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it hurts so much when you are not near. why did i let you get close to me knowing that we are from two different worlds that only know how to hate each other and spill blood. i belong to the night i have for so long and you the light. i wish i could have found you once more before you left that rainy day. what would it have changed to tell you all that i feel that i need from you. would you have changed for me? one will never know for you are gone and i am standing here alone on the shore and hope that you could find your way back to me my love and maybe we could find away to make what we have work for us, i find myself longing to be close to you once more and knowing that you made your choice to stay by her and love her not matter what you may feel. i see you from afar knowing that is as close as i can get to you without being burned once more. just as i think i am able to stand and handle life on my own you show up and with that smile and the softness in your voice how you use your words to break me back down to the mess i was before. i need to be free from you but i find that everywhere i turn you are there. i wake up some times not able to breath. i wish i never got to know you and the way you make me feel when you are close to me. i swore i never would let that happen ever again. but how does one stop the heart from want what it wants and knowing that it is the one thing that you cant have no matter what. for it isnt good for you at all?