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well i guess i have been traded. i was gone for a while because of some complications. they didnt even tell me i was going to be. i lost my forum master and some levels. which kinda pisses me off. i thought some of them were friends but if they were they arent acting like it. how can you just get rid of someone and not tell them first.

i think vamp asked for my trade but to take away everything that i have worked for. piss off! that is FUCKED UP!

i have been gone for a day or so. i have been sick and sad, depressed. but i hope that i am better for now. here today- who knows tomorrow?



gone- for how long- who knows?

gone- because why? because nothing matters

gone- noone notices any way

gone- sadness overcomes

i feel like i dont belong any where. i get on facebook- and see lots of people who SAY they are my friend. but they arent. i get on here, and i have a couple that get me. but i am really different from everyone. i know they think im weird, or whatever and it hurts.



noone gets me, my humor, my energy, my jokes. i dont fit it, i am different from the norm. so that makes me an outcast. to live and die alone, and sad.



why cant people quit judging or quit acting like they are better than me. i know it shouldnt bother me but it does. it always has.



people are only nice to me when they get something out of it. its true. whether its intentional or not. it hurts to not fit in, to know that people are talking about you behind your back.



I HAVE FEELINGS YA KNOW!

i hate to offend someone when im just being me. yes i smoke but that isnt a reason to freak out. its just a for a lil relaxation.like it matters why i do it, i just do. you do what you want when you want, and i'll do what i want. i am not forcing my green on you. im not even smoking it around you.



im sorry if you dont like it, you arent the one doing it.

I am back at work and loving it! I am working with second grade and they are so sweet. And they listen very well . They are cute and so little. The world is so big to them. It is like a breath of fresh air. The innocence is wonderful. If I could only go back to my childhood. Hmmmm- if only- right?



Now if I could only get my time machine working, lol! Or get Scotty to beam me back! Or use Bill and Ted's phonebooth! OH YEAH! good times, lol

i hate when new people come and think they are all that. they rate you low, like we care? i dont give a rats ass what you like or dont. its my page and i will do with it what i like. so take your low ratings and shove them up your ass!



i am generally nice, so if you are just passing through this was not to you. they know who they are. and where they can go.