It's so damn hot right now. For me, anyway. It's almost 8pm, about 85 degrees in my apartment, and I'm hating it.
(I don't like anything over 75 degrees, by the way).
Quiero mas agua, ahora!
Blah.
My dreams are usually twisted bits and pieces from Alice in Wonderland...they generally don't make a lot of sense, but are sometimes quite fun!
But what I find odd in some of my other dreams - when I can remember them or parts of them - is that I am the opposite of who I am in real life.
In my dreams, I'm usually really fearful. I'm shy and I don't speak up much...it's as if I've reverted to my childhood, when I really was shy and quiet.
And I just take crap from everyone around me...not like me at all!
Another aspect of me in my dreams is that I'm sometimes slutty, and/or I just let anyone use and abuse me with very little effort of fighting back...which is very removed from how I am in real life!
Some say that dreams can be a reflection of who we secretly want to be. I can say emphatically that I do not want to be fearful and abused...not even for 'fun'; the whole master/submissive thing isn't for me.
So - what is up with those fucked up dreams?
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It's probably from your diet. Eat a steak! :p
It may not be a 'message' at all, some dreams can't be interpreted and are just an active mind/brain not resting fully.
I think the key here is what you said about "my childhood." It may just be your mind playing those scenarios out again. The memories are there and every so often, they get dragged back up for an encore performance. But because it's been so long since you were 'that person' you don't recognize it as having anything to do with you in the here and now.
Our daily problems can manifest in our dreams in many ways. What it symbolizes is unique to your life. One could say for example that the abuse you're suffering in your dream could be symbolic of a different form of abuse you're feeling elsewhere in your life. Something as simple as feeling like you're being shit on in the workplace. Your shy and childlike mannerisms could be a reflection of your internal resentment for not being able to voice, or convey something properly. They could symbolize anything really.
Or it could mean you ate something funky before bed..
Or that you're going bat shit crazy. ;p
PD - lol!
Your response actually makes sense to me - and it's funny too!
And thanks guys, for the input also...
I'm still not back to work...grrrrr!
But as I'm a person who likes to get things done, I've vacuumed and dusted the place. Now, I'll study for awhile. Hell - I may even be inspired to write something...if I can stop worrying about my lack of funds for an hour or two.
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Now get you back to work! Emmy says so!
Awww, I really do hope things pick up for you ... and I don't mean that in the vacuum sense!!
Bloodlife - LOL!
Yeah - they need to get my contract straightened out ASAP!
It's been about 4 years since I've eaten fast food or drank soda...well, I may drink a soda 1-3 times a year, and those are usually diet.
I eat chocolate in moderation. I've cut back on coffee, and most fried foods. I have alcohol once or twice a year, on average. From last year up to now, not one drop of liquor has touched my lips at all! (Which actually means that I haven't been partyin'...lol).
Now - I need to try to wean off of sugary juices and gummies...
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So you're happy with just Leaves and Spring Water or something? smh
Soda's will be the death of me! LOL
They always use to say that water was the best drink ;-)
Oh gosh... You are off all the things I love! Lol
Fast food is my nemesis :(
I'll be back later on. Time for a hot dog, Sun Chips, juice, and '2001: A Space Odyssey'.
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Great film, I hope you enjoyed it!
Sounds like a good plan.. Hope you enjoyed it :)
* So - Big Momma has lost more weight, which is good, as she is able to move around better, and actually do some work. She is still kinda' slow and lazy. (And she still sneaks off to sit on her ass and/or sleep).
For example, she took it upon herself to stock the drinks on a daily basis. This job in itself can take some time...
It takes her half of a day, if you add up the time when she frequently stops and starts.
What is really irritating for me is when she leaves the cart in the middle of the floor, or even worse, behind a counter where it sometimes can't be seen. While I'm rushing about doing a myriad of stuff, I sometimes run into the goddamn thing. I end up with painful bruises on my upper legs. Pisses me off to no end!
On several occasions, we've all asked her not to leave shit in the way - for us and customers to bump into - but it just doesn't sink into her fat head.
So - on Wednesday, when I ran into the goddamn cart again, I just wheeled it to her cashier station. It was kinda' in the way for whoever had to pass by, but I figure - fuck it.
The look on Big Momma's face was priceless when she returned from wherever she went. What was even better was the fact that SHE ran into the cart.
* I get a call from the head boss on Friday (I'm off on Fridays). He proceeds to tell me that due to the district office not completing my paperwork for the next 184-day contract, I'm technically not employeed until they get the paperwork done...ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? I ask Stan what's up...he swore that he got the paperwork in during summer school. He was told - per the school president herself, when he went to complain to her directly - that they'd get my paperwork through ASAP...whatever the fuck ASAP means. So, I'm not to come to work until he calls me to let me know when to do so. He said that if the school refuses to pay me for the 4 days I worked, he'd pay me out of his pocket.
Now - I know that I'll be leaving as soon as I complete my pharm tech stuff, ie get my state certification - but for now, I need to continue working at the college. Jobs are still very hard to come by here...
This so fucking sucks...!!!
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*giggles* about the cart ;) Hopefully they will get your pay sorted out hun, that sucks :(
So - I've been waiting since Friday afternoon for the maintenance guy to come here to fix the leaking pipe in the kitchen. It's not gushing out water, but it's still dripping...into a bucket.
How many times do I have to call this ass?
I spoke to him again this evening (call #3); he said that he'd be here a little after 6pm. It's now 8pm.
I'm not waiting up for him. I will, however, call him again tomorrow, and bug the hell out of him.
I'd like to think that by me paying rent, I shouldn't have this problem for four days running!
So today was the first day back to work. It was actually quite uneventful, which was nice.
The ride home was a different matter though.
The bus driver had a serious lead foot, and sent passengers almost flying on several occasions - me included. It got to the point where he stepped on the breaks so hard that I blurted out "Leadfoot asshole", which caused people to laugh.
I got more unintended laughs when a pimp - decked out in an outrageous burgundy suit - got on the bus, and sat across from where I was standing. He offered me his seat, but I declined, stating that I preferred to stand. He actually tried his smooth pimp smack on me, which made me laugh. The more compliments and crap that poured from his mouth, the more faces I made at him, laughing. He kept touching my hand too -eew. I finally said "Dude - you must know that none of your smooth talk works on me, right? Plus - I'm too old for this shit. So you can stop touching me hand now." He - and others nearby - started cracking up.
Besides his ridiculous suit, he wore a matching hat...and shoes to match. The shoes were striped...
I asked to take a picture of his ridiculous shoes, and he said okay...dude thought that I was admiring his get-up. He even told me to take more pictures of him from head to toe. I should have, but I figured that the shoes were bad enough...I wouldn't have be able to keep a straight face while trying to photograph those jacked up teeth. The fact the he was also riding the bus told me that pimp-daddy must've been on hard times...
Anyway...check out these pumped up pimp daddy kicks:
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Looks as though the socks were as well! LMAO!
That is fantastic!!!!!!!! haha
At least they are clean lol
Is that what they mean when they say "winning"?
Your life is such an adventure...and with pictures to prove it! *smiles*
Right when I state that my new home is quiet for the most part, I get something from crazytown...
I just witnessed a fucked up, almost naked fat guy running down the street screaming about ice cream. Are you fuckin' kidding me?
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OMG!!! Another zombie apocalypse!
Lol, that sounds like some fun place you are living in! You could write a book!
Gotta have ice-cream :-p
Hot damn...I wish that I had some stock in Apple!
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The stock market is like musical chairs, when the music stops someone will lose. In the case of the market it is the average "joe" who gets fucked. Make no mistake the game is rigged against you and me.
So, now I know what is wrong with my knees...yes, I said knees, even though only the left one has been painful.
After getting x-rays, it was determined that I am just starting to have arthritis...oh joy.
I was prescribed diclofenac, which I am to take twice a day. If, after a month, I feel no real relief, I may go on to a hydrocortisone shot - and you only can get up to three of those. I'm hoping that if I do get the shot, it will work on the first try, like it did for my right hand when I had DeQuervain's tendonitis about six years ago. (It's similar to carpo tunnel, but only affects the thumb and wrist).
Now...I need to find out what's up with my stomach. (I'm guessing a possible gluten allergy to celiac disease, or some kind of really fucked up GERD). Hopefully I'll find out exactly what it is...in November.
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Well... Seeing as I'm 25 and have arthritis in my hips... I wouldn't consider it from old age. You're still young to me, Missy! ;)
I hope the results in November aren't anything seriously bad and are fixable and/or curable in one hoot.
Xoxoxox
Easiest way to find out if gluten is just to cut out wheat. These days *most* stores have rice and corn pasta options that are gluten free... and several types of breads/foods made without wheat and gluten. It's hard to "find" at first, but once you do it is a simple routine to check. I would simply eliminate it from your diet for 3 weeks and then try to readd it. Easiest and the cheapest way to see if any food is causing you issues.
Oh and read ingredient labels. Requiem once bought almonds that had gluten as a flavor enhancer :( Was a bad day for her.
I hope the pills work for you and quick. Stomach issues are not fun. I have family members that have them and I hope I stay where I am with it. They will get it figured out. It isn't like the old days where they didn't know about anything other than ulcers. *hugs*
Damn girl, I have no medical advice just hugs babe :) Hope things work out for you hun .
I hope this gets sorted sooner rather than later for your sake. x
I get a knock on my front door. I look through the peephole to see this big blond hardcore-looking dyke covered in tats calling out for someone named Christine.
Through the door, I tell her that there is no one here by that name.
She apologized profusely, and lumbered back down the stairs. She had some big-ass feet...lol.
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I hate big ass feet, especially if they overlap the sandals.
You need your own reality tv show....LOL!
If I had a cam here Mogy, I'd use it to showcase the zoo that I live in...lol!
Sounds like a real hoot where you live now Isis! Never a dull moment huh?
...and you let her get away?!!!
You could of said "nope, but I am tonight big boy, errr girl" :P
Holy shit...I'm sitting here on VR, reading friends' journals, giving Honor, etc, when all of a sudden I hear a woman shout "Get a rock!"
I look out of my living roon window to see 4 - 5 sketchy-looking black folks putting a beat down on a sketchy-looking Mexican guy. I don't know what he did to get the beating he got, but it was scary...especially when he tried to run and got hit by a car. The driver backed up, then took off, and the beating continued...WHAT THE FUCK???
Two of the attackers were women - all of them were kicking and punching this guy all over.
I dialed 911, trying to get help...the person who finally answered connected me to a recording in Vietnamese...? I'm sure my English was fine, so I have no clue what that cop was sniffin' when she transferred me...
Anyway, dozens of other people were just standing around, enjoying the violence, I guess.
One other black guy finally came over and pulled the Mexican guy away from the attackers, and they all disappeared...
When the shit ended, I got a dispatch person on the line...duh.
There are a lot of cans in the street. God - please don't tell me that the fight was over bottles and cans...
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Wow. You definitely got your adrenaline fix for the night. Sounds like 911 wasn't much help. Glad to know you were safe inside.
Yikes, I don't think anyone deserves that type of punishment.
That is just purely senseless, I'm sorry you had to witness it.
* Computer's been acting up.
* Been studying and watching the Olympics.
(The Closing Ceremonies are fun)!
* Stomach's been acting up more too. I wish that I could have new intestines.
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Here's to a better week for you sweetie. x
I loved the closing ceremony! It was terrific and inspiring for future olympics!
The underwear commercial was sexy (and funny to me), but as it had links to videos of an explicit nature, I removed it from public view...But thanks for the feedback, Trin!
LOL!
It's been getting warmer here - finally - like in the upper 80's. I hate heat, but we need to actually have a summer here - lol.
While running a few errands yesterday, I stopped to listen to a really cool band playing music downtown. They were called Dynamic, and they were good! A sign that was put up showcasing the Wednesday afternoon concerts stated that they were hip-hop; they were not. They were R&B/soul/reggae. I thought it was cool that the trumpet player was a skinny lil' white chick - lol. Hell, with the exception of the singer and the drummer, the other members of the band were all white...not that it matters. They sure had a lot of funk going on though - lol.
Besides studying - and worrying that my memory is beginning to suck on some items - I've been watching the Olympics and being a couch potato.
Did some laundry today - as soon as I returned home, I realized that I left two small white rugs for the kitchen...I rushed back to find them gone. Someone stole them in less than 3 minutes...damn!
Damn...I just realized that I missed out on the City of Fremont's street fair last weekend. Not only did I miss the food, music, and crafts, but I also missed Sunday's Firemen's Challenge, where stations from local towns compete in an obstacle course.
This is a favorite item of the fair, and women in particular jockey for a good spot early.
Not only are most of these guys super-hot - their friends cheering them on are gorgeous too, and many don't wear a lot of clothes...lol!
Dammit!
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I'm told that my building is a historical site, built in the late 20's...it's beautiful, but hard to maintain due to the homeless and crack hos who take a piss or a dump everywhere. They also leave their trash on the outer steps when they are able to sneak in through the gate...
Anyway, this is the exterior (with new windows, of course):
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Have you checked to seen if the old building is haunted or not? Cause of it being in the 20's when it was built.
I don't think the place is haunted, but who knows?
I've lived in a similar building years ago in San Francsico, and an even older Victorian flat built around the 1880's...no ghosts in either - thank God! LOL!
A great warm and homely look.
Looks awesome! Wish I could drop by with a housewarming gift and spend some time with all those felines!
Oh, wow.. You have super taste! Lovely home :)
*Oh to peruse all those books & see what she is reading*
Thank you for the keyhole view into the place you call home.
^^^ Yes...Ditto to what she said.
So, I need to study harder...info isn't sticking to my brain like it should...I took a freebie pharm tech practice exam, and got a little over half of the answers right...not good!
And I won't use my stomach pains as an excuse, even though they've been kicking my ass for the last few days...Blah.
Seeing as I haven't been on VR for three days, I'll hang out here for a bit. Hell - I need to take a break...I'll get back to the books later on!
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See, if you'd have gotten more than half right you'd have known what meds to take for your stomach :-p
Prilosec (omeprazole)...and it takes a while for it to kick in. Plus, one isn't suppose to take it continually, but I may start - lol!
Some of those exams are tricky. You will get it. I just went and got my books for the SURG. program. I am in for a doozy. Try the health food store for some natural remedies for your tummy. Papaya tabs are good. But they are maybe not as strong as how the Prilosec works. But they have remedies that are suppose to be like the over the counter stuff. It was just starting to expand when I worked in that field.
I got invited to a salsa club from a friend on Facebook. The club is in the town where I grew up - small world!
I could actually stay at my mom's condo for the night too...
A part of me wants to go, but the other part says no, as I'm broke, I have no dress to spin around in, and my sister Ray might be there, looking like a million dollars...lol.
Maybe another time...
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Oh HELL no- I cry Bullshit on you!!!
Go forth, have a good time, don't worry about what you or anyone else is wearing, and just enjoy yourself...
*muttering* stupid kids...
What RedQueen said...
Go woman, go! X
Go and have a good time!
This is so removed from my way of life. But as a topic in our coven forums discusses this, I gave it some thought.
Of the four letters and what they represent, my favorite is the letter B...
Along with red velvet cake, there is another thing that would be extremely enjoyable to me: Seeing a hot, naked, hog-tied, blind-folded man with my panties shoved in his mouth.
Besides enjoying the view - and having my cake too - I wouldn't have to hear him yammering on about baseball or some other shit.
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"Besides enjoying the view - and having my cake too - I wouldn't have to hear him yammering on about baseball or some other shit."
I think that's the best part -lol
*giggles* reminds me that birthday cake song from Rhianna
Don't try to hide it, I'ma make you my bitch...that what she said:) LOL...
Hahaha... OMG girl, I love it!
o.O
I want photos of that, lol!
I agree- some men are definitely eye candy, but the stupidity that rolls out of their mouths- duct tape is your friend...lol
Well, I did study a bit while across the street at the laundrymat today...
So I guess I can hang out here for a short bit before getting back to the books! (And some Italian sausage that's calling me...lol)
A friend here - Trinity - gave me a link to sample questions and a FREE practice exam...yahoo!
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BLOODLIFE
09:15 Aug 30 2012
That is hot for this time of the year, we need to get you out here for a vacation ;-)