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last year and this year
has been a giant learning experince
having a minor a stroke
being more dizzy everyday.more forgetful and losing the remainder of being sharp.
my eye sight getting worse in my left eye
gaining and lossing the loves of my life
starting with my girlfriend who wanted to marry me and get our apartment
i said no because i must be loyal to my partment and my roomates.
she tried lying to me by trying to convi9nce me she was shot and killed after work.
i got the cops involved and they found out it was a lie and she was alive
i forgave her of that
thinking ending things would be too easy
but i stopped going after and finally ended things between us when i asked her of her opion
she said she would mind her ow damn bussiness
if her duaghter came up missing or run away.
she would not stop for anything or anyone
so i new she lied to me again and did not give her opinion
i still graveled at her feet.
wanting her back ev en it was i who ended things
i am a special kind of retard
on a side note
i got attached again to a few females on vampire rave
iyet i reminded why that was really fucking stupid
which the details i will take to my grave on that.
not to mention
i lost many friendships and detailswill come when i feel like pouring those out
then 3/1/2018
i got evicted from my home because my apartment was untreatable for bed bugs
i do not know who is exactly responble.me.my best friend or one of my neigbors.
which i am still paying my old landlord a 100 dollars a month for bed bugs that aparently
he never had any attention hiring someone who was trained to handle them because the exterminors does not treat them that came out before
so his plan was to sell his rights to the apartment and still get a monthly payment from me.
he sold me down the river
my old landlord the best landlord i ever had
got tired of me
suprise suprise
another person stabing me in the back because i cared.
so reflecting this
I realize
after failing at every kind of relationship
including having a home
I should stop giving a FUCK
AND GUESS WHAT??

I have officially stopped giving a fuck.
so the asshole is back

now it is just a matter of how i eat and how i sleep.

it is all the matters!

is surviving.

well im back to being the asshole again
feels good to be home..