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Ive decided that Im done. Im sick of crying, sick of basically being swept aside as tho I am only joking on what I say to you. Ive confessed to you before, and you said there may have been a chance, but with how you act and what you do clearly shows you were never taking that confession seriously. Even as I write this, I cry, cry for the fact that I was nothing but a little toy for you to use and abuse till you saw fit to toss me aside. Im done, simple as that.

Ill never understand why he just can't see. See how much he really means to me and my heart. So many ways I've tried to tell you, yet each time you just manage to do something that makes me fall apart into nothing but a crying mess. You did it again tonight, yet I know you dont know it. I know I should stop, that I should put up the walls and just forget about you in that way, but I just can't. I keep hoping that one day, you'll actually see how I feel about you, that you wont see me just as a sibling or a friend. I think that day is a long way off however, or it may never even come. Pitiful aren't I?

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LibidinousLuke
08:10 Jul 23 2011

This does not sound pitiful to me. It seems to me that you may be on the verge of enlightenment.



You can put up walls or you can run away. These strategies guarantee failure.



Or you can make your feelings known and take a risk. This strategy is superior, because it may result in what your heart desires. The only problem is that you would be risking rejection.



Risking rejection is fucking hard. But all of the alternatives guarantee failure. And if you can make yourself take risks then deal with the fact that you may sometimes be coldly rejected, you will eventually find what you desire.

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Terminus
01:31 Jul 26 2011

I say, take the risk Yup!

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Alright, I figured I could add a little more information about me in here instead of on my profile, mostly because I find it easier to type here. Now I'll admit that Im not here to please all of you, and that my page may not appeal to most but its how I am and if you dont care for it then you are more then welcome to leave.



Main thing about me right now is that Im into Role Play on different sites. It's one way for me to get away from the oh so wonderful stress of real life and just have fun with friends and family online. Yeah I'm sure some think me odd and possibly anti social because of it, since I do spend most of my free time online RPing when I get the chance, but I could care less what they think of me really. It's a way I keep relaxed, and I happen to meet some rather interesting people online when doing so, so I think it's a good thing. I love to be able to come up with different characters and play them out how I want them to be, not how someone else dictates. My life is a dictatorship enough so yeah.



Like I mentioned in the short little tidbit before, I love to sing and write. You'll find me singing nearly everytime music is on, and I can say I know a good deal of the songs that are played on the radio now. I know I mess up on quite a few of them too so I know I'm not perfect but it doesn't matter to me, I enjoy singing. For writing, I tend to be rather dark and morbid, as the one entry before this shows, but I honestly don't care. My mind can be a scary place, and if you don't like those kind of things then I suggest you don't read. I'll have occasional times when it'll be a bit lighter, but most of the time it's dark.



All I can say now is that if you want to know more feel free to drop me a message with a question. I cant guarentee that I will answer it but it can't hurt to try can it?

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BeautifulDiscord
03:45 Jul 23 2011

I'm proud to know ya :) ♥

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We live within the shadows, waiting to taint the ground with the blood of the innocent. Our lives are cold, darkened by those before us who have stolen away the light from us. We thrive on the pain of others, delight in their tortured cries as our bodies climb higher in ecstasy at the sounds or them. We too shall take the light away from those innocent, we shall taint them and teach them of our ways. Thus is how we live forever, enshrouded in a cloak of darkness that brings forth a new life that only the tainted may see.

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BeautifulDiscord
01:47 Jul 23 2011

Epical as always :) ♥

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