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i've taken too many chances
dealt with too many lies
i've stared with too many glances
gazed through misled eyes
i've drowned in the sea of sorrow
cried so many useless tears
i've grown weary of the thought of tomorrow
wasting away throughout these years

i've found myself at odds with life
gone through enough pain and strife
fuck it all for all it's worth
but yet and still i walk this earth
i've become numb to feeling pain
my existance here has grown mundane
grown to hate all lifes piles of shit
i feel the need to give up but i can't quit

does anyone care if i'm alive?
i've lost sight of that for which i strive
feeling ever worthless more and more
wanting to forget the memories which i store
in my head harmful random thought
has the soul that resides in me been traded or bought?
sinking ever so deep into my mental shell
my ending is beginning, i know this well