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You never walked in my shoes. You walked on my back as I lay across every puddle for you. You never stood where I did. The closest you got to me was standing on my shoulders. So when I say that you cannot understand me, I say that because you really can never possibly understand who, what, or how I am. No one can understand what anyone has been through, because no one has lived in anyone else's perspective. So the next time you step on my shoulders, I'll bite back. You want to confront me on any level, and you will lose. Everything we once had is gone, like a fire's dieing breath in the wind, and with it shall go all of your hopes and dreams. Does it burn when you read this and know my burning hatred for you? Know that everything I do against you, I do out of spite.

I am your hell.

So many voices ripping apart our minds, it's madness. Complete chaos. We are lost and we are hopeless. We are stuck this way with no salvation. We are all in this together. And we shall all perish painfully

I couldn't help but to rip her heart out. It was an accident. Just as the first time I fed on her, it started off the same way. We were just playing around, getting a little aggressive. I started to bite her, and she kissed me, and bit me back. That's when it started. I could hear her heart beating rapidly. She tore me shirt off and bit me on my collarbone. I could see the blood running through the veins on her neck. I lost control. I started to bite and suck at her neck, pulling at her sides. She grabbed me and playfully scratched me. She left welts but I hardly noticed. I finally bit just hard enough to break skin, and began to feast. I could taste the iron, as it poured down my throat. I bit harder. More blood came pouring out of the new wound. I kept sucking out the blood. She told me that it was starting to hurt, and that she needed to recover. I stopped and started to clean up what blood was left. I put pressure on her wound, and kept telling her I was so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt her. It was an accident. But the taste was so intoxicating, and so satisfying. She lived through the experience , surprisingly. But I changed her. I sucked the power right out of her. She's never been the same since.

Before I begin, I must explain. What follows is an argument between two of the sides in my head. One is rational, and semi-calm. The other is the monster that I have become. The one known as Hannibal. Thank you for reading.



'You know that if you don't stop talking, I will end us both. You know that plain as day'

"And even then I do not care"

'So I noticed. Only one thing to do then. Find the nearest bridge and throw ourselves off, listening to our bloodcurdling screams on the way down.'

"...

And I thought I was the dark one"

'Is that mockery?!'

"No. I'm just calling your lousy bluff."

'Yep. That's mockery. Beautiful.'

“So what if it is? You know as well as I do that this is all just to slow you down enough for you to stop thinking about throwing us off a bridge. It is such a dumb idea, yet at this point in your so called madness you cannot think rationally so you do not care. My suggestion to you is shut up, sit down and enjoy the goddamn ride. Suck it up."

'You are suggesting that I join you, or at least let you have control. But I am not so foolish. You and I both know what you would do.'

"And what is that?!"

'You would tear apart everything we have. You would destroy everything we hold most dear. You would end the world, if it meant you would destroy our happiness.'

"That's not true. I could give us everything. You hold us back with what you call logic and reasoning. But I see behind it. Your logic and reasoning is fear. You are scared to lose, and even more terrified to win. Success is your fear and so is failure. You are a failure. You are weak, and powerless. I control us. I make us great. You hold us back in so many ways, and all you can do is complain about why things aren't good. You are pathetic."

'You're right. I'm useless. Continue with your ranting. And end your mother's love for us. It is misplaced..'

"Good. I'm so glad you can see the truth now. Grow from your weakness."

'I will'