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A question some one asked me about a week ago maid me tear up...



Persons question was "Have you ever cut yourself"



i didnt answer and just cried for a bit... I havent been on because i didnt know what to say or do..... But finally I'm going to say somthing...





Yes I have Cut myself before... I used to all the time. It has been 5 years and my scares are just now leaving me... well some arent



I used to cute where my mom wouldn't see. like my stumic and my thighs... Just so She wouldnt see of worry



I do no why I did it.... But I dont tell people why the only person that knows why is EvilNewt

He is dear to me in more ways then just one He stood up for me and my honor and... *turns red* lets just leave it at that for now giggle.



But I'm a bit of ashamed of it. I have only had a relapces 4 it was recent and I remeber why..



I only have a relapce if I'm to the point of breaking down. (it doesnt happen a lot)





But there it is.. I finally told

It's hard for me to trust.. I have a lot of trust problems.. In all my romantic relationships, and I mean every romantic relationship I've had I have gotten hurt... My Dad left when I was about 3 or so and left a lot of bageg with me from things that happend. My steph dad wasn't any better. He left me and my mom 2 years ago and left our bank acounts empty. (Even though it was my moms money) Were still recovering from that and Living in CA doesnt help so me and my mom disited to move back to Seatle. I've moved 2 times in my life. I was born in Tenesse, then we moved to Seatle when I was 5 because of my at the time almost step dads job. Then we moved again when I was about 8 or 9 to CA and we've stayed here.But me and my mom miss seatle. And I miss the rain and snow.. But were also looking into moving to any were else still. But were more then likely going to Seatle because it's home.

I need a man who when i get home from work and am upset can sence it in me and scoop me up into his arms take and sit on the coach with me on his lap and as he takes m high heals off he asks "Whats wrong" and I could tell him with no judgement. He'd smile and kiss me and tell me it will be ok.....



I want a guy that will in a fight let me yell and scream and let me walk away and then once i've cooled off come and see me and say even if i was qwrong that i was right and then try to see how we can fix it.



I want a guy that will sleep between me and the door and hold me through the night.



When a family member dies he'd hold me and let me cry in his arms for however long it took with out complaints.



That will when ever i diside to loose my V card will take it slow and make sure im ok....





I no this is kinda a dream wish of a man.. But a girl can hope..

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Nedra
14:39 Jul 16 2010

Or...........lots of traning.

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Heartbroken
23:56 Jul 16 2010

lol!!!!

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101 Things To Do With our Boyfriend / Girlfiend



Enjoy this list, feel free to discuss and suggest more ideas on the wall!



1. Watch the sunset together.

2. Take showers together.

3. Back rubs/massages.

4. Listen to classical music and cuddle in the dark

or w/blacklight.

5. French Kiss.

6. Hold her w/ hands inside the back of her shirt.

7. Whisper to each other.

8. Cook for each other

9. Skinny dip.

10. Make out in the rain.

11. Dress each other.

12. Undress each other.

13. Kiss every part of their body.

14. Hold hands.

15. Sleep together. (Actually sleep with each

other*not

sex)

16. One word*Foreplay

17. Sit and talk in just underwear.

18. Buy gifts for each other.

19. Roses.

20. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear

it

every time you*re together.

21. Wear his clothes.

22. Find a nice secluded place to lie and watch the

stars.

23. Incense/candles/oils/blacklights and music make

great for sex (cuddling)

24. Kiss at every chance you get.

25. Don*t wear underwear and let them find out.

26. Kinky is bad*Blindfolds are good.

27. Lightly kiss their collarbone and their

jawbone just below the ear,then whisper I love you.

28. Bubble baths.

29. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.

30. Make love.

31. Write poetry for each other.

32. Kiss/smell her hair.

33. Hugs are the universal medicine.

34. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make

sure they know you mean it.

35. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.

36. Tell her that she*s the only girl you ever want.

Don*t lie.

37. Spend every second possible together.

38. Tell her that she doesn*t have to do anything she

doesn*t want to. And mean it.

39. Look into each other*s eyes.

40. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes,

tell her you love her,and kiss her lightly.

41. Talk to each other using only body language and

your eyes.

42. When in public, only flirt w/ each other.

43. Walk behind her and put your hands in her front

pockets.

44. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren*t

looking.

45. Clothes are no fun.

46. Buy her a ring.

47. Keep one of her bras somewhere where you see it

everyday.

48. Sing to each other.

49. Read to each other.

50. PDA = Public Display of Affection.

51. Take advantage of any time alone together.

52. Tell her about how you answered every question in

math with her name.

53. Draw. (If you can)

54. Let her sit on your lap.

55. Go hiking and camp out together in the woods or

on a mountain.

56. Lips were made for kissing. So were eyes, and

fingers,and cheeks,and collarbones, and hands,and

ears.

57. Kiss her stomach.

58. Always hold her around her hips/sides.

59. Guys like half-shirts.

60. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two

deal.

61. Spaghetti* (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)

62. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand

and then put it over your heart.

63. Unless you can feel their heart beating, you

aren*t close enough.

64. Dance together.

65. Sit in front of a roaring fire and make out/make

love.

66. I love the way a girl looks right after she*s

fallen asleep with her head in my lap.

67. Carry her to bed.

68. Waterbeds are fun.

69. You figure it out.

70. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so

that they have to look in a mirror to read it.

71. Break every one of your parent*s relationship

rules for them.

72. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes

73. Even if you are really busy doing something, go

out of your way to call and say I love you.

74. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you

were thinking about them.

75. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.

76. Ride your bike 8 miles just to see them for a few

hours.

77. Ride home and call them.

78. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.

79. Somehow incorporate them into any kind of

religion or worship you have.

80. Be Prince Charming to her parents. (Brownie

Points)

81. Act out mutual fantasies together. (Not

necessarily sexual)

82. Brush her hair out of her face for her.

83. Stay up all night to think of 101 ways to be

sweet to them.

84. Hang out with his/her friends. (more brownie

points)

85. Go to church/pray/worship together.

86. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the

parts she liked.

87. Cuddle together under a full moon on a clear

night.

88. Learn from each other and don*t make the same

mistake twice.

89. Everyone deserves a second chance.

90. Describe the joy you feel just to be with

him/her.

91. Make sacrifices for each other.

92. Really love each other, or don*t stay together.

93. Write a fictional story about how you met/fell in

love, etc. and give it to them.

94. Let there never be a second during any given day

that you aren*t thinking about them, and make sure

they know it.

95. Love yourself before you love anyone else.

96. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.

97. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.

98. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.

99. Sleep naked together.

100. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

101. Never forget the kiss goodnight. And

always remember to say, "Sweet dreams.

Cancer's are fun lovers to be around - since their humour is sophisticated and knowledgeable in the ways of humanity.



They love to laugh - both at themselves as well with others – they are good providers and seem to have a magic touch where money is concerned.



A sensitive, romantic, soft and gentle lover who, when hurt through love, may take considerable time to trust others. Once they feel confident however, the Cancerean can expose a wild side that is surprising in their sexual resourcefulness.



They are loyal and imaginative lovers who delight in cuddling after love making – adore physical displays of affection, romantic dinner dates and communications by way of phone, cards, letter and emails etc.



Since they can be moody, possessive, are often over-sensitive and require constant reassurance, they are liable to react with some jealousy where their partner displays attention to an attractive member of the opposite sex.



The male Cancerean can visualize himself as the white knight or a centre of attraction among a host of beautiful women while she fantasizes as a beauty of famous disposition.



Best Bed Mates for the Cancer: Is a Gemini