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The Sick Game

by Hawk O'Brian





I didn't see it coming,

it was a total surprise.

Cold and heartless,

behind loving eyes.



She told she loved me,

was it really a lie?

Because everything changed

in the blink of an eye.



She wouldn't tell me why,

she just disappeared...

leaving me confused,

and living my fear.



Misery enveloped me,

pain was all I could feel.

I prayed it was a dream,

that this wasn't real.



Even now she torments me,

like a sick she likes to play.

She gives me some hope,

and then takes it away.



Now I see the truth

beyond my despair,

I doubt she ever loved me....

I doubt she even cared.



I want to hate her.

But no matter how much I try,

I know I will love her,

until the day I die.

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VvvVampireKisses
07:19 Jun 01 2013

Each and every one of us has been trapped in this poem ... well written

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By Hawk O’Brian





The world has grown cold to me,

cold, black, and empty.

I no longer feel anything,

and I don’t care.



I put the blade to my finger,

and watch as it slices into my skin.

Crimson erupts from the cut,

falling to the floor, and I feel nothing.



I remember when I used to feel,

how I used to smile and cry…

but those days are gone now,

and I doubt they will come again.



I taste the blood,

the warm, salty, iron liquid

I’ve tasted many times before,

has now lost it’s flavor.



The nightmares that replaced my dreams,

don’t wake me in the middle of the night.

Horrible visions that terrified me,

no longer cause my heart to stop.



I watch as more drops,

fall and stain the tiles.

And I wish that I could feel the pain,

or regret what I just did.



I feel no joy in my accomplishments,

or disappointment in my failures.

I feel no love, no hate,

no anger, or any sadness at all.



I stare at the hole in my skin,

as my life’s blood drips out.

Drops of red, falling to the floor,

as I still can’t feel any pleasure or pain.



I feel no satisfaction,

or any sorrow.

I feel absolutely nothing,

my body and soul are numb.

Husk

By Hawk O’Brian





I stand before you, broken and empty.

I have no fight, no worthy plan.

I have no words left to say.

I am just a shadow of a man.



There is no hope left in me,

no reasons left to live.

An empty shell stands here,

I have nothing left to give.



I no longer see the sunshine.

My will is gone and done.

I get no joy from anything,

I have become cold and numb.



My heart has grown cold and hollow,

my soul has dimmed and faded away.

My dreams no longer come to me,

my hope has died and withered away.



I am condemned,

with no soul left to save.

I’m left with nothing,

on my march to my grave.



I have no reason left to stay,

no more tears falling down my face.

Alone and emotionless I sit here,

I now wait for death’s embrace.



Twilight is now upon me…

another day has turned to Dusk.

But there is nothing left before you,

Except for my dried out lifeless husk.

A Dream

By Hawk O’Brian





It’s 2:30 in the morning and I trying to sleep.

Not because I have some place to be in the morning.

And not because I’m finished with a really tough day.

I want to sleep because that’s when she comes.



She only comes at night when I’m asleep.

I’m not sure if she is a memory or just a dream.

Every night, I pull her into my arms,

and she never puts up a fight.



Dreams of passion, desire, and love.

Feelings I can’t show outside my dreams.

Feelings that I can only share with her.

Only she knows the inner me.



I can feel her lying next to me.

She leans in to kiss me with her soft lips.

I can feel her warm skin against my chest.

I taste her lips and tongue and want more.



She wraps her legs around me.

I pull her close against me.

Our eyes speak volumes,

as she offers me no resistance.



A fire deep inside me burns hotter.

And I can’t ignore them anymore.

My need for her consumes me,

I let go and let my desire take control.



Our bodies dance in a carnal ballet.

Our hearts beat like tribal dreams.

Our life energy melts together,

as our souls become one.



No secrets come between us.

No dark shadows blind us.

Our inhibitions drop away,

as our desire builds with intensity.



We no longer need words.

We know what we mean.

Our hearts beat as one,

as we climax into ecstasy.



My alarm rips me away from her.

Time to wake up, but I don’t want to.

I want to stay her in my dreams……

or make my dream come true.

A Nightmare

By Hawk O’Brian





It’s 4:30 in the morning, and I’m afraid to sleep.

Not because my dreams are filled with devils,

I’m afraid because she’s not there anymore,

and I’m reminded I am alone.



She used to be there in my dreams,

and save me from my demons.

She was my guardian angel, but now,

she is only a faint memory.



Every night, as I sleep,

I call out her name

and try to reach for her,

only to find emptiness.



Alone in an empty room as black and as cold as the night.

Feelings of loneliness that follow me as I wake.

Feelings that just haunt me.

Feelings that will taunt me.



In fire, we were born.

Every flame, dancing with desire,

burning my soul.

As ashes I will fall.



The fire that once burned hot and bright

has now gone cold and faded away.

The dark silence surrounds me,

and misery and despair are my company.



The sun breaks over the horizon,

and sunlight creeps into my room.

Another night is over and done, but the loneliness continues

as another day in hell has begun.