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So frustrated!!!
12:13 May 29 2011
Times Read: 512

Venting about people in general but expesh some stuck up bitch that was at 7/11.



Ya fine I'm a fucking junkie but that doesn't mean I'm a horrible person. I'm so sick of people thinking that. I'm a very nice caring person. I'd never do anything to hurt anybody. I actully do wutever I can to help other people. I work my ass off I have a home. I have a car. I take care of my 17 year old brother and he's spoiled as hell and never goes without. I'm just so fucking sick of people assumptions. No one stops to ask how I got here or what made me like this. You don't know anything about it. Im not exactly happy with the fact of it myself but dont just asume I'm some piece of trash. At least I try my best and I don't walk around judgeing other people for there faults. Fack!

Self Destruct
21:29 May 28 2011
Times Read: 525




I got some problems with some personal monsters 

I gota solve ‘em, feels like I’m drowning 

It’s odd, ‘cause I was walking on water 

Untill they found me,



Now they constantly got a grip on me 

Harder than ever forcing me down to the bottom 

And that ain’t the half of it



You can’t imagine a fraction of the madness 

I’ve attracted in the baggage I’m dragging 

You can’t begin to grasp, but I went from riches to rags 

Middle class to trash, my parents marriage collapsed



My dad married a crack-addict, I moved into the maddness

Had to listen to him ask me to burry the hatchet 

After every fight, every night, stereo blasting 

Just to mask it, now that’s the passion that I write with



To capture my sadness you have to pass 

The graphic image of the Crimson Bath 

When my wrists were slashed 

Which could’ve happened if I didn’t jack Xenass tablets 

From my cabinet and stash them in my matress



Why can’t I die!? 

I need release 

I try, but I only bleed



I lie, I cheat 

I’m through 

With hiding, I’m just like you!



I get what I want, ‘cause I’m a selffish gluttont 

Once it’s mine, I’m like “why in the hell did I want this” 

I’m heading for self destruction 

I’m a self-indesgustened by my imbedded genetic impluses



Can’t you hear it when I sing it, when I’m screaming 

Don’t I make you believe it, can’t you hear it when I speak 

Don’t you wonder why eyes never meet when we talk 

Don’t you wonder why I’m always in the dark

Weed & Speed
04:07 May 28 2011
Times Read: 535

so I was thinking, what should I do this evening? 

I could puff a fuckin blunt, I could go out drinking 

but I’m already drunk and my trunks full of weed and 

I reek like skunk, and the phone keeps ringin



[WHAT?]- oh, it’s Mr. Christopha Walkin callin 

talkin bout he’s comin down now to solve all 

my problems - and bout how he’s bringin a volume 

of speed so strong, it’d prolly make me think I’ve gone and



fuckin vanished and managed to land on a planet 

where every man is seen speaking scrambled spanish and, 

where every damn PIECE of my sanity’s damaged, 

with EACH and every milligram, fillin my hand up



well, damn it, I couldn’t plan it better myself 

I told him: roll the fuck over, get to spreading the wealth, 

I shrugged my shoulders, stood up to steady myself 

hung the phone up then went to go, get ready for hell



cuz when I really wanna have a ball, 

I just pop a little motherfuckin adderall 

by mouth until I’m bouncing around the walls 

up and down all the halls, all about to fall



fuck it - dip to the mall and I’m scaring people 

get so high, I’ll buy shirts from American Eagle 

why? I’m not really sure, but I swear it’s the evil 

chemical mixture, that’s apparently seeped through



the brain tissue in control of my deep view 

on issues involvin shit people would tease you 

on. if they only knew I was rockin these see-through 

tops with these boots, they’d probably geek, dude



it really doesn’t matter cuz I’m really fuckin madder 

than any hatter, on addy, I’ll shatter ya, matter-of-fact 

I’m a tad bit badder, it’s sad, I better get outta 

here I don’t hear the little pitter-patter of ya chitter-chatter



We’re delirious, we experience physical symptoms 

that were never meant to give us intentions 

to continue binging on perilous chemicals 

with visuals so clear, they’re appearing in digital



I haven’t been to sleep for a week, I’m living in

a tree-fort with a teen whore and a mean score 

of weed, spores and assorted LSD, tore 

up from the floor up, and I know I need more 



I rock pockets, fulla hash and caps with sockets 

smashed through em, to take gravity bong hits 

so massive, after you have it, you black out 

fall down or pass out, now, everybody gather round

JUNKY
21:25 May 26 2011
Times Read: 572

I jus took some benzedrine Percoset codeine

dusted up smoked some weed candy flipped

and popped in Visine

so my timing may be off I vaporize 2 fuel the cough

adrenaline is pressuring Doctor bring the medicine

some ketamine Vicodin Xanax and anthrax

I'm hiding all my needle tracks I'm fighting off heart attacks

nosebleeds cheap speed shitty weed all seed

gettin frisky dirty deeds sippin whiskey on my knees

about 2 burn out crooked mouth turned out on anotha bout

I'm chillin in a glass house pourin anotha glass out

I'm goin in my stash now there's nothin I ain't usin

GHB LSD Valium and Ecstasy

Pop mescaline with Mexicans put ether in my napkin



I can't help but 2 help myself I'm losing my mind I need help

filling my mind with doubt I'd do anything 2 get out



5 AM fully geeked sweat tricklin down my cheek

mouth bone dry can't even speak the cover girl 4 heroin chic 



the enemy inside of me pressures me intentionally

coke wench tweeker bitch cocktease

best friend park bench make the switch some of these

a few of them I wake up bent my money spent

how'm I gonna pay my rent

my sugar daddy needs the ends

my dealer is my new best friend

waking up in strangers' beds with these voices in my head

drunk slut coke blunts junkie bitch bathroom bumps

homeless broken out of luck and really jus don't give a fuck

uneffective unemployed unstable null and void

my vanity has been destroyed the famine keeps me paranoid

blacked out white lines highballs crooked spine

comatose overdose took it 2 the borderline

sirens ambulance doctors cuttin off my pants

black & blue in ICU I've got a 50/50 chance

19:09 May 23 2011
Times Read: 588

Words turn into blood and the blood keeps on pourin'

From every poor I wipe it off cuz this just could be the moment

Now someones gotta die and I'm my only opponent

Cuz I won't watch my baby cry so I keep on just goin'

Am I a man or a beast it's mother nature at least

Watch humanity cease cuz it's our human disease

You gotta kill when you gotta kill yeah that's what they say

And I can't go against God's will you better pray

Cuz I'm an angel a demon yeah I'm hell and I'm heaven

I'm everything you couldn't be now you believe in the devil

I gotta Pick up the pieces I gotta bury them deep

And when the dirt hits the coffin just go to sleep

Bitches Get Stitches BOTDF
23:05 May 20 2011
Times Read: 597

Stop the hate, congratulate

You know my name, so eat some cake

Party hardy, grab Bacardi

Talk your shit, watch you get hit

Save the drama for your mama

What's up with that awful gossip?

Don't be mad 'cause my hair is so rad

Life is good up in my hood



Bitches get stitches, they end up in ditches, so get the riches



Check yourself before you wreck yourself

Oh my god, blah blah blah

I'm rated X for explicit sex

You can talk your shit

You can run those lips

You're only making me famous, you Ignoramus

I'm so dangerous, so-so-so-so dangerous

04:04 May 16 2011
Times Read: 601

I'm on the evil way I need to be

But you did this so easily

I tried to treat you equally

And listen to your reasoning

But you waited so eagerly

While plotting and deceiving me

You came behind me secretly

And shattered every piece of me

I have nothing to give, so

I give you my life

Didn't want to see me live, so

You give me your knife

Did he hear you as you tiptoed

Coming from behind?

You took away my kid

So I guess you killed me twice

Led me into the night

Because it's the one thing you keep

You knew that I had to die

So you could finally sleep

This blood all over your knife

You know, you've earned yourself

And it's a matter of time

Before you burn in hell

03:56 May 16 2011
Times Read: 602

I'm ashes to ashes

I'm dust to dust

And when a man

Turns to ashes

Forget about love

Like the feeling inside you

With the bottle beside you

You both end up empty

Like an angel just died too

I look to the heavens

To the sky and the rest

I looked inside myself

I felt my heart in my chest

Something so point blue

There's nothing to say

Some hearts to stay true

When falling away

Come lay down beside me

What you and I mean

It's only what I've seen

It's only just one dream

01:05 May 10 2011
Times Read: 609

Ive been home for less the 24 hours and I've already made plans to go to the Island for a few days leaving tomorrow morning. =D sometimes I wonder why I even have a home and pay rent. I should just live in my car. Lol

FML
10:53 May 05 2011
Times Read: 619

I guess it takes sitting in a hotel room alone drunk at 3am to realize just how alone you really are. Going home tomorrow..to my cat. Wonder if anyone has noticed that I gone considering not a single one of the people I call friend has bothered to contact me and I never told anyone I was leaving....FML

05:22 May 04 2011
Times Read: 623

Beautiful night in whistler Were getting shit faced and crazy, we're screaming, "Fuck the police"

00:37 May 03 2011
Times Read: 639

Dear ocean,

You are really beautiful an I love the way you smell.

Love,

Killette