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Why do I continously try to seek something,I seem to be searching for something,It is Happiness..I am happy in my life,but I lost my soulmate and in that I mean not sexually,my other half,my life,I thought it was forever,but was I proven wrong,my heart got ripped out but I deserve it I think or do I,to be a friend you must always be there even when you yourself are lost,it's about showing what kinda person you wanna be and when it doesn't happen that way you assume they aren't there for you and in return you become something evil and lose sight of whats really important and before it is to late you must stop and rethink your situation,make peace and try to move on no matter how bad it hurts,iif it was meant to be it will come back,how to deal with the lose is an entirely different matter,and crying for days doesn't help,nor does getting angry,it only makes things worse in the long run,mind what you say because always remember the things you say in hurt might just be the last.

I am feeling at this moment like I can't breathe,I have no idea what I am doing or how I am doing it,I try so hard to make everyone happy yet it never happens,all I really wanna do is escape,I wanna run so faraway noone will ever find me,then just maybe my life would be peaceful but whatever I made my life my own therefore its up to me to change it to my way of thinking and living and whoever doesn't like it WELL I can think of various things they can do with it.