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I've got cigarette burns on my skin and I don't even smoke

As I'm chokin on this kush and I'm ready to be pushed over the edge

I need a second to release this mental pressure

All my life I was neglected now addiction has me feelin dead

And it's too heavy blacked out in my best friend's Chevy

El Dorado sitting on top of cinder blocks choppin rocks

On the back of skateboard decks where's the meth? creepin death

Heart attack where's the motherfuckin jack?



I need a breath I need a sip I need a puff I need a hit

Needy little pity girl self-destructive fuckin bitch

Sicker than some sickle cell syphilis or gonorrhea

Lick tequila off of mirrors waitin on my fuckin dealer

I need my shit on spec cuz I'm broker than a rubber check

Rubberneckin yellow lines down Mulholland morning time

Push it to the borderline I'm borderline obsessed

And I still have some shit to get off of my fuckin chest



Unwrap the fears and sip the tears watch me walk away

To the Twilight Zone I'm too high I'm stoned

I'm stoned Come to the Zone

I'm haunted by the repercussions I can feel the reaper rushin

Puffin on some reefer with my hands around the bottle clutching

Shivering I'm blown 2 bits What the fuck? One more hit

Close my eyes to paradise I'm paralyzed over it

I'm over it and showering and flying on the ground

And I ain't never comin down

Unless it's downers in my Jack and Coke

Mixed up with some smack and coke

Like a John Belushi joke DOA at the Chateau

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Moirai
01:52 Dec 10 2011

This is brilliant! Very edgy, disturbing yet alluring, raw, emotional regurgitation with grit and sauciness...I absolutely love this! Brava!

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I'm talking 2 myself again whispers, little noises. 

Even when I'm stoned I'm hearing voices,

arguing decisions with these petty little bitches.

Who won't leave me alone itching in my throat 2 speak these things I think I shouldn't say.

U shouldn't stay just let me go I told U so jus get away.

Now U know I'm not OK.



I've sniffed smoked copped coke.

Spent my life in a cloud of smoke coughed choked overdosed.

Woke up in a hospital and I thought it was destiny 2 die with a needle next 2 me.

Be like mommy U can't calm me I've made a fuckin mess of me.

I'm so depressed I'm burning I'm obsessed with me jus turnin in my sleep its hurting as I bleed I think I cut too deep.



No more ether spoons or glass half moons huffing glue in crowded rooms  I'm so consumed with my psychiatrist who sparks psychotic fits

with pills and pills and pillsa shit.

Substances 4 illnesses hurry quick go get my kit I need a muthafuckin fix



Here I go anotha bend anotha binge with my syringe.

Where I've been I've no idea what's tangled in my dirty hair.

Strip me down 2 vacant stare little girl alone and scared.

Knowing that I need U there but U don't care.

I hate U like I hate myself I will erase U as U cradle me in filth.

Holy Spirit Holy Ghost noose is tied up 2 the post.

pulsing blood is rushing Lord I'm coming karma comatose.