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why does everything have to cost so freaking much?! i have been wanting to buy some things lately, like a new camera, and its just so expensive! the economy sucks! stupid george bush! he is sitting on a fucking gold mine while the rest of us, sit back and suffer. why cant we force the rich to give to the poor? like a modern day robin hood? hey, its possible! lol

today was the last day of school, for the summer. it was sad to see the 5th graders leave. they were my first class. loved. adored. cherished.

the possibilty of not having a job come august, is scary. budget cuts, lots of missed days (not all my fault), lots of mess ups for a first year. dont know how far i can raise voice,how stern to be-etc in hopes of getting the kids to do what i say. i pray that i have this job for a long time. years.

I AM SO FUCKING PISSED! WHY DO I HAVE TO CARE?! WHY DO YOU HURT ME? LOOK AT YOUR NAKED PICTURES, FUCKFACE! I WONT SAY A WORD BUT MY FEELINGS ARE HURT. I WONT BE A BITCH. I WILL PUT IT ASIDE WITH THE OTHERS HURT AND PAIN.

WHY DO I CARE? GOD, WHY? I FEEL SO MANY EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW.HURT, CONFUSED, HATE, BITTERNESS.

GET A HARD ON BUDDY! BUT DONT BRING OT TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

today i spent the afternoon with my mom and kids. it was moms birthday. we had a good time. she was happy for her present. which everyone knows that if moms not happy nobody is happy. lol so it was a good day. no hassles, no fuss. YAY!

today i spoke with an old friend, it reminded me of old times. long ago times. times that i will never get back. memories of my dear, departed dad. my grandmothers, my best friend,jason,who left this world almost two years ago. how time passes tho the world continues. that time doesnt stop,just because someone isnt around any more, or is no longer alive. i only pray that as time passes i dont lose these memories. because that is all i have now.