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nothing but disappointment....failure..that's my name...I let them down..the ones who fight for my freedom...all they ask for is backup and I can't seem to be able to provide that need. So, why should I be called the leader...I have led my soldiers to their graves...and tommorrow...it will all start again..the snowball that will continue to roll through the weeks until that fiery Monday night when it will crush me into pieces...nothing but disappointment...

As the dark angel travels across the vast land...my thoughts are with him...he rejuvenates my spirit and I bid him well as it is this spirit that keeps me on my path to freedom.

I know they watch me with their judging eye...i know they think they can penetrate my mind and absorb all my thoughts...but they are wrong..they haven't a clue what it will take to get inside this fortress....as weak and unstable as one may be...my world is protected by others...others who understand and will keep me safe from the evil intentions of those who don't. They want to punish me for my instability and the secrets that are unknown to them...they can't stand the fact that they can't control my thoughts and actions....and it's killing them ...as they are watching me.

Why can't they hear me? My throat is throbbing from all the sreaming....it hurts to even use my mind..the pain in intolerable again...no one will listen...they hear but they don't listen...it is so tiring screaming for help but falsely believing that I may be heard. They turn there ear and shut me out..its more than my chords can handle...might as well cut them out with knife...maybe i can borrow or steal as mine has misteriously disappeared...can't they hear my screaming silently....