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I am feeling like something is wrong with my world and I cannot tell what it truly is. I just have a gutt feeling and its not normal. I get them when I feel something is up. However, I want to go to church since I have not been there in over a month between being sick and hurting and then being off kilter. I have been itchy all day too. I did not sleep well which is another problem. So I could be grouchy and just not up to par with the day. Though I did positive affirmations it did not keep me on track.
Okay watched a show that made me think what the duce?
When you hear a cloud of fluffy goodness do you think
A a dog or cat show
B a nra tv show called love at first shot
C a children’s show.

If you chose a and c you are wrong it is on a tv show called love at first shot and making women like how to fire a gun story… and they wonder why we have issues with young adults out there? Hmmm with a cloud of fluffy goodness coming out of someone’s mouth that basically is the poof you get from shooting a machine gun…
I am having hot cocoa and oreos after that who haha… Makes me think more sugar might make sense. blah

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DjShipWreck
03:15 Mar 08 2018

there is nothing wrong with your world,,,,,its just that the world is all wrong.....If your looking for normal life, just no there is no normal life, just life.......

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After being told by my pain management doctor that an internal neurostim is the answer to all my problems looking on line eds patients never go through this is. Or haven’t.. I tried eds place to find out if this is okay to do or not for I have eds and I know that my body is different then most. Plus the fact because of eds I have POTS which is like fainting but a tad worse seizures. It makes me wonder if that is truly an option. On that note…
Life in general having flash backs of past things and seeing them as opportunities to let go and let god have his/her way. I find it odd that after all these years I still find things I need to emotionally heal. The most recent mom. The dreaded monster like mommy dearest only worse. She tried to kill me and such so it was not a good time. I know she is dead and I actually felt a release that she was gone. I was actually grateful she died as fast as she did. She died of cancer so I was like it is done no more mind games lies and such. But years later shit pops up and I have to get rid of it for myself so I don’t have this cycle again ever again.
So I wrote her a note and burnt it in which I felt a tad release but forgiving her is harder to do and I know I need to for she did what she could as a mom on drugs and hating life and blaming all her troubles on me. Forgiving is a hard thing to do because she is dead one and two I really don’t understand why she told people about me and not tori. Dad did the same. Oddly enough people knew me and not tori my sister which is odd. What they said about me I have no clue. I tried to be okay with crazy one and crazy two. But mom kicked me out at 13 and I never truly looked back at that. So I did and felt like I forgave her. But something in my mind still brings me back to why am I doing that? For her or for me? Does the resentment go away and do I hold onto weirdness like never told before? Yeah weirdness. Not sure how to ponder it just did it and we will see how I feel in a few days.