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im soo sick of being the single one in my lil groupo de amigos...they wanna hang with me but they have to be with their significant other. which means they will be sucking face all night. in front of me. and then i feel like the loser because im alone. i feel like no one will ever love me. maybe i should stop hanging out with these people all together? but then if i did i would be losing some quality friends...but on the other hand i wouldnt feel like shit if i didnt have to see them happy and stuff. i mean dont get me wrong, im happy for each and every one of them. i just wish that for once i would get to be the lucky one. i wanna be happy. i wanna be loved for once...gods...now i feel so pathetic for ranting about it on here...

Another one has gone and done it. Another one has forsaken my love and trust. I am finding it harder to let people after I get trampled like this. Why cant I just learn to push emotions outta my body and never feel them again? Then again, I probably wouldnt be the person my friends and family love today huh? Meh. Well Im out. I have people to annoy and such...

soo...yea...this is my maybe 3rd or 4th online journal thingie. i may write here alot. i may not. at any rate someone will get bored and get duped into thinking that this thing has some earth shattering super exciting news or whatnot when all this is is me. spouting forth the boredom that is my life. enjoy! or dont! at any rate dont come bitching to me about how i need to make this thing better.