In Loving Memory of Ruby Marcum...
02:35 Sep 30 2007
Times Read: 797
I lost someone dear to me yesterday. Someone who means a lot to me for many reasons. Someone who I will miss very deeply. You see, I remember back one day when I was just a child. Kindergarden. I was kinda excited and at the same time mad because I thought I could learn all I needed from home. Well 4 months into it they had a "Grandparents Day" where you could bring your Grandma and Grandpa to come eat breakfast with you and then you could show them all the things you were learning and stuff? Well my Grandma couldn't come. They had bingo that day and she wanted to do that. I mean, come on, who could blame her? She only had 4 weeks notice, how could she possibly change her plans then? I wasn't going to hold that against her. After all, Bingo is important to old people. So, I had all intentions of going my own self. Well the phone rang about 8Pm the night before Granparents day and who was on the line but my Great Grandma. My dad's mum's mum. She told my dad she wanted to talk to me. Well this struck me you see because I was still little and no one ever called wanting to talk to the kids, you know? It was always "Hello?" "Oh, Hi son, where's your mommy or daddy?" or "Hey, what's going on?" and before I could even answer "Let me talk to your dad." I was used to that, since my Grandpa died, but what I wasn't used to was getting calls since him. Well I picked up the phone and it was my Great Grandma as I said and she asked me "I was wondering, I have the day off tomorrow (She was on her last year before retirement) and I was wondering if maybe I could come to that breakfast at school?" she told me "No child should be without his grandma and I just hope that Great Grandma is enough for you." Well of course it was, how could I say no? I mean she was offering to spend her day off at some snotty Kindergarden class with kids picking their noses and eatting paste and she wanted to be there with me. That in itself meant a lot but as I continue here, you'll see it means a lot more as time goes on. Well I told her I'd love for her to come and she told me she'd pick me up and take me in to school. Well we ate breakfast that day, doughnuts and juice. It wasn't anything fancy but then again, this is public schools people, it wasn't Yale. So we ate. Then when most of the grandparents went home, she stayed. She sat next to me as I did my numbers and letters and all that good stuff Kindergardeners do and she smiled the whole time. She'd tell me what I was doing wrong and how to fix it, like my own personal tutor. Well this made me happy. This is the last time I remember being happy as a child. It continued up until recently that I wasn't happy. That's another time though. Anyways. She stayed. 3 hours extra she stayed. (We did the all day Kindergarden.) She stayed until recess. She told me when the bell rang she said "Justin, I have to go now. I had a lot of fun staying here and being with you but I want you to go play with your friends now. A boy needs interaction with other kids and I think they're playing Kickball over there. Go on." So I gave her a hug and I thanked her. It's more then that though. More then just a simple thank you. Later I found out she really didn't have the day off. She called in sick just so she could go spend the day with me. That means a lot. It really does. It means something deep inside. It really does. I'll never forget that day because it was so perfect. If felt so right. I almost felt normal. Fast forward about 13 years. I went to vistit her in her nursing home (She had alsheimers and had to have a nurse with her constantly or else she got into things. Got in a fight once. My dear old Great Grandma, and broke this old ladies arm because she stole from her. Spunky and at the same time, it shows what Alheismers does to you. She'd have never done that before she got ill.) I went to see her as I always did. Well she was telling her friend in the room "My Great Grandson is comming to see me. You know the one right? The one I went to that school with and had Breakfast. We had doughnuts and orange juice. Well he had orange juice, I prefered apple." and that right there, her being sick and all, that right there proved to me that she did know how much it meant to me because it meant the same to her. She never forgot me in the four years she was sick with Alsheimers. Never once. Everytime I went to see her it was always "Well there's Justin." always ever single time. I'm really going to miss that old lady. I really am. I love you Great Grandma, and I'll never ever forget you!
[][]**In Loving Memory of Ruby Marcum. **[][]
1913-2007
04:19 Sep 17 2007
Times Read: 806
This is for ETERNITY! This is for ALL TIME! This is FOREVER! This is for ALWAYS! This is for LONGER then FOREVER and this is for LONGER then ALWAYS! This will NEVER EVER end and it will NEVER EVER falter! This is something not even YOU nor I can EVER STOP and this is something BEAUTIFUL! This is something PURE! This is something to be PROUD of! This is FOR REAL! This is something so WONDERFUL and so AMAZING that I've NEVER felt ANYTHING like this before. This is from my HEART and my SOUL this is something for EVERYONE TO TAKE NOTICE OF! This, my love is from FATE and it's UNSTOPPABLE!!! This will NEVER EVER do ANYTHING but GROW and it will only INCREASE! YOU'RE MY SOULMATE HORTENCIA AND NO ONE, I MEAN NO ONE WILL EVER CHANGE THAT! I LOVE YOU with ALL of my heart and ALL of my soul. More then LIFE itself more then ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. I love you more then ALL THINGS. I love you with EVERY particle of my BEING, with EVERY fiber of my SOUL! Nothing will stop my love for you. NOTHING! Nothing will change it nothing will dampen it and nothing nor anyone can ever tarnish it. I'm yours just as much as you're mine baby. I LOVE YOU! I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU! WE ARE FOR ETERNITY!
I MISS MY HORTENCIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
18:09 Sep 05 2007
Times Read: 821
I MISS MY HORTENCIA!!!!!!!!!
It's been like 5 days since the last time I talked to her and it's been horrible, no joke. I miss her like crazy and it actually hurts, physically, that I can't talk to her like I used to. I miss her that much. Not hearing from her is like a day without the sunlight. Dark and cloudy and alone. I MISS YOU ANGEL FACE! Hardcore, Oh My God, ultra, mega, woah! Style. Really. ~hugs and kisses to his Hortencia.~ You're my everything. My all things. My heart and my soul. My life and my love. My happiness and my joy, You are, now more then almost ever, the reason I'm alive right now. You are my lover and my significent other. My girlfriend and my soulmate. I AM going to spend the rest of my life with you. Regardless of what it takes in order for that to happen. I Love you Hortencia, don't you ever forget that baby!
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