I cut my hair. I have given myself a layered cut. I am not a hair stylist, though I play one on TV. I do my own acrylic nails, perm my own hair, color it, and now I've cut on it. Actually, since I can't reach it properly, it's sort of a new kind of layered cut. *laughing* I rather like it. I have seen something much like it on other girls, actually. My hair is much shoter when curled, as it is now. Alittle scary. I tried to cut it when the moon was in Virgo, but I think it was bordering Libra, a barren planet, right?
I plan on going to a more intense level with the purple coloring, next time.
Why do I have to keep working out? I already worked out for a very long time, and was tighter, fitter, less dimples on my ass. *sigh* But, because I am at Rave during Denise Austin, I have skipped far too many exercise sessions, and replaced with Rave. *laughing* Ah, don't get me wrong, I love it here. I love my Admin job. I just sort of had the idea that if I got in shape and did the basics, without all the crazy aerobics, then I would be fine. Not so. So, now I have to get back into it.....at least for alittle while, until I am firmer again! *laughing*
Ouch, yes ouch! My legs are sore from Denise Austin yesterday morn. Tons of repetitive kicks, and lunges made Jamie a sore girl today. But damn my legs were tight...for awhile. *laughing*
I'm no stranger to exercise. I love to do it. I just don't want to right now and I still want to look good. *sigh* Not fair.
I was listening to Big Time Sensuality a few minutes ago. I can't listen to her songs, and not think of her in that stupid swan outfit, and the tantrums we see pictures of, in airports. You know the ones....of her beating people up. She is one crazy fucker. Do you think she heard me?
Course, I've danced on tables drunk, and am prone to strip tease when I've had way too much to drink, so who am I to talk? HA...
I have returned from mom and dad's. Not unscathed, but I have returned. Dad was actually happy to see me. I could tell by the way he was smiling and picked me up by my head, when he hugged me. Did I hear a rib crack? *smirk*
I got the Christmas tree skirt out and we all took pictures with it on. At one point I had it on me like a cape, and was flying at the camera like an ass. *laughing* But my favorite, was the one where I ducked down, to where you couldn't see my feet. I need to post a few of these. We are just nuts, I swear.
A powerful storm system that has formed in the Plains is intensifying as it heads toward the Midwest. This storm will accelerate as it moves northeastward across the Oklahoma panhandle, bringing thunderstorms, damaging winds, large hail and the possibility of tornadoes. Areas farther north can expect several inches of snow.
It is so cold tonight. That wind makes it intolerable.
Rain at the moment, and:
Temperature: 39° F
RealFeel®: 19° F
Yesterday is was 73. Florida sounds wonderful right now. Or, Austin, Texas perhaps?
Attacking and cursing at others in thread:
"i came for advice Daermon not a smartass,fucken response like that.U just kussed a decendant of
Vlad Tepes and i have the
power to make your dreams a living NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I try not to mess with human emotion,for
fear of being revealed,but for you i am
going to make an ecseption! Sweet dreams...Daermon!!! "
SUSPENDED 2 DAYS, "Attacking and cursing at others in thread."
And there it went.
--- On 04:36:04 - Nov 23 2005 - BloodBaby wrote ---
Sorry bout the bad forums but i really needed help on the subject.
What I wrote:
I understand that you were asking for help, and that is ok, under the right subject thread, which would be good under the last one, with unrelated subjects. But while I understand that you were asking for help, threatening others and rudeness cannot and won't be tolerated. For that reason, I must suspend you for 2 days. It could have been for much more, or indefinatley, but I think you will be much more respectful of others now. Right? Thank you for your cooperation.
--- On 04:48:54 - Nov 23 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
By the way, I know that you bombed my profile with a 1.
04:50:44
Nov 23 2005
sorry bout that i can change it:)
04:52:41
Nov 23 2005
Chek it know:)
~~I leave and come back later. He is real quick to write.~~
--- On 05:51:18 - Nov 23 2005 - BloodBaby wrote ---
Glad to see you back:)
--- On 05:54:40 - Nov 23 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
Thank you, it's good to be back. ;) I appreciate your kindness and being cool, but you do know that I can't take the 2 days suspension back, right? It's already written in the system. If after you get back, and you still want to be nice to me, then by all means, be sure and drop me a line. =)
--- On 06:00:18 - Nov 23 2005 - BloodBaby wrote ---
I guess i did deserve it!;)
~~TONIGHT, NOVEMBER 24th, 2005~~
He writes again, but under a different name. I knew immediately it was him, but wanted to make sure.
Blueeyedevil
00:37:06
Nov 24 2005
Hi, what was BloodBaby's problem yesturday? Bad day i guess.Few people saying the wrong thing? I don't Know...;)
--- On 00:53:37 - Nov 24 2005 - Blueeyedevil wrote ---
Hi agian, Beautiful:)
--- On 01:06:00 - Nov 24 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
Did you think I would not know that you are bloodbaby again?
--- On 01:09:26 - Nov 24 2005 - Blueeyedevil wrote ---
Who? lol how did you know? was it obvius:)
--- On 01:10:45 - Nov 24 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
Yes, it is. Naughty, naughty.
--- On 01:13:17 - Nov 24 2005 - Blueeyedevil wrote ---
nah, just smart. I have nothing better to do in my boring life. I thought you wouldn't ,mind thats why i gave you the hints:)
--- On 01:16:15 - Nov 24 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
Ah, but Cancer does. That is why I must follow my job rules too. Naughty you are.
--- On 01:32:44 - Nov 24 2005 - Blueeyedevil wrote ---
what so ever do you mean my darling?
--- On 01:36:31 - Nov 24 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
Oh you know---
--- On 01:39:45 - Nov 24 2005 - Blueeyedevil wrote ---
accualy i don't,but if it means deletion of my BloodBaby account, then use this one instead,Becuase i'm a caitiff, i,m not sosposed to be selected for inactivity,chek it its in the status system.
~~~~~Sidenote~~~~~
As we are speaking, I am suspending him. He doesn't know yet. You can tell when he realizes it.
~~~~~~~~~~
Blueeyedevil
01:36:56
Nov 24 2005
I was blueeyedevil even before i got suspended. I just made it more allaberate afterwords.
~~~~~~Note~~~~~~
He logged out and made a new account. I knew it was him, while looking for new accounts. So I wrote the new account.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
From:
B
03:25:08
Nov 24 2005
YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT.
I DON'T CARE HOW MUTCH POWER U HAVE HERE.
IN REAL LIFE U HAVE NONE. THAT MAKES U VULNERABLE! HA HA HA.I SERIOSLY BELIEVE
WE HAVE A PROBLEM AND I THINK IT WONT BE OVER TILL ONE OF US BREATHS NO MORE.
BLOODBABYBLOODBABY
BLOODBABYBLOODBABY
BLOODBABYBLOODBABY
BLOODBABYBLOODBABY
BLOODBABYBLOODBABY!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~~At the same time, I am writing this~~~
--- On 03:26:06 - Nov 24 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
Why must you waste time and energy? *sigh* I suggest not digging the hole deeper and just wait it out.
--- On 03:27:17 - Nov 24 2005 - B wrote ---
I wanted to keep BloodBaby,not blueeyedevil.!!!!!!
--- On 03:29:21 - Nov 24 2005 - Jamie wrote ---
I was kind about it at first and you could have just chilled and waited 2 days. Now you have threatened me and that is not cool. Do not take my kindness for weakness. Grow up.
From:
B
03:32:52
Nov 24 2005
FUCK U, FUCK THIS WEBSITE , AND
GO STICK YOUR CLIT IN CANCERS MOUTH. WHO KNOWS , IT MIGHT CONVERT HIM
FROM THE PUSSY ASS QUERE HE IS NOW!!!BLOODBABYBLOODBABYBLOOD
BABYBLOODBABYBLOODBABYBLOOD
BABYBLOODBABYBLOODBABY'''''''''''''
I have a pair of Cruel brand jeans. I kept them around to sort of measure where I was, size and shape wise, and where I needed to go from there. I only try them at the beginning of winter, every year. Once! I always have to lay down to get them on and struggle. *laughing* They are indeed, cruel jeans! But, I do get them on.....except this year. *sniff, sniff* I knew I had softened, since I wasn't working out as much. I've gained about an inch in my ass, or hips or wherever it is! I don't know, really, because I weigh the same, and measure the same. You will find, as you get older, that your body "shifts" itself. The ass crawls around to your hips. Oh mother nature is a cruel one.
Approximates:
23-24 inch waist
36-37 inch hips
Approx. 105-110 weight
(Somewhere in there. See, my scale is 5 pounds light, so with that, I weigh 96 1/2. I know this isn't right, but it sure looks nice. That's just something a girl has to do. When I got my driver's license renewed a few years ago, they accidently put 90 pounds on there. I said, "Oh hey, I'm not..........nevermind.". Eh, what's 10, 15 pounds or so? Or so...)
5'7
Before you cry for me, Argentina, know that the jeans are a size 1. I've picked up my exercise regimen.
I was talking to a friend on here, tonight, and she said she had a really bad headache and couldn't shake it. I asked what she had been thinking of when it first started. She said that a kid on here pretended to be dead, to mess with her mind and a few others on here. That took me back a few years to a similar incident and I told her my story and how I understood.
Several years ago, I had someone hurt my feelings really bad. Not just one, but 3. I had called a girl's (Beth) house that I thought might need to talk or be comforted after I'd heard that she and her soulless boyfriend had had a vicious fight. He is a very bad man.
When I called, Beth picked up the phone and pretended to be her 'sister' and said that Beth (my "friend") had died and that she was in town to take care of the arrangements. I was shocked and understandably very upset. Then, a different girl, Amy, one that I had had a fight with previously, and had issues with, picked up the phone and said, "Jamie, don't call here causing trouble!", and hung up on me. I still didn't understand what was going on, and called back to see how Beth had "died".
They put me on speaker phone and all were laughing at me, Beth, Amy and Monte, the asshole boyfriend. It was horrible. I don't talk to Beth anymore. She was a drug consumed, drunkard rich chick, that lost everything. Amy, I have reconciled with, but I am still hurt about a few things. Monte, he is still a prick, and I stay away from him. He told his father that D was faking his debilitating back condition, so that the rich father wouldn't compensate D for the injury sustained in Monte's parent's home. When he died, he left millions to a variety of people around town, but mainly to Monte. Nothing for D, except excruciating pain for the rest of his life. But I'm here, and have been, and will continue to help him.
I saw this in Daire's journal and thought I would give it a whirl. Not too bad.
Freudian Inventory Results |
Oral (43%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own. Anal (73%) you appear to be overly self controlled, organized, and possibly subservient to authority, this effectively narrows your exposure to a wider set of options and ideas lowering the odds that you will make the best decisions in life. Phallic (66%) you appear to have issues with controlling your sexual desires and possibly fidelity. Latency (60%) you appear to have a good balance of abstract knowledge seeking and practicality, dealing with real world responsibilities while still cultivating your abstract and creative faculties and interests. Genital (46%) you appear to be somewhere between a progressive/openminded and regressive/closeminded outlook on life. |
There were two cannibals sitting on a log, in a forrest, eating a clown. One cannibal asks the other, "Does this taste funny to you?".
Greetings! I enjoyed your reading and looking at your profile very much. Thank you for taking the time to make such a wonderful profile.
Hechicero
05:01:56
Nov 22 2005
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I can't imagine how this could possibly be better!!!
jdenoyon
06:19:50
Nov 21 2005
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great graphic design
Vamperellia
22:45:54
Nov 20 2005
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From:
Hechicero
05:26:40
Nov 22 2005
Greetings! I just wanted to take this moment to tell you that I absolutly loved your profile and portfolio. By your words alone and by seeing your pics I can honestly say that you are truely a very beautiful woman, both inside and out. It is an honor to be a part of Vampire Rave with you as an admin. Have a great day.
How to make a Jamie |
Ingredients: 1 part friendliness 1 part brilliance 5 parts beauty |
Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little lustfulness if desired! |
Fun for the hour! You can make your own song, with these little horses singing. Click each one to start them singing, and again to stop them individually.
Singing Horses
Cats, I'm a kitty cat!
Cats, I'm a kitty cat
"Orange Juice raped my father, so he is gay, 'cause Orange juice is male..."
I was taking a shower the other night, and spied a fly on the shower wall above me. I wondered to myself, "I wonder who that is?".
My younger Brother, Josh (we call him Jish, from The Blair Thumb spoof) came back from his travels and stayed here, for two nights, last week. He hadn't had a proper vacation before, and decided to make quite a trip of it and go meet the girl he had been talking to for a few years, online and on the phone, through work. She lives in Utah, and he is in Tulsa, Oklahoma! I thought this was very sweet.
He was there with her one night and he said it was a perfect date. They went to check out the Mormon church, ate dinner, and a bit of site seeing. He said it was hard to keep a straight face at the church while the tour girl was talking about Jesus living in space.
The next day, Josh's friend called him and said she was called into work and had someone coming in that was going to be helping them with the work, and that she wouldn't be able to spend any time with him so he should just go on home. He was confused, understandably, but decided to leave, and go to Loveland, Colorado where mutual friends live, stay there a few nights, and then head back here.
I had made a big turkey dinner that day, so it was waiting on Josh to arrive. Even made banana bread for dessert.
When Josh arrived, before eating, I got to see all of his snapshots of his trip. He visited so many places! I need to get the list! Garden of the Gods, Manitu in Colorado, a Volcano in New Mexico, Sand Dunes in Colorado, some Indian ruins in Colorado that looked way cool and many more places.
He stayed here from Thursday night until Saturday night and went back home. It was a great visit of hanging out, laughing, bit of partying, and Burnout 3 and 4 on Playstation.
After he left, we went to hang out at a local pool hall and watch them beat each other, drink. We did get a game of Foosball in there, and kicked ass. After that, we went to the cemetery that I wrote about in another entry, further down. I need to post those pictures.
Last Saturday, my two Betta fish, died, in their two different bowls. I have no idea how that happened. It was a very odd occurance. Now, the night before, I changed out their water, but I was very careful to swish the water around to even the temp throughout the cup I was warming the water in, via microwave. It is a process I did quite regularly for them, to make sure they were ok.
When I went to bed, Clem and Ahab were fine, swimming around and eating the food I'd just given them.
A few hours later and they were deceased. Was it grandma again (D's deceased grandmother hated animals, and the theory is that the ghost of grandma puts out the negative vibe).
They were buried North of the house, in the PET SEMETERY (as in the movie). All donations should be sent to the "Jamie wants a shiny ring fund".
I can't stop playing with this! I love this movie. I get such a kick out of it. It reminds me of my youngest brother! As soon as I first saw it, I was like, "HA! Justin!". I had to show it to my family and ask who Napoleon reminded them of.
Napoleon Dynamite Fun!
*looking down*
I need more boobs to fill this top in a bit more.
I am in the middle of making Totinos pizzas. Remember those? They are great! I love them. They are also lower in fat than Jenos. I burnt my 3 cheese, but that's ok! I like my pizza, like I like my men; burnt, crunchy and with some black olives.
Grrr! It makes me livid when the sellers on Ebay charge way too much for shipping and handling. If they want more for an item, then fucking charge more. I'm saying don't try to make even more money with shipping and handling. Ugh! My exchange with a seller;
stienman123:
Please add $2.00 to cover shipping as stated in the original auction. Item will be mailed once this payment is received. Thanks
Note, I've already paid for it, minus the shipping because it said on there, that the item was paid for, by the seller.
My reply:
Ok, so where do I click to pay on it, since I've already paid once? I don't see another on this email. I saw the original listing, but when I went to pay on it, I saw the note that the shipping was paid by shipper, to the left, where you leave comments. Since the charm is so tiny and weighs the same as a pea, I figured that was accurate, since I am sure $2 is not. Regardless, if you give a link or an address to send payment to, I shall tend to that right away via Paypal.
Thanks,
Jamie
I went to Sally's Beauty supply the other night and saw some bold colors for hair. Purple, blue, Oh, I can't list all of them. There are way too many! But, there is every color of the rainbow there. So I was thinking of doing purple again. It has been a few years since I tried the purple. I've never used the other blue, but all I ever see is blue that turns green! If only it would stay blue. I can't bleach my hair.
This person didn't seem to know. He thought he knew...but hesitated.
"i think your hot ? :)"
I had a genuine laugh over this, from the forum, before closing it. I think it actually gave me a headache. *head throbbing on right temple*
"The question that I would like to impose upon you brothers and sisters is this: Are we all truly dead, and reanimated? Vampiric folklore will have you believe that in order to be a vampire, you must first die. That is unless you are born a vampire, and then aren't you sort of a dead birth? If I died, I have no memory of it."
*sigh*
Hey lookee what I found! I found a jigsaw puzzle site! I was first putting together a Gone With The Wind puzzle and after finishing it, found a link from that site. I am going to do the mouse on cheese one!
Puzzle site
Mouse Puzzle
This past weekend we went to an old cemetery that I'd had my eye on, for quite awhile. It is about 30 miles east and south from here, in the middle of nowhere. The cemetery was hard to find and being dark, didn't help! There was an almost full moon though, and that did help. We finally found it and started tromping through the tall grass, and brush. The night was a cold one, so I was wearing my huge coat, which is warm, but huge on me, continously falling off my shoulders, making it a chore to keep on! And whew! It's a heavy one! A car was driving by, so we ducked down, hiding in the dead foliage. D looked over at me and said, "You look like a deer.". I laughed and said, "Well shit, I hope I don't get shot!". Many rednecks live in this state. The car passed and we went on to find a hole in the fence to slip through.
Inside, there was one rather scary tree, amongst the overgrown weeds and very old tombstones, from the 1800s. We caught quite a few orbs in our pictures. I loved it. Twice, a very strong and unexpected gust of wind whipped around us. We thought that odd and the wind dissipated as quickly as it hit.
The dates on most of the tombstones were hard to read at certain angles, and time was wearing them off almost completely. I asked for the Orbs to show up in my pictures. A few more cars passed and again, we ducked down behind the stones. We thought that maybe if a Sheriff were to pull up, the best thing to do, would be to stand there, and explain our ghostly hobby, and reason for being there, rather than hiding and appearing sneaky! *laughing* It's just that ducking seemed the thing to do. Besides, if we couldn't be seen, then nobody asks questions. Hell, we weren't hurting anyone. From the condition of the grave yard itself, it was obvious there wasn't a grounds keeper.
We ran out of room on our cameras and decided to go. But I had a blast and can't wait to go back! That is definately on my list of things to do for a great time.
Fallout from Sony CD flap getting worse
Researchers says software removal scheme aggravates security hole
Associated Press:
Updated: 6:19 p.m. ET Nov. 15, 2005
BOSTON - The fallout from a hidden copy-protection program that Sony BMG Music Entertainment put on some CDs is only getting worse. Sony’s suggested method for removing the program actually widens the security hole the original software created, researchers say.
Sony apparently has moved to recall the discs in question, but music fans who have listened to them on their computers or tried to remove the dangerous software they deposited could still be vulnerable.
“This is a surprisingly bad design from a security standpoint,” said Ed Felten, a Princeton University computer science professor who explored the removal program with a graduate student, J. Alex Halderman. “It endangers users in several ways.”
The “XCP” copy-protection program was included on at least 20 CDs, including releases by Van Zant, The Bad Plus, Neil Diamond and Celine Dion.
When the discs were put into a PC — a necessary step for transferring music to iPods and other portable music players — the CD automatically installed a program that restricted how many times the discs’ tracks could be copied, and made it extremely inconvenient to transfer songs into the format used by iPods.
That antipiracy software — which works only on Windows PCs — came with a cloaking feature that allowed it to hide files on users’ computers. Security researchers classified the program as “spyware,” saying it secretly transmits details about what music the PC is playing. Manual attempts to remove the software can disable the PC’s CD drive.
The program also gave virus writers an easy tool for hiding their malicious software. Last week, virus-like “Trojan horse” programs emerged that took advantage of the cloaking feature to enter computers undetected, antivirus companies said. Trojans are typically used to steal personal information, launch attacks on other computers and send spam.
Stung by the controversy, Sony BMG and the company that developed the antipiracy software, First 4 Internet Ltd. of Oxfordshire, United Kingdom, released a program that uninstalls XCP.
But the uninstaller has created a new set of problems.
To get the uninstall program, users have to request it by filling out online forms. Once submitted, the forms themselves download and install a program designed to ready the PC for the fix. Essentially, it makes the PC open to downloading and installing code from the Internet.
According to the Princeton analysis, the program fails to make the computer confirm that such code should come only from Sony or First 4 Internet.
“The consequences of the flaw are severe,” Felten and Halderman wrote in a blog posting Tuesday. “It allows any Web page you visit to download, install, and run any code it likes on your computer. Any Web page can seize control of your computer; then it can do anything it likes. That’s about as serious as a security flaw can get.”
Sony BMG spokesman John McKay did not return calls seeking comment. First 4 Internet was not making any comment, according to Lynette Riley, the office manager who answered the company’s phone Tuesday evening in England.
Mark Russinovich, the security researcher who first discovered the hidden Sony software, is advising users who played one of the CDs on their computer to wait for the companies to release a stand-alone uninstall program that doesn’t require filling out the online form.
“There’s absolutely no excuse for Sony not to make one immediately available,” he wrote in an e-mail Tuesday.
Other programs that knock out the original software are also likely to emerge. Microsoft Corp. says the next version of its tool for removing malicious software, which is automatically sent to PCs via Windows Update each month, will yank the cloaking feature in XCP.
Sony BMG said Friday it would halt production of CDs with XCP technology and pledged to “re-examine all aspects of our content protection initiative.” On Monday night, USA Today’s Web site reported that Sony BMG would recall the CDs in question.
Sony and BMG CDs with the XCP Software:
— Trey Anastasio, Shine (Columbia)
— Celine Dion, On ne Change Pas (Epic)
— Neil Diamond, 12 Songs (Columbia)
— Our Lady Peace, Healthy in Paranoid Times (Columbia)
— Chris Botti, To Love Again (Columbia)
— Van Zant, Get Right with the Man (Columbia)
— Switchfoot, Nothing is Sound (Columbia)
— The Coral, The Invisible Invasion (Columbia)
— Acceptance, Phantoms (Columbia)
— Susie Suh, Susie Suh (Epic)
— Amerie, Touch (Columbia)
— Life of Agony, Broken Valley (Epic)
— Horace Silver Quintet, Silver's Blue (Epic Legacy)
— Gerry Mulligan, Jeru (Columbia Legacy)
— Dexter Gordon, Manhattan Symphonie (Columbia Legacy)
— The Bad Plus, Suspicious Activity (Columbia)
— The Dead 60s, The Dead 60s (Epic)
— Dion, The Essential Dion (Columbia Legacy)
— Natasha Bedingfield, Unwritten (Epic)
— Ricky Martin, Life (Columbia)
After going to Conoco and getting an Icee, we took off from here, around 2pm, on that sunny Tuesday, November 8th, 2005, stopping in OKC for a quick bite at Burger King. I wanted to get a Princess Leia watch!! Just like a kid, I was whining around about wanting a Princess Leia watch, "I want to go get a Princess Leia watch!". More like the Queen putting out the order. "Look here D, I need to find a Burger King. They have Princess Leia Hologram watches there.". We finally found one, but they didn't have Leia that week. Pfft! I had a veggie burger and fries. Wiped the salt off.
There was a wreck somewhere after OKC. A truck was on it's side, airbag deployed and someone still in there. I took a picture as we went by, but it was too dark outside for the camera to focus well enough and with the car movement, it wasn't the best capture.
The drive down to Dallas, Texas took about 4 1/2 to 5 hours. We got there right in time, and in fact, over an hour early. The weather was great! It was warm, so I didn't need a coat. We didn't have to park very far away either, and that's always a plus. Although, it did cost $15, which that was predicted anyway. I had eaten enough, so my blood sugar seemed to be stable. Still, I packed a little package of Ritz and cheese crackers into my purse.
First we had to get tickets. I started to get a little nervous because there were no scalpers out front. Everybody seemed to already have their tickets! So we went to the box office and was second in line. The guy in front of us was saying something about driving all this way and something about great tickets. It wasn't clear, though. We stepped up and the woman said she had section 10, row B left. Thinking ahead, we whipped out the concert stadium seating chart, and quickly found the seats at the front, up by the stage. How could this be?! How could we get tickets on the second row, after driving for 4 1/2 to 5 hours, from another state and get better seats then the people that live here, ordered early and online? The tickets were $75 each.
I went through the schmeal with the door guy about camera allowances. They were allowed, I noticed on a sign inside. He said I could use it if it doesn't have a flash. I told him I could turn it off. I was real excited at that point and sweating from the confrontation. Hell, I had been anxiety ridden about the camera on my cell phone! At the Prince concert in OKC, they were making people leave the camera phones outside. Ignorant. Anyway, the people behind me were real ready for me to move on. *laughing* After that, we had to go through the metal detectors. The ones in charge of this were real nice. Texans....
After all that, we turned right around and went back to the car to get my camera! It was such a nice night and my blood sugar was still level, so I didn't mind. I love to walk around at night, actually. I miss it.
Went back and got a T-Shirt. $35. Oh, and a keychain. $10. That area is always so congested and insane to get through.
Beer for D: $5 for first, and almost $10 for the other one that was taller. Not tall enough for those prices. $3.50 for my water.
SIDENOTE: I was holding steady in the anxiety department, by the way. I was very excited though. I'm sort of like a Pomeranian or Poodle, quite excitable! I don't jump around like them, ON THE OUTSIDE, but inside, I'm a nervous wreck. I hide it pretty well, until it becomes uncontrollable. By that time, I usually have Xanax to counter it.
We walked around awhile and watched the people. I sort of blurred my vision to just see the movement, of back and forth bodies, and it made me dizzy. They had free internet machines and I logged onto Rave for the 5 minutes allotted me. I was in the middle of entering an entry in my journal about where I was, when the machine closed off the connection! Ugh!
The Bravery was playing during all of this. I wasn't interested in seeing them, nor did I want to subject myself to any more intensity than I needed. I did hear them playing, "Honest Mistake", though, and I did want to see that, but it was too late to go find chairs. So I just listened out in the "hall". They weren't bad.
Break came and Depeche Mode was setting their stuff up. That's when I decided I could handle going to find the chairs. There was a guy behind us that got chatty, talking about how he drove from Fayetteville, Arkansas to see them, and had liked them since the 80s, like myself. He turned off though, as we went to the front. Finding the seats were easy. In the front row, was a guy that had the same luck as us. He said he couldn't believe he had been so lucky in getting that seat, and waiting until the last moment, even, while there were tons of people in the nosebleed sections, all around the area. It was crazy.
The concert started and the bass was intense. I had taken a Xanax to calm myself, but a very low dosage. When the bass started up, I had to take more, to combat the fevered panic attack trying to take over. I kept it cool, but was worried for a second. The opening was wonderful, and the song wasn't shrill. It was the bass that was so intense, in addition to being there! The bass went right threw me, almost feeling like it was resetting my heartbeat, since I could no longer feel it beating separately. And, since we were right in front of the speakers, it was unsettling to realize that I had another 2 hours of it to contend with. I turned sideways to see if it would buffer the intensity, and eh, well, it sorta did. But those speakers were to fill the whole arena with sound, and me turning sideways wasn't going to help much! *laughing* Luckily, I was ok after the first song. I don't know if I was able to adjust, forget, or if they adjusted things, or the Xanax kicking in to where I didn't care (I didn't take enough for that). The bass seemed to be the same throughout the entire concert, so I don't know what happened. I just know that I was thrilled to realize I was not affected as badly.
The concert rocked. They always put on a great show. Always. David Gahan rocks. They all do. I mean, they are always on it, and sound like the CD/DVDs.
Back home after that and I had a helluva time staying awake. That concert has haunted me ever since. I can't forget it. I was so sad that we couldn't go to Denver to see them, 3 days later. But I am grateful I got to see them in Dallas. Better weather anyway. *wink*
NOTE: I have 1 shot in portfolio of concert, so far, and more to place in there.
I was reading a few emails tonight and in one forwarded to me, I found,
"* A Healer in Every Family and a World Without Pain *
We were all born to heal. And we were born to help others heal."
I like that. *smile*
The wind has been so severe the last few hours. A major cold front has hit us here in the midwest and it sucks ass. It's cold in here! I won't thaw out until April. These winds are insane.
WIND ADVISORY IN EFFECT FROM MIDNIGHT TONIGHT TO 6 PM CST
TUESDAY.
THE NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE IN NORMAN HAS ISSUED A WIND
ADVISORY...WHICH IS IN EFFECT FROM MIDNIGHT TONIGHT TO 6 PM CST
TUESDAY.
NORTHERLY WINDS OF 25 TO 35 MPH WITH GUSTS NEAR 50 MPH...WILL
DEVELOP BEHIND A COLD FRONT LATE MONDAY NIGHT. HIGHER ELEVATIONS
OF WESTERN OKLAHOMA AND MORE TYPICALLY WINDY AREAS MAY EXPERIENCE
WIND GUSTS NEAR 60 MPH...WHICH COULD RESULT IN SCATTERED POWER OUTAGES
AND DOWNED TREE LIMBS. THESE WINDS WILL CONTINUE THROUGH THE DAY
ON TUESDAY MAKING IT FEEL SIGNIFICANTLY COLDER.
WINDS THIS STRONG CAN MAKE DRIVING DIFFICULT...ESPECIALLY FOR
HIGH PROFILE VEHICLES. USE EXTRA CAUTION.
These are the charms I am buying from Ebay for my Italian Charm bracelet. I am building a hamster one. They are so cute!!
I'm reminded me of a guy this past weekend I was talking to. He is a hunter and was telling a story about chopping down trees that day and how tired he was from it and was about to go into deer hunting stuff and I was like, "OK, dude, if you are going to talk about killing a deer or killing animals, then uh, no.". He said, that he didn't kill any that day and let some 7 point ones get away (or whatever point it was. I forget.). He said he wouldn't kill any of them for a week. Yea, because he had to work all week and was waiting until next Saturday. When his drunk ass was leaving the pool hall, I said, "Don't kill anything!". *laughing*
I didn't even get into the chopping down trees issue. I asked him why he was cutting them down though, and he said, "Because they were blocking my view (from his deer killing fort).
And so I wonder yet again, like I have so many times before. How can a nice person justify killing an animal for sport? In my humble opinion, the need for hunting went out when grocery stores were "invented" and how long ago was that?! Many, I tell you!
If a person were a Christian, how could they justify killing one of God's creatures? D and I were talking about this that night, later. Later still, we were watching a special on elephants. They are so close knit and very family oriented. When a scene came on, showing two adult elephants and a baby, where one of the adult elephants were falling down, and the other trying to help, I started to freak out. The narrator said something about poachers and I knew what was coming. The channel was changed immediately. Tears were streaming down my face. I can't handle seeing animals in that state, where they are struggling to live, and in obvious agony.
I don't like the circus either. That is a whole other Oprah.
This is a site I was watching the lil hand guys perform on, while taking a break from reading profiles/portfolios. *zone*
My favorite is the first one, with Mr. Dj guy. He is cute. Oh and the one where he is tapping the button.
Lil Lejo and friends
While going through the profiles tonight. A few dorks caught my eye. *sigh*
From a 14 year old:
"I like tall, skinny guys, loud metal music, to hit people, hanging out with sexy people and naked guys! LOL!!"
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From another 15 year old chick:
"Quote: Suck my dick....."
That's not even physically possible, unless she has a few extra rides on the playground.
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"Quote: When I suck you off not a drop will go to waste"
With this one, I thought, "Huh?!". I asked him what he meant, because it implies that he is wanting to give blow jobs. *smirk*
He replied, laughing, that no, it was in no way an invitation, but that Hollywood and the like suck people dry. Well, that's what he said. It's the 'off' that seems to be the deal breaker.
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The average sneeze hold over 100,000 viral germs in it. Only 1 tiny one, is needed to spread illness. I'm watching the National Geographic channel about the super flu. I watch that channel a lot. Next is about Ebola virus!
It really, really, really bugs me when people don't cover their mouth when they sneeze, cough and yawn. Shows total disrespect for others! Ew. Besides, I don't care to see the inside of their mouth. Who wants you to see the inside of their mouth, or scaly tongue?
You know you can get sick if one of those germs even hits your eyeballs. I close my eyes around people coughing, and sneezing, sputtering, etc.
Also, keep in mind, that when you flush your toilet, all those tiny sprays of water from the toilet take flight and land on you, up your nose, on your eyes, mouth, even on your toothbrush. And you know where THAT goes. I close the lid before flushing. *smile*
"I learned quite awhile ago, that it was 5 exit points that we are alloted. I tend to go with that more. And someone mentioned walk-ins, and I have read about those as well. I believe that to be valid as well.
I believe that our soul will send us on our way, when our soul's work is finished here, with whatever we are here to do. It sure doesn't seem so, sometimes, though, to the ones left behind.
I believe that before we are born, we plan our life, to a certain extent, with the major lessons in life, mapped out, and that we make contracts, with other souls, to help each other learn our lessons and grow/advance spiritually. That is why we cannot take what happens to us, personally, from another, because they are fulfilling their contract, unknown to you both much of the time, to become who each of you are to be. We learn from these experiences, whether we realize it or not."
The Depeche Mode concert is tonight, in Dallas, Texas!! I am quite excited about it! I hope I don't work myself into a panic attack. Just in case, I will be taking my Xanax safety net.
We don't have tickets, but are going to get them from a scalper upon arrival. I want to skip the opening band, The Bravery. It will cut down on time I have to spend with 5,000 other screaming fans, for 2 hours.
Since moolah is short, the plan is to drive there, watch the show and drive back. Originally the plan was to stay in a hotel for the night and rent a car. Well, I have to get a shirt, gaw!
I should try to lay down and get some sleep before driving all day and night, but this is my time of night to be up, to boogie, to Rave. *smile*
I wonder if they will let me take my camera phone in? They were making people take them back to their cars at Prince. That is ridiculous. How good of a picture can one get from a cell phone camera, anyway? And what the fuck does it matter if we did get a dark picture of them on stage? Same with small cameras.
I wish they would let us take our small cameras in again. Remember all those old concert photos from 110 and 126, even 135 mm cameras, with barely recognizable, miniature stick figures in them? The pictures were always so dark, or the stage was so far away, the lead singer was a dot, in a glow of stage lights. I have one where Moby is onstage, arms outstretched. It's not too bad, actually. That was a rockin' concert!
"Okay, since Jamie has already opened the flood gates with her thread on profanity,..."
I was looking over my IM list of friends online, and Jason's name was there. But, he had his away message on. "Sleeping between feedings". I wondered to myself, "I wonder if his nipples are sore.". *smile*
It's so weird, how I will randomly pick a member's profile to look over and moments later, I will check my last 10 to compare and they will have been on mine as well, and most often, at the very same time, apparently! It happens so often, it's uncanny!
This happens a lot to me, and has my whole life, this sort of thing, so I am not surprised completely. I find it quite cool. I have a host of other abilities, but for some reason, when I am emotional or passionate about a particular situation, subject, person or turn out of events, I seem to lose a bit of my empathic/psychic edge. This is most distressing, as I depend on it!
If only I could pick lotto numbers. *sigh*
So I was listening to my dad's voice mail the other morning, about mom's doctor appointment. I told D about what dad had explained in the message. We discussed how odd it was that she had bruises around her knee from this ordeal. D had experienced water-on-the-knee before in the "band days", and had to walk with crutches while loading gear.
And I asked aloud, in a rhetorical way, "Yea, but it's weird that she would get bruises around her knee. Does water on-the-knee cause bruising?". I didn't really expect him to answer, because he is not a medical professional, although, he had felt the sting of the ailment before, so I listened. He said, "Oh yea.....Yea, the skin stretches from the swelling and it causes the bruising to appear.". There was silence for a moment as the wheels in my head were spinning. I never believe what people tell me right away. I have to check everything out, first, for facts.
After a few moments of silence, I said, "You just made that up, didn't you?!", laughing. The jig was up and we both started laughing. He said, "Well it sounded good, didn't it?". So that's when I started mimicking him in my best Cliff Claven voice, "Oh yea....etc etc etc.....". That's when he yelled back, in his best , 'I've been bullied' voice, "Shuddup!".
For those of you that have asked about my mom's progress. She is doing much better! The doctor has to run more tests, of course, but Saturday he told her she had water-on-the-knee. We sorta thought that already, and had it on her list of things to ask him about. Gout was also on the list, and that is still a possibility, but will require more testing to be sure.
He told her that he thought she might have rheumatoid arthritis, but again, will have to have more tests.
In the meantime, she can walk now, after he removed some water from her knee and was in great spirits when I talked to her on the phone. I could tell she was feeling better, from the word hello. I tend to read people, as soon as I talk to them, feeling the mood and going from there.
This is not over, but at least today, it is good. I told her about all the well wishers. We say, "Thanks to you all. You rock hard!".
I feel like.....shuckin' the jive....
I like all these new animated gifs Cancer has been adding to the Vampire Rave sign. I like tonight's addition of the fireworks sort of gif. It reminds me of the 4th of July! Oooo....Aww...
Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"JuneThinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
I just finished running through the house with scissors.
Your Poll: When away from Rave, how much time does it enter your mind?
Has been denied by Jamie.
The reason was:
Rewrite
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*laughing*
Luckily, when I changed the title words a bit, I granted myself approval. I could have just edited it. *snicker*
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Your Poll: When away from Rave, how often does it invade your thoughts?
Has been approved by Jamie.
TO MY LISTENER HERE ON VR
22:42:00 - Nov 04 2005
I would like to send this thank you to a person here on VR that has been so sweet and such a good listener. There are times Just talking to her can make my day better. She has just got her new status and it was well deserved Congradulation Jamie I felt this Thank You was in order and hope that all that read this will know just how sweet you are. You deserve the upmost respect. Thank you once again.
Denver Is First City To Legalize Pot
Posted by CN Staff on November 03, 2005 at 08:08:11 PT
By Stephanie Simon, Times Staff Writer
Source: Los Angeles Times
The guy gave us several keys and suggested 408 (*thinking* I think it was 408). I looked at it, but didn't like it. I didn't care for the feel. When we went back down there, and told him of the room choice, which ended up being 308, right under the 408 room, he asked why I decided not to stay in 408?
I told him that I didn't like the feel, and he said that many of his friends didn't like that room either and had had horrible dreams in there. I thought, "Hmm, why would he subject me to that?!". *laugh* But, I think it was a sort of test. He wanted to talk, I could tell, and was into all of that, knowing Aura colors, etc..
I occasionally got a sick feeling around the 1905 elevator. Perhaps because it made all of those creaking noises, as if cranky, when we rode in it! There was a note in there, assuring me it was safe, from the latest safety inspection.
We kept seeing the same family around the hotel. They loved little Tibbs, my hamster. They went out and got a hermit crab that day, while shopping downtown! *laughing* They were nice.
I was so tired from the trip. We had gotten no sleep the night before, and no sleep that day. Night was falling again and still no sleep. I was shaky and on the edge, but glad to be there. I was trying hard to enjoy myself. I'd been looking forward to it, all year. I do that though. I get all worked up about a trip and get so panicky because of excitement, that I'm in full blown panic attack mode by the time I get there. I.E., Depeche Mode concert in Denver, July 2001. Of course, I was also going to meet my internet chat friend, Chris for the first time, after the concert and was excited.
That night, the Ghost Hunters show, on Sci-fi, was about the Crescent Hotel, in Eureka Springs. We were going to stay there the next night, as part of the Paranormal package. It wasn't our first stay there. There was a big show watching party at the Crescent that night, so we went to the hotel to watch. The TAPS team caught a ghost on film, different than any other. It was great. We went back to The Basin Hotel and slept for several hours.
Of course, in the meantime, at home, daughter Harmony had written me a text message, telling me about how the woman that was to pick her up after school and to stay over there, "changed her mind". I was freaking out. "Changed her mind?!". Is she insane? I'm a state away and she changes her mind? *shaking head* Things worked out, but I'm still pissed about that.
We woke up around 2am, and went ghost hunting. We caught lots of orbs in pictures. It was great. Stayed up about an hour and went back to bed. We didn't get much sleep that trip. We had to get up the next morning around 9am, to leave for the Crescent Hotel, but our room wasn't ready yet.
Crescent Hotel picture and Ghost tour link
Is there something wrong with my profile color being hard to read? I look at it, and think to myself, "Hey, I sure like that shade of blue. Not too dark, not too light.". I tend to choose Yin colors.
A few people have written on my profile, that they can't read the font, or the color. Can't read the font? As I recall, it's your average, every day Arial. I could change it to script. Now that would be a challenge. *laugh*
I am not understanding what they are referring to. I look at the page and think it's quite lovely...calming. Can't please them all. I've tried, but I just can't.
My mom is not so great. I talked to her last night and she was in great pain. I hate to hear that, especially when I can't do a thing about it 3 hours away. My dad was there, but was going to leave today. He is a truck driver.
So she went to the Dr. today and got some more pain pills. She was out when she called last night. She has an appointment Saturday with the bone doctor. Yea, Saturday. I thought that was weird. I will find out more later tonight, as I am going to call later and find out what happened today. She was going to lay down and sleep today, being exhausted from not sleeping last night, having so much pain. I can't believe how fast this has come on. I wish dad would just move her here, but who knows about that. I found out from her while I was there, that when I mentioned it to him on the phone, he was pissed about it. He doesn't want to go to all that trouble, and leave the bum fuck egypt country.
If I keep going over there to help, he will simply think to himself, "Why move her, when Jamie will come help?". But it's not like I can not help her.
D has been very sweet and attentive since I've come home. Well, he always is, but he sure missed me.
Some think that since I don't go on and on about my outside world relationships that I have bad ones, or am mistreated. On the contrary, I am adored and treated like a queen...most of the time. He is my best friend. But we have days where I can't see us together ONE....MORE....MINUTE.
What I need from people, is very confusing and quite complex. You would have to really get to know me to understand better, and even then, I would most likely befuddle even the most genuine of scholars of my mental workings.
Enough is never enough. I shall put it that way.
I love guys in makeup. Why is that? Always have...
Ok, maybe not cowboys, but they are included in the dessert tray.
Most are merely country boys. These are generally different than your typical "hicks". No, they aren't of that stock. I like these country boys, these somewhat cowboys.
Keep in mind, that there are the wannabe cowboys, and they are pronounced, "ka-boys".
I am referring to my trip to my mom's house and the guy at the counter, of Conoco, where I would travel many miles (approx. 20 one way, 40 total) daily, to attain my beloved and most coveted Icee. There, though, it is a Pepsi Icee, not a formal Icee, but same deal.
This guy was wearing a ball cap and had little hair. You know, the buzz cut that they get. I really don't like that, as it's so unattractive and unflattering. I prefer hair. It seems to accentuate the face. Either that, or no hair. I have such a thing for Patrick Stewart. You know, Sean Luc Picard! Anyway, store clerk guy had the cutest eyes and smile and after a day, recognized me. I would come in and announce, "It's me again!", smiling, catching his smile, and he would say, "Hey girl!". I loved it. He thanked me with, "Thanks Darlin' ", and the last, "Bye Sweetie!". I would smile and shift eyes to the floor, as I left, slightly embaressed, but totally giddy with the terms of endearment. I get such a kick out of that. I don't know why.
This guy reminded me of how I sorta like the cowboy/country guy. They are always polite. They are actually somewhat open minded. It could be from pulling calves out by hand or putting rubber bands on cow nuts, who knows? They don't seem to be too chauvenistic.
The downside....they hunt. They live in the country. They wear wranglers as their good clothes. They probably want to hog tie you....no, wait, that's on the wrong list.
I can shuck corn, but I wouldn't want to do it my whole life. I think I have too many issues to milk cows. What if I got the heffers and bulls mixed up? Dear lord...
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