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Wee....not really. I've been rating house members like crazy for a while now. And I've noticed something. I rated a lot of them before I even joined the house. :P Haha.Kiara

Sitting here in chem again. I wanna go back to bed...I'm all crampy. Midal anyone? Or pamprin atleast? lol Or how bout some chocoalte...dumb period. Makin me all crampy and moody and cravin chocolate. Meh. I'll go back ot sleep when I get home. Sorry, no VR after school today I'm to tired...

Kiara

Your such a bitch to me. Nothing I ever do is good enough for you. My grades are not good enough for your standards, my friends aren't good enough, my playin isn't good enough and my religion isn't good enough for you. Well tough I'm not Christian and I'm not perfect so you can kiss my ass. Give me another 309 days I"ll be 18, then a few more and I'll be outta your house and your hair forever. I'll be outta this state 6 months after that and you will NEVER hear from me again! I will sink back into the shadows which you lock me in, never to be seen again...

Kiara

Well I had an interesting bus ride home. *evil grin* My rule is if you lick my hand I get to lick yours...I have a bit of an odd hand fetish...hehe. Well Chris licked my hand by mistake, so rules of teh Kris I got to lick his hand. Chris taste like baked chicken, Sexy Kyle like white rice, Brenden like water chestnuts, and Ethan tasted liek sausage. GOD LORD I HATE SAUSAGE. Shit it was nasty, I had to lick Chris again. Then they made me lick my hand, I taste like raw red peppers. :P Bus rides are boring.

Kiara

I won a favor!! That makes like 3 total...no lie. Thanks to my mysterious coach!!!!!!!!

Kiara



.:Update:. Won another

Well let me get right to it. My mom is a bitch, hates me and I fucking hate her. I may not be in Ohio much longer. She said she was going ot send me to live with my dad in AZ. That would make me very happy. Out of the two of them I like him better. I'll happily pack all my stuff, get on a plane and be the hell outta here...if only she would.

Kiara

Ich fühle munter heute Abend!

Kiara

Well first I have to drop my alto solo for contest cuz i have no one to play piano for me. So that bumed me out, I get in the car to tell my mom and she starts ranting on how I am worthless, a watse of money and a waste of her time. That goes on for 5 min, nonstop. Then we get home, she stops for a few min then starts back up again, while I'm tryin to get ready for the jazz festival thing. I said I wanted to leave at 5, I was ready at 5:06...6 min big deal! Things go ok at the festival, till I burn my arm in the kitchen. I get off kitchen dupty and walk around with my two friends...and that depressed me big time. If only he could see...*sigh*

Kiara

Getting ready to class. I have a hist test...ugh. Joy what fun. Flunk for me I didn't study. Nah, I'm not that bad at hist. But still kinda bad. Just a few min to bell. See you all tonight. Its Jazz Festival tonight.

Kiara

Yes, I have a new home. I'm happy. Now I get to play more hangman...and lose. Maybe I'll get better at it I hope. But I don't think so.

Kiara

Hehe, I'm on the induction list. I may have a new home! We'll see in the morning.

Kiara

Well I'm tired tonight so off to sleep for me. People are unreliable sometimes. They don't geton YIM or call back when they say they will. Meh, hope I get to talk to them tomorrow. I know I'll see Joshy tomorow...he better remember my folder. Thanks in advance if you remembered it Joshy, if not...we'll see won't we? Yes, well I am going back to sleep, I've been up for over three hours...that's to long if you ask me. But, hey I got a lot done in three hours. Go look at my profile for some proof. Night to everyone who reads this. So night Fiz, and thanks for helping with my profile again.

Kiara

Home, I logged in at school this morning. I had a miserable day...I log onto VR and what do I see in my inbox? "Deity has kicked you out of The House of Madadh-Alluidh." I have no home now, yeah sure I live some where but I have no home now. In real life here, I live in a broken home. I've disowned my mom and my dad and mom had disowned me. I am yelled at everyday and called worthless a few times. I am told I am a waste of space, waste of a person and a waste of money. How much better her life would have been if she hadn't meet my dad. I have no home here. The house was my home, and now I have none...

Kiara

I've been kicked out of my house...:'(

Meh, no one was really in a talkin mood tonight...Three people to talk to and all busy...to many IMs, earning favors like a monkey and crack, or to busy for me. Meh thats ok, still love ya...just wanted to talk tonight to someone thats all. I've been a bit depressed all day. I was lookin forward to comin home after practice and talkin, but nope. Get hit with house stuff and bust frineds. Its ok, I'll just talk to the wall. Its never busy. LOL...sad sad little person aren't I? Sigh...:'( it seems whatever house/conven I am in goes to shit...I was in unholy star and we all know where that went and now this house is going to shit now as well.

Kiara

I was gone for 3 hours and I come back and my house is in chaos!! Ah come on guys, ya go insane without me! LOL, kiddin, kiddin. I know some shit went down, don't know what yet though. And I am very lost. I hope to hear back form vampyresimmortalkiss. I asked Fox, but he wouldn't tell me, neither would Fiz, and Rob didn't know anythin. He was off earning favors like a monkey on crack! Haha. But yes, much sigh. What is goin to happen now? Am I goin be traded since I have a hard time earnin favors? Will somone defend me and get me to stay? I do not want out of the house. I love my pack members, we are in this together and I plan to fight to stay if i have to! Well I am off to chat.

Kiara

Practice wasn't fun. There was like no one there. I was the only one playin my part in 'Children of the Wind'. Meh. Still in a happy mood, won't let my ex callin and then runin away from home get me down tonight. Tomorrow maybe, but not tonight. Huzzah!

Kiara

Finally I've had a good day. I've been happy all freakin day! Thats kinda scary in itself, I'm never happy all day. And I sure as hell never wake up happy with a big grin on my face. But I did today. Can't for the life of my remember my dream...had to have been good though. LOL. Well off to practice now!

Kiara

WIshing is never enough. No matter how hard you wish for something, you won't get it. Well thats how it is in my lafe at least. So why do I bother to wish he will go out with me? Wish that he will see that I like him? Wish that he will not ignore me next time I see him? Wish that he will get on AIM so I can talk to him? Sigh...

Kiara

Well last night was movie night, and it rocked. Confused about the sigh title now aren't we. Well there is a good reason for it. I thought I was right about something...and I guess that I am not. So yeah, sigh. I thought I felt something and I was so happy last night. But hell, I was wrong and I feel like crap on the inside. Why do people toy with my emotions? I do not toy with others emotions, if i like someone I let them know. But yeah, sigh. Meh...

Kiara

I was once again havein a great day. Almost perfect maybe, then it died again as soon as Igot on teh bus. They made me sit up front again. But they let my 4 friends sit in the back. So what did we do? Well they moved up front with me of course! I am the glue that holds my boys together. With out me they get a bit to roudy. Hehe, gotta keep them in line and I love it.

Kiara

The Lovers of the Heart

In order to form a more perfect kiss, enable the mighty hug to promote to whom we please but one kiss.

Article 1:

Statement of Love: The Kiss

1. Kiss on the hand = I adore you

2. Kiss on the cheek = I just want to be friends

3. Kiss on the neck = I want you

4. Kiss on the lips = I love you

5. Kiss on the ears = I am just playing

6. Kiss anywhere else = lets not get carried away

7. Look in your eyes = kiss me

8. Playing with ! your hair = I can't live without you

9.Hand on your waist = I love you to much to let you go

Article 2: The Three Steps

1. Girls: If any guys get fresh with you, slap him.

2. Guys: If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.

3. Guys & Girls: Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.

Article 3: The Commandments

1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.

2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.

3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo

2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while

8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13. The way they smile

14. The way you feel when you see their name on the caller ID after you just had a big fight

15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them

17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"

18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt

22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!

23. The way they say "I miss you"

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to change the world

so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

This chain started in 1997. It is a love chain letter. In an hour you are supposed to send it to 25 people. It is easy, just look into chat rooms and find them. Anyway, send it to 25 people in 1 hour. Now here comes the fun part. You then say the name of the person you like or love and then the person will say "I love you," or "Will you go out with me?" NO JOKE!!!!!

NOW THE CONSEQUENCES

The consequences are: If you break the chain letter, you will have bad luck in future relationships. If you don't break the chain, then you will be a happy camper!!!

Re-post this as :: How Much Girls Mean To guys

I was havin a good day today, really! I was lookin forward to sayin I had a good day in my journal. But no, the bus driver was a bitch again. She tried to make the four of us sit in different parts of the bus, so we got off and walked home in the cold. Damn was it cold today, and my legs hurt now to. They're gonna be so sore in the mornin...blah...

Kiara

I should really stop wearing this choker...meh. I prolly won't, I like it to much. It may make me almost pass out everyday cuz I wear it to tight, but what the hell! Whats life without some fun huh? Well, almost passin out isn't that much fun...but meh. Off to talk to people for half an hour...blah. To many IMs!!!! And James, please no quantum physics tonight, I have a head ache.

Kiara

OK atleast I didn't have to sit up front today, but his sexxyness Kyle did. So it wasn't as fun as usual. Well half way home some idiot decides to set off a stink bomb on the bus, and say it came fomr the back. Who sits in the back? Me, Ethan and Brenden...but it wasn't one of us. I almost puked all over Ethan from the smell, we were all gagging and I was all huddled in my seat with my hoodie over my head to get away from the smell. So I open a freaking window, is that a crime? The bus driverse comes back and starts asking questions, and who will they blah eh? The funky lookin white boy, the chunky white boy, or the girl with the pentagram? They picked me, the girl with the pentagram. What the fuck! Dammit, I was the one about to barf on everyone. Why the hell would I do that to myself?! They said I opened the window to get rid of it. Well watch the fucking bus tapes, I threw nothing out the window, I was tryin to get some fresh air. Geez, let the asthmatic gets some fucking air before I pass out. Ugh...

Kiara

I liked these, so true.





13. When your on the phone with them late at night and they hang up...but you miss them already when it was just two minutes ago



12. You read their texts over and over again...



11. You walk really slow when you're with them...



10. You feel shy whenever you're with them...



9. When you think about them, your heart beats faster and faster...



8. You smile when you hear their voice...



7. When you look at them, you can't see the other people around

you... all you see is him/her...



6. You start listening to slow songs, while thinking of them...



5. They become ALL you think about...



4. You get high just from their scent...



3. You realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think

about them...



2. You would do anything for them...



1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole

time.....



Now make a wish



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post this as "13 signs of falling in love"

*and something good will happen to you tonight



(I don't believe in this repostin crap, blah)

My day just keeps getting better and better...please notice the heavy sarcasm. So anymore bad news from other people? I'd like to get all the shit outta the way at once. The fucking whore of a bus driver made me sit up front because I was defending myself. I spanked Chris, like i always do and he grabs my wrist and shoves it towards his crotch. So I am fightin to get away from him and his sexyness Kyle gets him to let go. I turn around and smack him a few times then continue to play smack him. The bus drivers get up and yells at me to sit in the front. Ugh, stupid whore. But on a happier note, I found my 3 inch safety pin! How come I can only find my damn safety pins when I am depressed. Meh, well I have found them, all 100 and some. So I am kinda happy. Blah! *screams*...=) I fell much better...

Kiara

My best friend, who is like a sister to me, and her family is my second family. Her Dad was in a horrible car crash on fri. He was rearended by drunks that were going over 100 mph. He is in the hospital now, had surgery this morning and must have a few others. It is a mirical that he is alright. Hopefully he will be home on Wed. I hope he will be alright. Hope you get better Dad!(I call her parents Mom and Dad. But MY dad may be going to jail for assult in a few weeks)

Kiara

I learned three things this morning, and all in about an hour.



1-Don't play DDR right after you wake up.

2-Don't play DDR on an empty stomach.

3-Brittish and Irish accents are hot.



LOL. Haha, got bored this morining I guess. I learn more at home then at school. Thats prolly not a good thing. But meh.

Lets see, I hate waiting around for people when they say they are going ot be on at a certain time...like now. I've been siting on for over an hour and a half...*taps foot* Not fun. So well I am off now. An hour and a half is long enough to wait to talk to someone. He might have a good reason, he might not. Lets hope he does, I've had a bad morning and in a bad mood. >:)

Kiara

Blah... I sat and stared at the clock for over 5 hours waiting for it to hit 9. I watched Van Helsing, Secret Window and half of Terminal, took a nap and spent 2 hours puttin my moms christmas tree away while she sat on her ass. And I'm freaking allergic to the plastic the tree is made out of, the palms of my hands are still red. So I have one thing to say...OWE!

Kiara

Haha, I beat you Fox666London! I rock, and I beat you by one! Woo for the dark one! Score! 38 to 37! Huzzah!

Kiara

Ugh. I got up and put pants on to get online...and I have no friends. No I don't walk around my house in my panties, I walk around in shorts that should be panties though. Well I'll prolly get going in a few min. I don't like wearing pants when I don't have to. Like right now, so see you all tonight.

Kiara

Woo! Krysta is hooking me up with a friend of hers. Thank you! So yeah, I'm likin him so far from what she is telling me. 5'6'', brown hair and eyes, skater, built, and a good sense of humor. He sounds like a pretty kewl guy so far. =)

Kiara

Well today went good until lately...sigh...I am sorry I was not on, I was dragged away to the evil Walmart...Tonights a full moon so that good atleast...but you were on and wouldn't talk to me...sigh. Days not lookin so hot right now, lookin a bit teary though...Well, I guss I'll run and be back a bit later.

Kiara

I, I'm driving black on black

Just got my license back

I got this feeling in my veins this train is coming off the track

I'll ask polite if the devil needs a ride

Because the angel on my right ain't hanging out with me tonight

I'm driving past your house while you were sneaking out

I got the car door opened up so you can jump in on the run

Your mom don't know that you were missing

She'd be pissed if she could see the parts of you that I've been kissing

Screamin'



[CHORUS]

No, we're never gonna quit

Ain't nothing wrong with it

Just acting like we're animals

No, no matter where we go

'Cause everybody knows

We're just a couple of animals



So come on baby, get in

Get in, just get in

Check out the trouble we're in



You're beside me on the seat

Got your hand between my knees

And you control how fast we go by just how hard you wanna squeeze

It's hard to steer when you're breathing in my ear

But I got both hands on the wheel while you got both hands on my gears

By now, no doubt that we were heading south

I guess nobody ever taught her not to speak with a full mouth

'Cause this was it, like flicking on a switch

It felt so good I almost drove into the ditch

I'm screamin'



[CHORUS]



So come on baby, get in

Get in, just get in

Look at the trouble we're in



We were parked out by the tracks

We're sitting in the back

And we just started getting busy

When she whispered "what was that?"

The wind, I think 'cause no one else knows where we are

And that was when she started screamin'

"That's my dad outside the car!"

Oh please, the keys, they're not in the ignition

Must have wound up on the floor while

we were switching our positions

I guess they knew that she was missing

As I tried to tell her dad it was her mouth that I was kissing

Screamin'



[CHORUS]



So come on baby, get in

We're just a couple of animals

Get in, just get in

Ain't nothing wrong with it

Check out the trouble we're in

Get in, just get in

1. Tell her she is beautiful



2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.



3. Hug her from behind



4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.



5. When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.



6. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.



7. If you're talking to another girl, when your done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....let her know she's yours and they arent.



8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"



9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.



10. Play with her hair.



11. Pick her up (she loves it)



12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesnt like it



13. Make her laugh



14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.



15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.



16. If you care about her, then (we all know this is a challenge) TELL HER



17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal(she'll hug it everytime she goes to sleep), jewlery(will treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed) and don't forget to bring her flowers or something special once in a while.



18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.



19. Look her in the eyes and smile.



20. Hang out with her on weekends (guys, this WILL NOT, i repeat WILL NOT kill you)



21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)



22.Kiss her just for the heck of it



23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.



24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if its simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.



25. when she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just when ever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (itll make her happy.)



26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her thinks you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute.

Yeah been havin better days, cept yesterday...spent the moring over the toliet narfin my guts out. Not fun. Oh and now I have a research paper due in two months I think...maybe sooner. But I'm doing it on the 'Burn Times' of Germany. It really interests me, and the teacher put a 3 and a half page limit...no fair I can write twice that easy. He better give me an extension. Grr. Meh oh well. Stupid english class...

Kiara

And I would do anything for love

I'd run right into hell and back

I would do anything for love

I'd never lie to you and that's a fact

But I'll never forget the way you feel right now,

Oh no, no way

And I would do anything for love, but I won't do that

No, I won't do that



Anything for love

Oh, I would do anything for love

I would do anything for love, but I won't do that

No, I won't do that



Some days it don't come easy

Some days it don't come hard

Some days it don't come at all, and these are the days that never end

Some nights you're breathing fire

Some nights you're carved in ice

Some nights you're like nothing I've ever seen before or will again



Maybe I'm crazy, but it's crazy and it's true

I know you can save me, no-one else can save me now but you



As long as the planets are turning

As long as the stars are burning

As long dreams are coming true

You'd better believe it, that I would do



Anything for love

And I'l be there until the final act

I would do anything for love, and I'll take a vow and seal a pact

But I'll never forgive myself if we don't go all the way, tonight

I would do anything for love

Oh, I would do anything for love

Oh, I would do anything for love, but I won't do that

No, I won't do that



I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that



Some days I pray for silence

Some days I pray for soul

Some days I just pray to the god of sex and drums and rock 'n' roll

Some nights I lose the feeling

Some nights I lose control

Some nights I just lose it all when I watch you dance and the thunder rolls



Maybe I'm lonely, that's all I'm qualified to be

That's just one and only, the one and only promise I can keep



As long as the wheels are turning

As long as the fires are burning

As long as your prayers are coming true

You'd better believe it, that I would do



Anything for love

And you know it's true and that's a fact

I would do anything for love, and there'll never be no turning back

But I'll never do it better than I do it with you. So long, so long

I would do anything for love

Oh, I would do anything for love

Oh, I would do anything for love, but I won't do that

No, I won't do that

No, no, no, I won't do...



I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do that

I would do anything for love

Anything you've been dreaming of, but I just won't do...



But I'll never stop dreaming of you ev'ry night of my life, no way

I would do anything for love

Oh, I would do anything for love

I would do anything for love, but I won't do that

No, I won't do that



[Girl:]

Will you raise me up? will you help me down?

Will you get me right out of this godforsaken town?

Will you make it all a little less cold?



[Boy:]

I can do that

I can do that



[Girl:]

Will you hold me sacred? Will you hold me tight?

Can you colourise my life, I'm so sick of black and white?

Can you make it all a little less old?



[Boy:]

I can do that

Oh no, I can do that



[Girl:]

Will you make me some magic with your own two hands?

Will you build and emerald city with these grains of sand?

Can you give me something I can take home?



[Boy:]

I can do that

I can do that



[Girl:]

Will you cater to every fantasy I got?

Will you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot?

Will you take me places I've never known?



[Boy:]

I can do that

Oh no, I can do that



[Girl:]

After a while you'll forget everything

It was a brief interlude and a midsummer night's fling

And you'll see that it's time to move on



[Boy:]

I won't do that

I won't do that



[Girl:]

I know the territory, I've been around

It'll all turn to dust and we'll all fall down

Sooner or later you'll be screwing around



[Boy:]

I won't do that

No, I won't do that



Anything for love

Oh, I would do anything for love

I would do anything for love, but I won't do that

No, I won't do that

Being ignored is not fun, but I found someone interesting to talk to. Someone I enjoy talking to, if only we were on more at the sametime. But, talkin to them for a little bit is better than nothing. =) Well off to continue talking to him.

Kiara

"in this life the next or when we are reencarnated as buterflys"

I had a bad day, well morning really. I smshed my toe in the door and it's broken. Well it might not be, but sure as hell hurts like it is. ugh. But hey I got to stay home from school today, so that makes me happy. But it still hurts and it happened over 12 hours ago...and it looks really nasty, like someone tried to bite my toe off.

Kiara

I just feel so broken right now. Torn and shredded in so many ways. Over love, long and sadness. But mostly a deep sadness. I cried myself to sleep for the first time in months...almost dried on the bus ride home also. Funny really how your friends care when your sad, but could give a shit less of you are happy. But I got a promise from a friend at the party today. I hope she can help me...

Well, I am off to shower, then try to get some tear free rest, which I doubt I can do. How can I not cry when I fell broken like this? When my heart truly aches for no other reason then sadness? So I shall again tonight, for the same reason again...



I just wanted someone to talk to...is that really so much to ask? Maybe it is...

Kiara

Just got back from the wild band skating party. And damn so my feet hurt...the one is a little swollen...ugh. Over two hours on my feet in skates, and skating nonstop. Yeah that'll do it. And I need a shower really bad right now. I feel all nasty. That rink was really hot, and with some two hundred people...nasty. But it will wait I am talkin to someone special to me! Hehe.

Kiara

I have been having the same reacuring dream every night since the 21 of Dec. Well almost every night, there have only been a few days I have not had it. It starts out simple enough. A large black panther enters the dream, sometimes it just lies with me for a while, others it just paces a little ways away from me. The odd thing about the panther is, it has blue eyes. And everynight after a while, it turns into a man. And I think I will keep the rest of the details to me...*wink* if you know what I mean.

I see you everynight in my dreams, but never in these halls of hell...

Kiara

Yes, sadness does consume all. All happiness all joy all good feelings. I hope you find a way to stay...I'd miss you way to much. It makes me cry just thinking you might be gone soon. Don't go, please....

Kiara

My heart feels as thoguh it has been torn to shreads...I have four guys who love me. But I only love one. I feel bad for the others. I am sorry guys, but there is only one of me and four of you. I only need one, but there is still room for friendship isn't there? Or is it already to late? I love one as a lover, two as friends and just wish to be rid of the other for a while, and maybe be friends. Sigh...three I've meet here and the other I know in the flesh. And all seem to want me as a lover. Sigh. Am I that sexy? I think not, but check my portfolio for yourself. The one I love isn't here right now...he may read this in a bit, I hope so. I love you, not the other three that are trying to 'take me away from you.' But sadly you are not here right now, one is on, but hasn't talked to me in a while. So maybe I offended him and her hates me now. That makes three guy instead. The other is sometimes on, but not lately, and the last is never here. Wonder how things are going to work out for me...

Kiara

I feel like meh today. My friend is trying to talk me out of doing something, but she is wasting her breath. I made up my mind and I am going through with it...if I can wait that is. I was gonig to do it today, and another friend yelled at me. I have one yelling to stay and another to go, but wait til next friday. Ugh I want ti over and done with now damnit. I can't stand it anymore!!

Kiara

Ugh...two people and one comp don't mix...she was on for three hours and I am just now able to get on...I am also sorry for what I will do in a week and a half. Thank you for the many months...but I hate you now. I just want to be friends with you, I think I love another. May we part, yet still be friends. Since I see you everyday in the halls of hell, but never in my dreams...

Kiara

I need some sleep...got maybe an hour or two of sleep last night and maybe another half hour two hours ago. Can't sleep for some odd reason...yawn. I am so tired, but sweet sleep eludes me so. Gonna have to go to the store and buy a bunch of sleeping pills. I'll be careful not to over dose, I'm not stupid. LOL.

Kiara

Woooo! I am free of what I hated. Haha. *dances* LOL...now I feel lonely all on my own. But better then being stuck in something I hated very deeply. Thank you Cancer!

New Year...woo? Meh don't really care. Never have. wey, five more months of school isn't to bad to look forward to. I fee l lot better today. Huzzah! Hehe. Well I am off to wander Vampire Rave.

Kiara

Well I am back tonight. Scared myself silly with horro movies and then laughed my head off watching a bit of Monty Python. I love them. Well I feel a bit better, but there is still room for improvement...sigh...

Kiara