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Well I'm not going to let today be a bad day. I'm going to make the most of it. Go me!

So I was updating my status today for the first time in a long time. Usually I just let it do it automatically when I get on? Well I clicked update and what do I see? ShadowPaws has blocked me. ROFL! He comes on MY journal preaching about love and how I should move on just because my relationship got tough. I was nice about it at first but this guy doesn't know me, he doesn't know the situation and he doesn't know what this girl does for me. He has no idea of the love she gives me. Just because she doesn't always show it, that doesn't mean I should give up. ShadowPaws if you read this you're halarious. Pat yourself on the back with your paw, you deserve it. You made me laugh. ^.^

Who knew a little notebook could make one so depressed?

I'm not sure what to say here. I mean, I like to find good in everyone. I really do. I look for it in even the darkest of places. I seek it out and I try and multiply it until it over shadows all the bad. I'm never repaid. I'm never compensated for my time and effort. I'm only cast down into the depts of damnation and accused of the most horrible things. Yeah, I have faults. So do the rest of us. I'm not perfect and I've never claimed to be but all I've ever asked for is a little effort and a little honesty. That's all. That's all I've asked for out of every single person I meet. That's it. That's not so hard. If you feel something express it. Don't express the oppisit or I'll believe what you're expressing. Maybe it's easy to lie to me. Maybe it's not so hard because I believe in people. I believe in good. I know it's in everyone but some people would rather be assholes then have the good come out of them. Maybe I should stop trying to find the good and find myself. *sighs* Happy freaking valentines day to me. *scoffs*

Why is it hyper, perky, energetic moods rarely last with me? I can wake up horrible and it lasts all day. I wake up hyper and it's gone by early evening? *sighs* Sometimes I wish 5 hour energy gave you perky too.

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Armand
02:41 Feb 14 2010

Becasue its easier to keep the horrible moods you dont need to do anything about it if you dont want to but its harder to keep the happy and perky moments those may come voluntarilly but you have to make them stay on your own

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No one calls me babe but you she says. Ugh. And Yeah, She may be sexy, but she's fucking MINE

So apparently I'm only happy when I have video games. At least that's what she says. And no this isn't a witty joke either, I'm serious. She actually said that in her journal. She must not realize that every happy feeling since I've known her has had her in some way shape or form involved. She must not know that I'm only happy when I'm with her, that I'm only happy when I can come home from whatever and she greets me at the door. She must not know the complete and utter pain I feel when she's not with me. The sorrow I feel when she's hurting me or the anger I feel when she's dismissing all of my feelings of love and adoration. Alas, sometimes people think they know what you mean when you explain something like love but in reality they have no idea. I think it's better to say you have no idea then to claim you do and underestimate it.