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I'm all alone, there's nothing left.

This is no joke, it's my last breath.

Dont want to talk, dont want to dance.

The end is here, it's my last chance.

Walk away, I dont care.

But I'll still see you everywhere.

I went out with my friends last night

It's my birthday, gonna do it up right.

But in the middle of the drinks and wine

I take a good look around and find...

I'm the last one to be all alone....



Becky's married, she's got three kids there with Jim,

And Carla's mother has the baby for the weekend,

Sarah's wedding is happenin in July....

And then there's me... myself... and I.....



A slow song comes on, and I stick to the bar

No sense in handing a stranger my heart.

I watch all my friends dancing, holding each other close

I'm crying inside, but none of them knows....

I'm the last one left all on my own...



Because....



Becky's married, she's got three kids there with Jim,

And Carla's mother has the baby for the weekend,

Sarah's wedding is happenin in July....

And then there's me... myself... and I.....



I keep my eyes down, and glued to my drink

Then there's two shoes, at least I think...

I look up, and there you stand

You flash a smile, and then take my hand...

And suddenly I dont feel so alone...



Becky's married, she's got three kids there with Jim,

And Carla's mother has the baby for the weekend,

Sarah's wedding is happenin in July....

It's no longer just me.. myself.. and I...

I see her with you and I all I can feel

Is how it isnt right and it cant be real.

You said you wanted to be with me forever

But seeing her arms around you makes it look more like for never.

One minute you were with me, right next to me

The next thing I see, you are laying in bed with someone else... someone that isnt me.

Dont you get that I want to be with you?

Yes, I am jealous of her, that much is true.

She doesnt want you the way that I do,

She cant make you happy the way that I want to.

Where else are you going to find someone that knows you so completely?

Where else are you going to be able to be yourself so freely?

To find someone who loves you for you, and not for what they want you to be

Do you really think you can find someone out there who will love you more than me?





Written About My "Ex" Girlfriend.



God only knows that girl can make me feel things that no one else ever has... its like she sees through me, and into my soul.. terrifying really.. but I dont mind, because it is her....

Yesterday sucked, what else can I say?

A million empty promises came across my way.

A vulgar, ugly feeling, the only one I've felt.

I found myself dealing with the life I had been dealt.



Today was just as bad, you see...

I dig myself until I bleed,

A drop of blood, I do not heed.

I disgust myself, I make me sick.

To forgive myself there is no trick.

I'll never do it, never forget...

My worthlessness, all my regret.



A week ago I was just fine...

Nothing left but tranquil time.

I stand here now, a broken glass,

A broken girl with a broken past.

Tomorrow where will I be?

What will happen, become of me?

I'll be dead with no way back...

My soul an empire under attack,

Legions of demons, fire, and doom...

Doth my body slowly consume.



I am not sorry,

I do not fear.

I have no worry,

I shed no tear.

You think that it is funny to bring up the past....

Would you think it was so fucking funny if I beat your fucking ass?

It isnt so bad that you brought up HIM.....

One that left me and broke my heart over and over again.

No, what really fucking hurt is that you brought up HER.........

MY LITTLE GIRL!!!

It isnt bad enough that her daddy couldnt be a man...

He couldnt claim her and love her, my poor baby, Riann.

It's not enough that I lost her and that she was beat out of me...

Or the fact that I held her in my hands when she came out of me.

It isnt enough that she never took her first breath of air...

That I didnt get to hold her, or even brush her hair.

It isnt enough that I see every lil girl and wish she was here....

It's not enough that I have missed her every day for over two long year.

You think that it is funny to bring up that pain....

Open the flood gates, my tears come like rain.

The one thing I think of is never enough....

The fact that she is better off, her life is now not as tough.

I know I have had my problems, I know I have been in the wrong...

But god damnit that doesnt help when I know that she is gone!

You fucking bastard how DARE you presume...

That I should 'JUST FACE IT' and you assume....

That the pain that I feel for her isnt here every day...

Fuck you, what would you do if your life turned out this way?

In short all I have to say is that I face it all the time...

There isnt a day that goes by that SHE isnt on my mind!!!

I love you my baby, my lil girl, Riann Marie...

You are always in my heart and always part of me!

If darkness had a child,

And evil had a name....

If tears could stop the bleeding,

And a smile could stop the pain....

If hell were just a sauna,

And love was just a game....

Then I would wait forever

To feel that way again!

What happens when you wake up and the story is all wrong?

You cant find your glass slipper and Prince Charming is gone?

You're left with one fat pumpkin and two big rats to boot.

And you're evil, ugly step-sisters have made off with all your loot?

When your riches turn to rags and your spirit really sags...

When you know his love's untrue, there's only one thing left to do.



My....

Boyfriend got ran over by a carriage....

Walking home from church this afternoon....

Running from this temperamental marriage....

A case, no doubt, in which he was the groom!



Now you can say there's no such thing as Karma,

But as for my Fairy Godmother and I...

WE BELIEVE! ;)