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My mother and I haven't got along for a few years since she has been married. In my 10th grade year (the year she got married and we moved) I was pretty much alone in the house. Everything seemed to be my fault and nothing was good enough that came out of me. If I came to her with something she do nothing.



After the year was done I wanted to try school out in California. Went for two weeks and I couldnt stand it. I made no friends, two of the teachers hated me, and my face started to break out bad. In the end I went back to Minnesota to live with someone else for the year and that turned out to be worse. The women I lived with blamed me for some of things that I did. She told me I should be mad a certain people that weren't even there. That I am taking advantage of my family (who live in California). And she make remarks on how her religion can help me and that if I were to follow I'd lived a better life (reading between the lines).



Right now I am back in California ready for my senior year in Minnesota. The only place available for me to stay is back at my mother's. So this Sunday I am on my way to that house with absolutely nothing to care for. This is the final year and I can go to college and don't have to deal with her and that family anymore. I still don't understand how this all happened. The family she married into are fake. They are fake people. My mother has turned fake and the rest of my family I had (which I do not care for now). Turning fake wasn't me so that probably made me the black sheep. But, being different is who I am. Which I am glad.



I want this year to go quickly. Things in that house have made me cried and think of harmful doings to myself.



I shall live through it though. Their threats and yelling won't break me down. They will be stunned by my endurance. I will do my best in school and leave right away.

Alright first of all let us start with my hobby in herbs. Just started it actually. Bought a book to help and I've really learned a lot so far. Some of the common herbs we use for cooking have significance in them that we do not know about. Basil, is used in exorcisms, barley in love spells and can ward away evil, etc. It is all very interesting and the things I know now, as if I were eating them, I know what they can do to help me: Protection, promote love, prophetic dreams, and much other exciting feelings.



On July 23, 2012 is the day I started a new relationship with this girl that I met over the internet. She is just wonderful. The poem that I wrote was for her and she enjoyed it; which I'm glad she did:P. My life has become more energetic and less depressive. I still daydream of zombies and vampires, but frequently it has all been this lady. The smiles I make now haven't been there in such a long time. I definitely adore her^^

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Oceanne
14:19 Aug 01 2012

The study of herbs is a big undertaking !Soo much wonderful information and uses.The ancient African healers alone ,have over 5,000 plant species which are used for food and medicine !



Best luck in both endeavours!

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