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In the swirling mist, my path is lost,

no turning back, it's the cost...



To the darkness, forever I am bound,

for me, final salvation is found...



My darkest secret, black veil of death,

in it's cold embrace, I take no breath...



Final sacrifice, split blood,

out, from veins just flood...



Everlasting hunger, my final cross,

in the misery of past, it is no loss...



Last drops of life, poured from the dead,

sacrifice for this night, made for the undead...

Like shiny stars, red eyes,

glowing in darkness of the night,

gliding through the pitchblack skies,

beasts prepare for the survival fight,

soon it's time, soon someone dies...



Unborn child, innocent flesh,

straight from womb of mommy,

meat, oh so sweet, so fresh,

to feed little beast tummy...



Is there any better purpose for a man,

to be stock of warm meat,

higher purpose for arrogant human,

to be melting in belly heat,

food for demons, that's fate of man...

Inside my mind, on darkside, there's demons hive,

through my eyes, out in the night they dive,

for weak gods children, death those demons give,

on helpless world, my demons of mind will thrive,

worshippers of the useless god, soon gone, no one alive...



Souls of the gods fools, those demons will tear apart,

hiding from them is useless, demons no one can outsmart,

from them - protects nothing, to be strong is no any rampart,

demons give no mercy, in any weakness - they hit like a dart...



From your god, pray no salvation, he is weak, can't save no one,

demons will slaughter souls, it takes long till they are done,

demons, those children of mine, are like me, they spare none...



Humans, mortals, weak images of weak god, will turn to pools of blood,

to tear off any part, spill the blood, for demons, it is power above a god...



In my eyes, tears of fatherly pride, I stare havoc, sweet demons of my mind...

I see demonic shadows,

floating in the darkness,

waiting me to fall a sleep,

searching a moment of my weakness...



Shadows of death,

inside my head,

this outstanding pain,

in my brain...



Flames of hellfire,

in my eyes,

smell of death,

in my nose...



Molten seas of hell,

this demonic smell,

someone is casting a dark spell,

holding me in the hell...

Rays of light, last in the sky,

with descending sun, soon to die...



Diving behind horizon, light just disappear,

from the darkness reaching out, shadows appear...



Dark shadows, lurking out to hunt and eat,

children of the dark, soon biting mortal meat...



Loud screams of desperation and pain,

echoing for dead ears, just dying in vain...



This night, demons will have feast,

this night, world is for the beast...

Waiting screams - echoing in world, howls,

our voices in darkness so complete, howls,

stars bring some pale light, echoing howls...



Soon our reason of being ascends to the sky,

staring, waiting, soon our moon will fly...



It will raise soon, then we howl for the moon,

still, for some unlucky, it will bring the doom...



In the sky, moon as full as only it can be,

in down here, it's children, us, it see...



Outside us, hairs are growing,

howling to the sky, moon is our mother,

inside us, hunger is growing,

howling to the sky, moon is our father...



We see our parents grow, wither and die,

we see cycle of the life, it happens on the sky...



We are beasts of the doom,

we are children of the moon...

A rose is rare with such beauty,

But not a beauty such as yours.

For yours is everlasting,

And without a thorn.

It's more precious than the silver

Of the stars.

And more permanet than scares.

It should never give in to the pain of love

For its burn is worse than hells.

But the joy of love speakes words

Which heaven could never tell.

Lock me inside your heart,

And throw away the key.

Because locked inside your

Heart is where i find my peace.

Love is like a butterfly,

If you want it

You have to let it come to you.

But while you have it you never ever,

Want to let it go.

But wether you like it or not,

That butterfly has wings for a reason

First love is like playing with fire:

Aglow with pain and glory.

Tell me, my dear first love,

Whether I'm burned into your heart.

The fire in your body,

The glory of your touch:

Ah! my dear first love,

Never, never leave my heart!



Although the fire is distant,

The pain is always near.

My dear first love, please listen:

I hold you in my heart

Beautiful eyes, beautiful face,

I'm shy to talk to you.

You're the eagle I must watch

No matter what I do.

You're the beauty, wild and free,

The mistress of my eyes,

Rolling through exultant air,

Alone in pristine skies.



I would take you for my own

Could I but have your wings,

Could I but go where night begins

And frozen sunlight sings.



Could I but have you for my love,

How might we fly together!

But I must watch you from below

And long for you forever.

But I must be the one below

And long for you forever

Mine eyes open upon a beautiful day

Full of hope, memories and desire

Thou standeth in my arms holding mine soul

Enticing me into thine fire



I love thee with a passion I knew not I owned

With each minute that drifts by through the day

I love thee as a butterfly loves the wind beneath its wings

As the sunshine owneth the day



Pull mine heart into thine loving embrace

As the enchanted box holdeth mine soul

I sit with thee beside the sycamore trees

And for moments so true I am whole



Tears drip so gently from nights bitter want

Tears of joy now find ways from mine eyes

The lions roar echoes over the land

As by the sweet stream the griffins they cry



I love thee, forever, mine supple temptress

Thine fiery hair entrances mine entire being

Together we belong within each others love

Mine dearest one with eyes ever seeing

On the wings of an eagle,

My love for you flies.

Soaring higher and higher,

And touching the skies.



I reached up above,

And pulled a star from the sky.

To place it within,

Your precious minds eye.



To dwell there forever,

As my love for you.

On the wings of our love,

Enduring and true.



I honor you my darling,

With all that I am.

Please darling please,

Will you be my woman?



There are so many things,

My heart wants to say.

I love you sweetheart,

There is no other way.



this is for a special some one and u know who u are And i wanna be with you for the rest of mylife no matter wat it takes

And so it came to be

this isolation that I am

I can only look to me

to find the way it all began -

this confusion, constant

hunger for something more than this

I strive to find this being

that I envision, yet seem to miss.

Could it be that I am empty-

or maybe a little lost?

Could it be that I am lonely,

or seek happiness at any cost?

This never-ending Something

that I am living deep inside,

depicts the illusion of myself

and all I have to hide

An unnoticed identity clouded,

restless beneath your feet

sorrow life years buried in dirt

billions of cares unforgiven.

Scar a lifeline on granite stone

living wasted nothings

These unspoken distant calls repel,

dying seeds of hateful notes

Use nitrous pins to expose

this evil flesh inside

revealing impure fragile wings

that can't ever be hidden

Yourself seen towards judgement

flow an ocean of tears seeping

downwards to Hell.

Begone ye screams of silence, harbingers of pain

Cloaked in isolation, you mock in harsh disdain

My soul is torn asunder, I curse you, God of Hell

As you pierced my tortured soul, what horrors I befell.

You spoke of quiet solitude, to tempt me to your lair

Then lanced me in my troubled heart, to depths of dark despair

Nemesis, I beg of thee, rise up in righteous ire

Protect me from Tisiphone, from Hell's eternal fire

With all my voice I scream to you, protect me from the night

Alas, in forlorn desperation, I journey to the light

Banished to mind's Coventry, I heed the demon's call

Beckoned by the silent screams, I enter Dante's hall

The night I tried to kill myself

You came into my room and wept

For me. The beauty of your longing

Held me like a plaintive song.

You came into my room and wept,

Suffering my suffering,

And held me like a plaintive song

Till I myself became your sun.



Suffering my suffering,

You taught me well the source of pain

Till I myself became your sun

Shining on the world back home.



You taught me well the source of pain:

For me, the beauty of your longing,

Shining on the world back home

The night I tried to kill myself

With nice little twist,

I slit my wrist...



Not waiting life to kill,

rather my own blood I spill...



It's my own choice, I have no fears,

only pain, in eyes some unshed tears...



On the floor, blood making stains,

slowly releasing me from my pains...



Bloody stains, stains like in my soul,

caused by all the pain, this life so foul...



Vision finally fading away, soon it's all done,

staring darkness, oh so black, soon it's all gone...



Soon I'm released, free from this pain,

suffering and life, it was all just in vain...



Thought, funny how blood makes difference between life and death,

farewell life, so painful, so useless, gonna take my last breath...

There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul,

It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.

I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,

What is to come, to my dismay.

As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions,

more and more comes, more and more depression.



I assure myself everything is ok!

But who am I fooling?

Then I burst into a spirit of rage.

I have questions, and there are answers.

But I'm afraid and much too weak,

When I try to explain,

I hear I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek.

But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,

But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight.



I feel intimidated sometimes by others,

But as I said "This is how I feel"

The pain in me is very real.

I lose control, my thought go wild,

and here I am only a child.

If only you knew what I thought,

If only you knew what I fought.

I need my thoughts held captive.



Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal

and you'll help me think positive.

I'm hurting, I need you!

Please don't give up on me!

One day I will always make you smile!

Love,

Your Child

I've been pushed down so many times

I feel this time will be the last

as I lay here fading

my thoughts are invaded by memories of my past

I feel the pressures of shame and rejection building

as I lay here on the floor

I have no strength to get up

I'm not worth it any more

Can't you see? Don't you care

I want to die?

Don't you listen? Can't you hear

My silent cry?

Won't you turn? Can't you hold

Me to your heart?

Are you afraid of what might follow

Once you start?



Would you rather not believe

I'm in such pain

That all your sense and good advice

Must be in vain?



Would you rather tell yourself

I'll be OK,

And all this adolescent angst

Will go away?



Ah! Would I also swim across

This lake alone!

But if you cannot swim with me,

I know I'll drown

Four o'clock in the morning

Afraid to open my eyes

Another day of grief,

A day of fear.

All alone I feel.

I try to justify all the pain,

All of this guilt before my eyes.

Another day of confusion,

A day of wondering.

Is it ever just going to go away?

All this pain that I feel,

And all this anger, is it going to stay?



Ten o'clock in the evening,

Afraid of the nightmares.

Again my breathing stops.

All I can do is stare into the night.

What is it that causes this feeling?

Another night of crying,

A night of hiding,

Alone once again.

My heart feels empty,

And I can't cry another tear.

Another day wasted on insecurity,

A day of wonder.

Is this ever going to end?

I get a funny feeling,

it comes from deep inside.

I get all mad and angry,

wanting to go and hide.



My doctor calls it depression,

my dad says it's just me.

But the thoughts and feelings,

no one will ever be able to see.



Some say I'm psycho,

some say I'm just weird.

It's like I'm a different person,

and the old me just disappeared.



I get really edgy,

I want to commit suicide real bad.

Then I get a headache,

followed by feeling sad.



I wish I could get help,

I wish it would go away.

Maybe if I keep praying real hard,

it will some day.