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11:41 Apr 30 2011
Times Read: 683
Please help me reach sire, I have no life, self respect, or pride at all. I just want to be a high level and maybe start my own coven with people of similar self worth as myself!
Uh, really? Is this website so important to people that they must beg, and yes, it's begging, for people to help them reach a certain level? I've seen seven people with a kismet similar to that tonight. SEVEN! And, four people with a kismet like this. "Please help so and so reach sire" What? lol I don't even rate these people to be honest. If I see you have rated me, because I rarely rate first, but when I click on your page and your kismet or quote is begging for a rate so you or someone you know can reach sire? You get no rate at all. So you've defeated your purpose. Good for you. XD lmao
11:32 Apr 29 2011
Times Read: 686
6:23 A.M. and I still haven't gone to sleep yet. Wrote a poem though. I haven't done that in a while and it's pretty decent. I might put it up here but only after I show my girl as it's for her. *smiles* Yup, for you my love. I'll probably go either train my pokemon on White or read. I ebooked The Great Gatsby so I may start that. My girl saw a movie about it and she really enjoyed it and since I can't find the bloody film, at least if I read the book I can share her interest in it. I like having stuff in common with her. She made me really happy today. This may not sound like much to anyone reading this but she showed me some of the pictures she took when she went to this Renaissance fair. I not only like being included but I love looking at this girl. She's so gorgeous. I'm going out on a limb here and saying she's quite possibly the most beautiful girl I've ever met, seen, thought about, read about, or dreamed of. She's really that awesome. Sometimes on here I've been known to write what I'm feeling at the moment I'm sitting here looking at this screen and it's not always showing just how awesome this girl really is. She truly makes me happy and I wouldn't trade her off on her worst day. She's a keeper and I won't let her go for anything or anyone. I really love her. She's my soul mate and I'll be spending the rest of my days with her. I can't believe I'm watching the Roadrunner on Cartoon network right now. XD I never cared much for these older cartoons when I was younger but there is absolute rubbish on right now and I'm not really in the mood to watch that royal wedding and all that. It makes me miss you uber lots. That's why I don't take interest in it. I know, I made it sound like Brits bug me but it's not that. It's the fact that it makes me want to be with you. To watch it with you and all that. I'm emo tonight huh? Oh well, you'll still love me. You're awesome like that. Now on to find something to occupy my insomniac mind. Roadrunner just went off and I'm not into watching Ben 10: Alien Force. XD Who comes up with these titles? rofl I love you angel face. I really do. *heart*
20:45 Apr 28 2011
Times Read: 690
Just want to take this time to give a shout out to my friend Matthew. He's going through a rough time with the recent bad weather outbreak and I wanted to make sure he knows I'm here for him. My buddy's a real good guy and a great friend and this is my way of saying I'm here for you bro. I'm sorry for your losses.
13:48 Apr 27 2011
Times Read: 691
It's 8:44 am and I haven't gone to sleep yet. I'm really nervous but I have no idea why. I have a really bad feeling something not so good is going to happen but I don't know what, why, where, who, and all that jazz. I don't know why I'm feeling this but 90% of the time when I feel this way something negative happens. I wish I could just foresee it all and not just the long black cloud hanging over my head itching like a mosquito bite inside your chest where you can't scratch it or put any of the fancy cream I never use on it. I just hope I'm wrong. Being wrong right now would totally rock. I'd even tell myself I told you so just for the simple fact that I want to be wrong this time. I want to be wrong. I don't want anything bad to happen. Things are finally stable. I like that. I hope it can stay and I hope whatever does happens isn't devastating. I can't do devastating right now.
05:57 Apr 27 2011
Times Read: 694
Watched a movie called Husk from Afterdark productions last night. It's one of the new Afterdark originals. That movie gets an automatic five stars because it made me jump for the first time in YEARS. I'm a big horror movie buff. Been watching the horror genre for about 15 years now so that stuff doesn't do anything to me anymore. I don't get squeamish, I don't get grossed out and I certainly don't jump. I just don't and that movie actually made me do just that. I totally recommend it. Characters aren't too likable but really, what movie has likable characters anymore? lol 5 out of 5. Go see it!
03:48 Apr 27 2011
Times Read: 695
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This is certainly something to pay attention to.
10:49 Apr 25 2011
Times Read: 700
Just finished watching Scream 4 with my brother and it was actually pretty decent. Wait, did I just say that? O.o No, but really, I totally didn't expect the outcome to go the way it did. My eyes were on a certain someone as Ghost face but it went a whole other direction. Nice and refreshing. Not a bad movie at all really if you're into slasher flicks. I'll probably watch the Source Code tomorrow and if my site gets back up (down for maintenance I believe) I'll get I Am Number Four and see how it goes. I also got the Due Date with beardy from the Hangover in it. He's always funny so we'll see how that one turns out. I'm beat but not really super sleepy. Hopefully when I shut this bad boy down I can actually get some Z's and not in the middle of the evening like today. Sorry I missed your message babe but I'm glad we got to talk regardless. I love you. Well off to see about those Z's. I hear they need catching XD lol
10:03 Apr 24 2011
Times Read: 704
Just finished watching Paul. That movie was pretty funny. The cam I saw was pretty horrible, I'll admit but once a better version comes out I'll totally watch it again. My favorite part in the whole movie is that part where Paul, Clive, and Graeme all hug and Paul is like "Whoa, Clive. I can totally feel your boner." lmao That part was so random it made me laugh for like a full minute. lol It was an overall pretty good cinematic adventure. I'm probably going to watch either Scream 4 (The third one sucked so here's hoping they've fixed it? Doubtful, I know.) or Source Code (Interesting idea, lets see how they handle it) tomorrow and I might download I Am Number Four if the mood hits me. Read good things and bad things about Sucker Punch so I may or may not watch that one. Vanessa Hudgens as anything but a giddy little school girl has the potential to be a little refreshing? Nah, Face it, lord knows the girl can't act so maybe they can have her as a mute character. :) Yup, can't stand her. rofl And NOW some much needed, terribly needed, OMG I need this sleep cause I'm draggin balls. *insert Eric Cartman face here*
20:16 Apr 23 2011
Times Read: 710
I know it's cliche with all the movies and books coming out with vampire topics and what have you but I really think this newest dream may have something to offer. Yeah, I know. I've said it before and I've started two other novels and never really took them anywhere. So I'm just going to throw this idea out there and see if some day I run with it. Magic dragon stone made into a ring. Ring gives wearer magic powers. Ring is the source of a war between humans and vampires. Ring passes owners through death. Either natural or murder. Vampires want ring and human teenager has ring. It was much more fleshed out in my dream mind you but that's the gist of it. I'm weird. I know. XD lmao
01:12 Apr 23 2011
Times Read: 715
Feeling kinda blah today. I woke up like every ten minutes for like 4 hours and so it kinda took it's toll on me. I've felt kinda lazy and stuff all day and I haven't really done much. I did have a bbq rib sandwich for lunch though and man did it hit the spot. I love those little mini rib looking sandwiches? I know it's probably not that great for my diet and full of stuff I don't even want to know about but that little rib sandwich tastes so fucking good sometimes lol. My dad's being a dick again today. When isn't he right? Sometimes I wish he'd just go play in traffic but then again I don't really wish that. I just kinda think it'd be funny to visualize him getting dragged down the highway on the back of a semi truck in his wheelchair. Somehow picturing that makes everything a little less sucky. :D XD
03:02 Apr 20 2011
Times Read: 725
Gamestop REEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLY wants me to buy something from them. I've gotten the same ad in my email like 6 times in the past two days. The same ad. The SAME one! lol It's like "Okay, I get it, Gamestop, You want my cash. The thing is, if I had cash, I'd want it too!" XD
12:39 Apr 16 2011
Times Read: 735
It's 730 am and I still haven't slept. Insomnia again. It left me alone for several blissfully sleep filled weeks and now it's back with a vengeance. I'm really in the mood to play Assassins Creed: Brotherhood but seeing as I don't have it nor the funds to acquire it, I'm a little sol on that. And I never did get around to working on that piece of writing I wanted to do. I ended up getting frustrated at myself for being so lame that I watched Cops instead. XD Thank god for NCIS to keep me company when I can't sleep. Doctor Mallard has to be the coolest M.E. ever. Palmer kinda annoys me though. I'm not sure if it's his awkwardness or his being so boring but he bugs me. That and perhaps because his haircut is bad, I'm not quite sure what it is actually lol. Rumor has it that Gibbs will take another leave of absence at the season finale but I don't think it'll be him. I think it'll be DiNozzo because of Rule Number 12. That opens the series up to take a much more serious look at McGee. They seem to take him too lightly, I think. He's got great potential and I think they kinda under use his character. Or, Tony and E.J. could end up calling it quits and things move on like they should anyway lol. You never really know until you find out. Ah, look at me, I'm raving. Happens when you're lacking sleep. That and I really like NCIS. lmao Unlimited Dr. Pepper, an NCIS marathon and a Scizor action figure might make me forget about most things on most days. XD But not everything ever and certainly not on all days. But now I'm getting to technical, aren't I?
03:04 Apr 16 2011
Times Read: 741
I didn't want to write this prematurely (giggedy) but after finishing his meds and gaining a good deal of weight I think I can safely put this. My cat is doing a lot better. He was on an antibiotic for seven days and after taking it three times he showed noticeable improvement. Then every day he got noticeably better. Now he's eating and drinking like he used to and he's jumping in any lap that will hold him and purring. He's doing a lot better and I'm grateful. So that's the update on him. I'm really glad. :)
06:54 Apr 12 2011
Times Read: 762
So I'm mega frustrated right now and I'm in the mood to write. I was going to wait until she read what I wrote before and gave me a little feed back before I continued. I wanted her to help name the main character. That way he could be "our" elf. We could mold him into whatever we wanted but I don't see that happening in the near future and I want to write. So I'll probably name him myself. That or start a poll here. I think I'm at a high enough level. That way at least someone can give me an idea on what name sounds best. I'm not sure yet. I'll probably just fucking pick one, that's how mad I am right now. *sighs*
06:48 Apr 12 2011
Times Read: 763
I'm so sick of getting shit for something I can't control. Every month or two it seems we have the same argument about the same thing. It DOES sound like a broken record because the argument is STALE and the reason it's stale is because it's about something I can't change. It's like bitching at me because I'm white, it's not something I can fucking control. I didn't choose to live 2000+ miles away, I didn't choose to have my soulmate live on the other side of the fucking country and I didn't choose to fall in love with a girl so far away. You can't choose that. You can't choose who you fall in love with. You just fucking can't and no matter how badly I want to be there and she wants me to be there I can't be yet. I'm going to fucking get there as fast as I can and until then that's all I can fucking do! It's not like I'm deliberately doing shit that causes me to stay here. I hate the town I live in, I hate the people in it and I can't stand being around my family 80% of the time. I'd much rather be with you but you don't see that. You only see what you want to see, You blame me for it. I forgave you for not moving here like you said you would, the least you could do is let me actually do it like I said I would on my own time. As whatever god is out there as my witness, I'll be living in L.A. as soon as I fucking can. You have no idea how grateful I'll be for the day I touch down. Maybe then, maybe after I'm there we can finally move the fuck on and get over what used to be and concentrate more on what could and WILL be. I'm really fucking looking forward to that day. I really am.
04:58 Apr 12 2011
Times Read: 766
OMFG Psp got a permanent price drop. $129.99 what a horrible time to be poor :'(
18:14 Apr 05 2011
Times Read: 783
My cat was acting like he was feeling worse so we took him in early this morning. They said he had a gum infection but his teeth were fine. They said he was really dehydrated and that he might have leukeima and that since he was so dehydrated his kidneys might be failing. They gave him some antibotics and fluids and sent him home. They said if the antibotics don't start helping him in three or four days then it's probably one of the other two problems and if it is he won't make it. So I made the decision that if it is one of the other problems then I'll let them put him down. I don't want him to suffer and as much as I want him around it's not about me. It's about him and what's best for my cat. I love that cat but if he's going to be in pain and go slowly regardless then I don't want to put him through that because I'm selfish. I'm not really in a talkative mood today vr so don't fuck with me. I'm sad. I probably won't be around much until I know what's up with Cecil unless I'm venting in my journal. Later.
09:34 Apr 05 2011
Times Read: 786
I can't sleep. I'm pretty scared right now actually. My cat's been sick with a bad tooth for about a week now and he's lost quite a bit of weight from it. He been eatting up until yesterday although much less then he usually does but today he hasn't touched his food at all. He's got an appointment with the vet tomorrow but he looks so small. I'm worried. He used to be a big buff strong cat and he looks like a little kitten now. He's still jumping in my lap and purring and wagging his tail and what have you but I'm just worried I'll get there tomorrow and the vet will say there's nothing they can do for him. I don't want to have to put him down. I love that cat. He's kinda like one of my best friends. He's kept me sane in this house full of mad men and women. He's a good cat. He's a great friend and I don't want to lose him but when it comes down to it? I'm going to do what's best for him and not what's best for me. I'm really scared right now. I'm actually shaking as I write this. I bet people will read this and say "Oh, it's just a cat get over it" and to those people? Fuck you. You guys don't know what it's like to be in my shoes and for you people to just disregard any life even and animals is fucked up. I love that cat. He's family.
05:59 Apr 05 2011
Times Read: 787
HOORAY! Birthday poem for my girl was a success. I was worried about it because I wanted to really cement some of my feelings and thoughts on paper. I'm so glad she liked it. And she showed it to her co workers so that was like a totally unexpected surprise for me. I'm so glad she thinks it was worthy of showing other people. I worked really hard on it for like 4 days and so I'm glad it paid off. It's hard trying to fit everything you want to say to the girl you love into five four verse stanzas. I'm glad it was a massive success. Go me! Happy Birthday baby!! I'm glad you liked it! :D
15:50 Apr 04 2011
Times Read: 792
Insomnia. What's the best way to deal with not sleeping? Do something that makes you sleepy. What's the best thing to do when that doesn't work? Do something that utilizes the insomnia and use it to your advantage. Finished cleaning my room, did crunches till my stomach wanted to bleed and squats until my legs burned so badly I almost tried to fire extinguish them. Had a bowl of cereal, drank some orange juice and watched a movie. Limitless. That movie was pretty good. That guy from The Hangover is in it, (No not beardy Zach with the weird last name, the other guy.) and he was actually pretty good. I wish there was an actual drug like that though. I'd make my girl so proud. To have limitless potential would be amazing. Since it's not though, I'll just stick with plain old me. That's the guy she fell in love with anyway, so I can't be all bad. *smiles* I'm about to crash though. Seventy-two hours with just 3 hours of sleep isn't fun times and I'm starting to finally slow down. I think it's the abdominal burning that's causing it lol or the screaming hamstrings. But hey, at least I'm not wasting the insomnia by staring at the clock wishing my eyes would close. I totally used to do that and it was lame XD
13:12 Apr 04 2011
Times Read: 795
Insomnia yet again. Ugh. It's a pain in the ass sometimes. I kinda want to work on my newest novel project. I feel I can take that one places at the moment and I can't because I still haven't named the main character. *sigh* But it's storming and for some reason that feels like it should be noted lol. I'm currently watching Intervention. Those people make me sad sometimes because I could totally be in that situation if it weren't for my girl. Then again I'm kinda addicted to her so maybe I should be on there? o.o lol Nah, I'd rather stay addicted to you baby. I love you! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
08:02 Apr 03 2011
Times Read: 813
I need to make some friends who also have insomnia. :D Other then you Matthew I annoy him enough XD Cause like no one is on and I totally need advice about something I've been working on for the past 3 days. It's kinda like driving me crazy cause I'm not sure if it's good. Ugh, and I hate when people say "like" similar to the way I just did. rofl Although it's kinda a staple transition now so I had better get used to it. I use it all the time when I talk. Talk about hypocritical lol
07:13 Apr 03 2011
Times Read: 815
Ah, fuck you AP! Lol The stupid April fools thing messed with me. They did a page in the news section about how they were discontinuing the free membership and that now you had to pay to use it? I had a mini freak out because I has a free membership. Turns out? April Fools. Ahh! They got me and I didn't get anyone this year. Shame on me XD
07:02 Apr 03 2011
Times Read: 816
Can I get any more bored? Ugh!
01:53 Apr 03 2011
Times Read: 822
Bored... so fuckin.. bored... *dies of boredom*
09:40 Apr 02 2011
Times Read: 828
Insomnia's kicking my ass again. Super mega tired but I cannot fall asleep for the life of me. Just laid in bed for like two and a half hours and nothing. Ugh, I hate that. And no one won the cool points for the NCIS quote. Shame on you guys. It's from the commercial with Abby. They say "More NCIS coming up next" and she says "It's like having just one pistachio." and Gibbs looks at her and she says "Well, have you ever had just one pistachio?" XD
02:32 Apr 02 2011
Times Read: 832
Is it just me or does NCIS totally and completely rock? Lol I think Tony is hilarious. Ducky has to be my favorite character though because he's a lot like me. Gotta love NCIS, it's like eating just one pistachio. 5 cool points if you can guess that quote XD
02:57 Apr 01 2011
Times Read: 721
Totally not feeling so well today. I got four hours of sleep last night and it blew. I think that's why I feel so blah right now. On the plus side my pokemon on Pokemon White Version are coming along nicely. Currently using an emulator. Hey! *flips vr off* Don't judge me! lol (Oh, but piracy is illegal! *gasp* Yeah, fuck off. If I cared I wouldn't have downloaded that shit) Other then that I've been all lazy today and not really feeling like myself. So go me or something along those lines. Scizor ftw! XD
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Bijou
18:05 Apr 30 2011
some people are under the impression that if they are sire and have a coven this will improve their credit rating...some even think that becoming and admin will even get them some red carpet treat and discounts at wally-world (wal-mart), so they beg and whore them selves out. So they can feel big bad and important on a meaningless web-site. XD
JustinDupree
19:17 Apr 30 2011
LMAO! This makes perfect sense! That comment should be posted in the forums so that all may reflect on this extensive understanding of those strange and other worldly people XD That comment was awesome lol
Bijou
16:38 May 01 2011
:) happy to have cleared things up for ya :P