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I don't understand why most people look at me and then think I cut myself. Just because I look "emo". I'm NOT a cutter, and most emos aren't even cutters. The ignorant need to learn what they're actually saying before they start spouting crap. Really..

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ladySnowStrixx
23:14 Feb 25 2011

hun, take it from me, its not gonna matter what you tell people they are always gonna believe what they want to. best thing to do is just let idiots be idiots. as long as you know who you are and what you do or don't do that's all that matters .

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Today I saw a new color. I can't describe it, because it's one of the many that exist outside of the normal spectrum, but it was among the prettiest I've ever seen.

It was pure... Beauty.

I hope my color is like that.

Anyway, I just got home from school and I'm juggling homework and VampRave. Geometry is coming more easily now..

Today is my little sister's birthday. She's twelve. I remember turning twelve. Such a horrible time.

This is getting disjointed so I should probably stop. That's all for now, I guess.

By the way, I'm open to a mentorship.. If you judge me worthy, please invite me.

Last night, I was in a mood and wrote this song that really came from my heart (no pun intended). It’s called My Heart, though I don’t really like the title and if you have any suggestions I’d really appreciate it. Please read it and comment.



(Verse1)

There’s a little time left

For tears left unshed

For things left undone

For thoughts left unsaid

Take what’s left of it now

And let it pour out

Straight into a dead heart

Till it overflows

Take what’s left of it now

And let it pour out



(Chorus)

I took the knife to my heart

Held it out in my hand

Still beating only in part

Still beating, can’t you understand?

The one I want, the one I need

The one for which my heart still beats

Took the knife to my heart

And held it out in my hand.



(Verse2)

This heart, it still bleeds

But oh, not with blood

What flows now is pure

Undiluted, but dead

It breaks with the words

That I want you to say

Take the things left undone

Take the thoughts left unsaid

Take what’s left of it now

And let it pour out.



(Chorus)

I took the knife to my heart

And held it out in my hand

Still beating only in part

Still beating, can’t you understand?

The one I want, the one I need

The one for which my heart still beats

Took the knife to my heart

And held it out in my hand.



(Bridge)

Now reach out for me

And take this dead heart

Keep it close to yours

And we’ll beat in part.



Take what’s left of me now

Pieces that don’t fit

The shattered remains

Of the girl who once said

To take her dead heart

And bring it to life

The dead heart that still beats

Still bleeds in the night

Take it out of my hand

Take it out of my hand…



(Chorus)

I took the knife to my heart

Held it out in my hand

Still beating only in part

Still beating, can’t you understand?

The one I want, the one I need

The one for which my heart still beats

Took the knife to my heart

And held it out in my hand.

I haven't been online the past few days and i apologize. Though I don't really know who I'm apologizing too..

Maybe I should write this as though I were talking to someone? It sounds like a good idea.

So, today:

I felt a range of emotions. I see them, too. I am one of the few who... I don't really know how to describe it. I see colors, around people, like.. auras? Spirits? Souls? I don't understand it. But everyone has their own unique color, for the most part. Which means there are colors left out of the crayon box. So to speak.

I can't see my own.

In general, these auras I see around everybody don't change, unless they are going through a major mental change, thereby giving another personality and color to the person. I've seen people who flicker in between colors, and these friends of mine are always going through tough times, like their parents having a divorce, someone they love dying, ect.

I can't see auras through pictures or videos. I have to see the person in real life.

If anyone can help me to better understand why I have this ability, please... Contact me. For my sanity, if nothing else. I'll keep updates of new discoveries.



~Jane the Reaper

Today was amazing. I don't think I've ever been so happy, and this feeling is new to me. I don't really know how to handle happiness, but I'll try. I guess this is the effect of being with someone you care about a lot.

That's all for now.