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01:07 Apr 04 2009
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look out VR.. KK ish feelin a il EMO-ish ..
faithful readers to the Chronicles Of Kamiland, already know it happens from time to time.. just roll with it .. read it or not its gonna happen lol.
So, tonights episode began earlier today, with a phone call from an old friend. See, there are things I dont talk about lol .. and one of them, was the fact that an old boyfriend and I have been talking for QUITE a while now (and when I say old .. I mean from 20 years ago lmao) .. he married after we broke up, and was never truely happy, but stayed for the kids yadda yadda .. the age old story ... last year .. he got in touch with me .. they had seperated, she was pregnant by someone else .. yadda yadda .. they were divorcing...
ANYWAY ... he and i spent hours on the fone a few days ago ... and during that time, one thing that was discussed.. was us getting together this weekend (tomorrow night) ... THAT was the main reason, I wanted to be home from Mississippi by tonight ..
well this morning his sister called me, she and i remained close after he and i split up all those years ago ... and even though we might go LONG spells without seeing each other or talking ... we were always more like sisters than anything ... so she calls me to let me know that HE DAY AFTER he and i talked for so long ... he moved back in with his wife ... guess he's gonna babysit that other guys baby huh? *snort*
to be honest... i was expecting it .. but also to be honest .. it stung .. yanno??
then later in the day, on the trip home, me and Jenn and Smooch, stopped and ate .. and there was a couple sitting not far from us .. bless their hearts , they WERENT a very attractive couple, but they were cute "together" (if that makes sense)... and as we walked out .. Jenn says ... "Did you see that couple sitting behind me?".."Yuh" i says ... and she says ..."That just goes to show ... theres someone out there for everyone".. part of me was really offended by that .. but i KNOW she didnt mean it TOTALLY the way i took it ...
"OK.." i said.."you just keep thinkin that way ..." ..
i dont think thats true ..
the *someone out there for everyone* thing ..
so i get home ..
and im online .. talking to friends .. and it hits me .. during a conversation with someone .. the whole "someone out there for everyone" thing.. as i am talking to one friend that is telling me about meeting someone new, and reading around here there and yonder on several sites i belong to ...
seems the whole SPRING IS IN THE AIR thing .. is werking for alot of folks .. cept me lol
so yeah .. im feelin down .. sorry for myself... lonelier than usual, and more convinced that ever that there ISNT someone out there for everyone..
i mean come ON ...
i've sat by and watch total fucking MORONS and RETARDS.. find someone ..
im not a bitch (contrary to popular belief lol) i've never gotten pregnant by one man while married to or living with another ... im a damn good person ..
and
alone
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COMMENTS
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CarnelianMyst
01:12 Apr 04 2009
*hugs* aww hon..you hang in there. Men...sheeeeeit! Can't live with em...can't run over them in your truck either.
Sinora
08:22 Apr 04 2009
*Agrees* with crab Mom.
Teradin
01:38 Apr 15 2009
But... there is someone out there for you.. I just have to practice throwing bricks better... I will get him for you.. :D
JackofSpades83
22:49 Apr 19 2009
The "Spring is in the air" thing is a myth.
It misses me every year haha.
One foot in front of another is the best game plan in my not so humble opinion...
Cynics prevails because they expect to lose. Then, when you end up winning its a nice surprise. ;)
Mardigan
18:54 May 05 2009
Hang in there baby. There is someone for everyone, just sometimes they never meet. We occupy the same boat.