as some old lady with 50 cats in a small house cause my life got so derailed that I couldn't find my way back. tho I ask the gods to show me which way to go that could be a lot to ask for. I hope that things change for the better. good night to all and hope that ur dreams come true!!!



bless it be