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It's actually scary, I haven't thought of my father once for at least a whole year. But somehow this morning I remember, it's actually kind of sad if you think about it. Your probably asking:



How can a daughter forget her father soo easily and not remember him till now?



The answer is simple, I don't really know why I forgot. Maybe because I was too busy with school, or taking care of my mother, or maybe it's because I just didn't give a damn.....



Or maybe it's because I was just trying to hide the fact that I do miss him and that I don't want to show people my tears for someone they hated for abusing me..... But I don't care anymore, I don't care for the simple fact that all I have left is my family and my uncle.



I'm tired of losing people that I love and care for so much. But, I know it's not going to end... I'll lose my uncle, then my mother, and later on in years between my sister and I.



Once that happens, everyone I love won't be around anymore for me to ask for help. No one from my past will be there to cry for me, only the children I have in the future will. But just like everyone, they will forget to remember me in time and I'll be nothing but a fate memory....



I'm babbling, I know, but somehow this fits for my father and you know what.... I think he would be proud of what I'm saying and for forgiving him.



I love you Dad ~ Al J Hardee~