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Just one chance

To let you

Know what I feel really is true,



Just one chance

To make you see

What you truly mean to me,



Just one chance

To make you feel

The love I have for you is real,



Just one chance

To wipe your tears

And take away all of your fears,



Just one chance

To be strong

And right all things done to you wrong,



Just one chance

To feel your love

To float about on skies above,



And all that I ask of your whim,

Is you love me like you love him,



Please just give me one chance baby......

The mockery that has befallen me,

Turns me inside out more than you can see,

All these things I'm expected to be,

And the lot of it makes me want to flee,

To a place where I can drown in my misery,

For while you'd think its plain to see,

That all this emotional debris,

Is why I'm starting to disagree,

With this hypocrisy they call democracy,

That anyone who cares to look can see,

Is nothing but theocracy,

Tossed in with a bit of autocracy,

They hold their noses high in glee,

Thinking they're aristocracy.



The problems of my life do seem small,

When compared to problems so tall,

My decisions always seem to stall,

Like walking down an endless hall,

While the rest of the world you might appall,

My very being you enthrall,

When around you I can't recall,

The words I was about to scrawl.



So while around you I can't think,

The rest of the world starts to stink,

The power hungry fools want more,

And all I want is to implore,

That we go back to days of yore,

When we did not destroy the earth,

The source of every single birth,

Or every tiny thing around,

Because all that is small is profound,

Like the love I found to enter my life,

Even though it causes naught but strife,

Every day it breaks my heart,

That you force us to be apart,

And while your opinion I do see,

I still find I cannot agree,

And now I am left devoid,

A feeling I cannot avoid,

Because while I know that you do care,

It causes pain I cannot bear,

And I do not know what to do,

Its got me feeling all askew,

When I look at things I've become,

It makes me wonder what I've done,

In the pursuit of happiness,

All I seem to have caused is stress,

Thats never what I wanted to be,

And now my life is a mockery...

Spirited I used to say,

Until some lost and fateful day,

I had my soul sucked away,

By someone I considered prey,



On the outside it is cold,

I once thought I was truly bold,

From now til the day I grow old,

Onto my back I'll know I've rolled,



The cowards way I chose to take,

Though more for her than for my sake,

And while my very heart's at stake,

The hard decision I did take,



I wonder all the time if true,

Was my hopeless love for you,

If again I had to do,

I don't know that I'd see it through,



My heart for you does still burn bright,

I think about it most at night,

And even though I lost the fight,

I really tried with all my might,



Now to you I cannot say,

That I don't want those two to pay,

No other woman makes me this way,

Infects my thoughts most every day,



There was one small and shiny hope,

But once again I've been a dope,

I hung myself with my own rope,

And once again I'm left to cope,



Everything I was told, a lie,

And once again I want to die,

It makes me really want to cry,

Just sit in my room and get high,



Though everything is a bust,

And another broke my trust,

Forward I will go, I must,

Because if not, I'll turn to dust.

Behind those beautiful green eyes,

I see naught but deceit and lies,

And even though she says she tries,

Her words no longer make me high,



I see the truth, the rotten reason,

Even through the dirty teasing,

You've made a fool of me this season,

My fantasy no longer pleasing,



All I wanted was a friend,

Not just a means to an end,

And while my heart begins to rend,

I'm starting to notice a trend.



I've done this time and time before,

Its now starting to be a bore,

I always knew you were a whore,

And yet, for you I wanted more.



You did not come to life this way,

I know that you know how to stay,

Yet all you want to do is play,

Jerk me around all fucking day,



I tried to give you my heart,

For that you tore me slap apart,

For this I know I'm too smart,

And I don't know why I start.



For every time I give a shit,

Its like I've taken a hit,

My life was very brightly lit,

But just for a tiny bit.



You chose to take away my light,

To cause me such an awful fright,

That I decided not to fight,

For on my life, you are a blight.



And now I have not one tear left,

Of emotion I am bereft,

While I thought that I was deft,

In my soul there's now a cleft.



And there is naught left but to go,

For I have nothing left to show,

I tried very hard to go slow,

And now I'm left with all this woe.



And while I really want to cry,

To crawl into a hole and die,

For you to give a reason why,

That to me, you had to lie,



I have to choose not to care,

Because for you, I will not dare,

Though I do wonder how you fare,

Wish you'd come and play with my hair,



I will not show you all those things,

Because you don't want what it brings,

I do believe that hope still springs,

I've shown you I don't want a fling.



So here I go, I'm off again,

I thought you wanted to be my friend,

And yet you've brought this to an end,

Because to you I will not bend.



You need to know I do love you,

All those things I intend to do,

And while you seem to make me blue,

All these things I feel are true,



And it always leaves me low,

All I wanted is to know,

I still hope that this will show,

You that you should try to grow.....

I wander down the road at night,

I gaze up at the stars,

I wonder why I try to fight,

These simple fucking wars,

I try not to let it bother me,

The silly little games,

But when they will not set me free,

I throw stones and call names,

I put my mind on different things,

Like the wind pulling my hair,

All the beauty that the night brings,

I wish that you were there,

But I don't hold out hope for that,

I fail to give a fuck,

Instead you make me your doormat,

I haven't any luck.

And all of these questions that eat me,

Seem not to matter to you,

As long as he's around and free,

You continue to make me blue.

You say to me these lovely things,

And cannot prove a one,

You do not know what your words bring,

And its still me that you shun,

These are the things that come to me,

When I am all alone,

No one will answer my silent plea,

I'm left in the unknown,

I try to look at the bright side,

It always brings me down,

It makes me want to run and hide,

Whenever you're around,

You have the means to escape,

However I do not,

I try to cut through all the tape,

And it always makes you hot,

All of these doubts and fears I know,

You care not to see,

The best of me I do bestow,

Yet you still don't love me,

You say you want to be my friend,

You say you feel that love,

And I start to notice a trend,

When you hold me above,

You come and sit beside me,

You try to hold me tight,

You run your fingers through my hair,

Everything feels so right,

Deep down my soul tells me,

That its nothing but fake,

And though I don't want to believe,

My insides still do quake,

To think but for a moment,

That I have been played,

It makes my stomach do flip flops,

Almost sends me to the grave,

I do not understand you,

Sometimes I do not try,

You continue to make me blue,

Continue to make me cry,

And everytime I tell myself,

That I am truly done,

You come back around and jerk me,

To see if I'm the one,

You do not know how bad it hurts,

To watch the way you act,

The way he breaks you down,

He robs you of your tact,

And every single time he jerks,

You jump right into line,

You do not see its me you jerk,

For you never look behind,

So here I am following you,

Waiting for the day,

When you realize my words are true,

Let me take you away.......

This one's for the users,

For all of those abusers,

No matter what I try to do,

Always damaged when I felt for you,

You say these words that make me soar,

When you seem to be nothing but bored,

But still I keep my head up high,

Try to believe its not a lie,

And yet every time I do,

I'm haunted by an echo of you,

I can no longer let them in,

For all the situations that have been,

I've been called no kind of man,

That one I've yet to understand,

I've been told I have no respect,

All because my heart's a wreck,

I've been told I care too much,

I wish that statement wasn't such,

But whenever I get blue,

I know that those words ring true,

I know that I'm a monster living,

And yet somehow I can't stop giving,

Its what I guess I was born to be,

Haunted by echos of me,

Wishing somehow I could change,

That my life could somehow rearrange,

But I do not know where to start,

Living with a broken heart,

And every time I seem to try,

Someone makes me want to die,

When the only question I ask is "Why",

And I'm the one who's left to cry.

To feel like something's wrong with me,

Just because you can't let us be,

I've been used for many things,

I know all of the pain it brings,

And to me this pain seems drawn,

I feel like I'm naught but a pawn,

A piece in someone else's game,

The first to go, always the same,

I feel all the qualities about myself I like,

Being torn away with one merciless smite,

And in the end its all so lame,

Because I always feel the same,

And for what did I deserve?

To bear the brunt of your raw nerve?

I do not see how this is fair,

I'm treated bad because I care?

And all the girls, its all the same,

Its so reptitive its lame,

When I try to bring it to an end,

They always say "Just be my friend"

Why must you all want a piece of me,

Requesting something I can't be,

And then I'm made to feel like I,

Am the one who deserves to die,

And do you want to know why?

Because I allowed myself to believe a lie.......

I'm quite sure that you know this and I'm quite sure you don't care, But I'm always going to miss you when you are not there. I'm always going to miss the cold nights that we would talk, always going to miss those times when we would walk. Walking around the parking lot getting high without a care, I go back to that place and all I notice is you're not there. The old friends they still come around, though all I see is your face, Everytime william's phone rings for some reason my heart begins to race. I couldn't be your man, nor could I even be your friend, so when I saw the pain I caused you I had to bring it to an end. You need to be happy, and for that you don't need me. I've sat in bed for hours wishing there was another way it could be. I've had the world shit on me and it doesn't seem to sting, because now I think about you and all the smiles you used to bring. I think of how you made me into a better man, I can only hope that you can understand. I will always love you doll, no matter what you do, and thats why my life cannot coencide with anything to do with you.....

Use me and abuse me and then toss me to the side,

I'll never fight back for it, I always run and hide.

The pain it grows to much to bear, and even when you're you're near,

I feel a growing dread inside, and all I know is fear.

How can someone make you so high and then sometimes so low,

The question, it burdens my mind, its something I must know.

I try so hard to change myself into everything you wanted,

and at the end of the long day it's my feelings that get daunted.

So why is it I try so hard, to find someone to care,

when at the end of the day I know it brings pain I cannot bear.

Because there's not a soul in the world who even tries to see,

the consequences of their actions and the things they do to me.

I feel like its somewhat my fault, for giving a single damn.

Yet no matter how I try to change, its part of who I am.

I cannot do this thing halfassed, like so very many do.

Because when I say it babe, I mean it, I love YOU.

The feeling that I get when you see those other guys,

it takes me to my fucking knees, tears stream from my eyes.

I get so fucking jealous, I want to break their face,

I remember that day in the past, where you made my heart race.

Your lips gently brushing my cheek, the light glinting in your hair,

I think of that day when I'm down, imagine I am there.

The feeling I got that day with your body close to mine,

I want to hold to that tightly, its so very hard to find.

It fills me with a light and strength, the need to carry on,

But sometimes I cannot remember, it feels like you are gone.

I wait for the reminders, and sit by patiently,

And sometimes for my efforts, it seems you've forgotten me.

So at the end of it all on this long and dreary road,

I wander along aimlessly trying to ease the load.