I swear I'm an emotional masochist! I do shit that I know will hurt me just so that I'll numb out and disassociate. It's like cutting only it's my soul that's bleeding not my body.
I'm some kind of crazy.
I've been thinking about my Grandmother's who both passed away this year. It's been such a huge loss of family history and lore. I can't help regretting not taking advantage of all the time I had to talk with them and get to know them and their stories.
It seems to be a part of the human condition to take what we have for granted and then regret it when its gone.
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i lost both sets of my grandparents realy close to gether and was hard to get over and have not all the way yet .
i was realy close to my fathers mom becasuse she rasied me my mom has been disabled most of my life and she even had to spend most the time in hospitals so when we were young my brother who is also gone on to the other side and my sister and me were all but rased by her. and my grandfather on my dads side my moms mom and dad batist preachers they both were in the church all there life . they had a great life 6 kids who are all very sucessful .
when i look back at them and my brother now i feel bad to did not spend as much time as i would have liked thanking them for what they did for me .
and with my bro i know i will see him again its just hard not having him to share the days with .
Warm. Moist. Soooo sweet and spicy. Sticky and creamy. Evil Incarnate is your name you wickedly delicious homemade spice cake with cream cheese frosting!
I love to bake!
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I only saw a partial entry of this on the journals page and thought for a moment you were talking about the bath!
;)
ha, ha!!! That was kind of the point, lol!
Made you look!!!!
Spice cake is now on the growing list of things that make me horny. Heh.
I'm feeling just a tad uninspired today. Where are my creative juices when I need them?
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They're in Ducky?
Ohhh yesssss... I just turned that into a very dirty and naughty thing.
Surprised? ;P
Not at all, lol!!!! Now go take a bath you naughty naughty girl!
... I'll be along in a moment. ;-p
YAY! I'll get those scented candles lit and the bubbles a poppin'!
;)
Tonight I dine on "Crap and Beans", well it's actually pork and beans, but my friend asked what I made for dinner and I told her I had made some "beans and crap." Hence, the name "Crap and Beans" has been born.
Yes, I am the Queen of Dorks!
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I will always think of pork and beans as that now.
:)
Ok... me too LMAO!!!
Anybody out there good with drawing fantasy stuff? I need somebody to draw me a pixie to use on the cover of a story I wrote for a friend of mine.
If I had a dick I'd tell you to suck it but since I don't... well I won't tell you to eat me either cause your stupid fucking face is unworthy of my twat!
end rant
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Hey, that's not what you said last night...
Your kitty and my ducky feathers went nicely together.
;)
(Smile beautiful. Don't let those fuckers bring you down. ♥ )
You could always tell the MY old standby ... "Go fuck an electric fence."
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Requiem
16:25 Jun 19 2011
I do this to an extent, so I can feel specific things as opposed to the things I am feeling with which I don't want to deal. =/