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It was me.
13:20 May 12 2007
Times Read: 565

Happy made misery gallop;

this only one time affair;

When all I did was look into the mirror

When all was different none of it seemed dispair.



Once in a life time reflection;

Candle light by my surroundings;

My eyes stayed glued all night;

all I could see was perfection.



Watery eyes were staring back;

like after a long journey of tears;

streaming down softly fading across her neck;

A warm pale face stood there without any fears;

The view holding on so dear.



All she could see was perfection;

All I could see was a smile ripped across her face;

Nothing there stood between us;

The chilly yet warm night set my heart through a race.



Yellow like green eyes were warmly crying;

Her blonde locks were breath taking;

Her stunning beauty was naturally unlying;

The feelings, that night I was not faking.



That night was special, like never before;

That night I saw something real;

Once in a life time expirience came to my senses;

The reflection I saw perfect, no longer did I abhore.



That night after a long tough row,

The same night I looked into a mirror;

A girl with eyes no longer layed low;

The same one with cheecks red like fire;

Her tear, wet face full of beauty and desire.



No more has she battled with hate;

Further away were her daily feelings;

Her soul smudered with fate.



Pulled out my hand;

Smiled silenty still;

The same night I looked into the mirror;

was the same night I saw nothing like before;

For hours and hours I lay there still;

Drinking the darkness' chill.



Once I had set my spirit free;

Knew I that never again would I see;

The same girl..

That girl that was me...



-written on 12-6-07 the only time I ever felt pretty in my life-

LOL

Enigma's Diaries
14:46 May 11 2007
Times Read: 571

How come they turn around me?

How come they sit and stare?

Why are they always smiling?

Just because I refused the dare?



All they are, are senseless beings

All they do is sit and glare

But why are they always sitting…praying…hating

Waiting for me life to bare?



As she took her final glance

She kept walking past the street

Set still, tied her hair

Kept thinking about her one last chance

‘’but why is mind playing with me?’’

‘’why all the imaginations I spare?’’

‘’commanding me…dance my puppet dance’’



She was scared to look into a mirror

It’s like her reflection despised her still

It was alive but she never knew it

All she thought was that her life was worth nil.



But how come she never surrendered?

Excruciating things she still sees

Her nightmares dragged her into doing crazy things

She loved it when she hurt herself, saw herself bleed

Weird things were going on about her

The unrealistic stories dragged her still

The dark and black in her imagination ran wild

The colour and joy lay still

Hell stood beside her

A terrifying speed the blood pump inside her

A silent cry she yelled for help

When the feeling of the devil snare



From love and friendship she was sober

All time waisted depressed in vein

Her imagination took over completely

In her eyes, blood showers like rain.

Next morning no news was heard

The day after and after were quiet

No new news of the enigma was shared

The people all around got curious

‘’why, how has she not been seen?’’

Slowly, slowly the town got scared

As a voice in the night sounded furious

The entered the room silently

As they saw the scary sight they never pretended to see

A girl they saw thrown on the floor

Droplets of blood dropping, flowing like a stream



The twisted view was scary

The nightmares have come true

The people kept watching petrified

Watching the demonly, pretty face turn a shade of blue



How come she sold her soul?

How come the little girl was dead?

How come she never said anything…

It’s like the words from her mouth come dropping slow

Silence to her was so golden

With those words left unspoken



The night kept creeping slowly

Her soul was alive still

The people all around didn’t notice

But they did feel a presence in the air chill

She told them she will die

She told them she will arise

She told them she will go now

She told them she was living a lie

Nobody knew how come the girl was so wise!



A promise she made before dying

A secret she left unsaid

Her name was written nowhere

It was still left unknown

And after all those years passing

The people of the village couldn’t forget the view of the bloody body on the floor thrown…

SoulDrug..
14:40 May 11 2007
Times Read: 572




I'm addicted to a drug

that kills not mind or flesh

I can't live without the source

of this spiritual gash

You try it once

You're hooked for good

A deprived fool

Where I once stood



Within my grasp

Sudden adrenaline

But when it's gone

Leeching on self-esteem

Souldrug



I'm afflicted by this drug

It fills an empty pit

But it's the one that made

the hole where I was hit

Shot in the heart

I rip out the shells

A flow of crimson rain

extinguishing my hell



Sadness clogs my veins

Like smoke from past's remains

I must satisfy my need

And keep my soul sustained

Someone like me can't be loved
17:10 May 10 2007
Times Read: 586

He' s the one I was longing to stay with;

He's the one who makes my pain fade away;

but yet this is still a secret

If he'll know all my dreams will melt away.



He makes my heart beat faster;

He makes me smile all day;

Yet he still doesn't know this;

I wish I could find just the right words to say.



The worst thing is, he thinks he's nothing but a failure;

He thinks he's just worth nill;

My heart aches as I watch his words across my screen;

Yet my empty soul it'll fill.



I never known what love was

I don't know what it is still;

but unexplainable is this feeling;

as tears stain my cheeks

his warm words, my bruses heal.



Yet he will never know so;

he is too far away;

he will never believe me;

not another word he would say.



He says he won't forget me;

But yet that I find hard to believe;

His presence will always be dripping;

From next to me it's like he would never leave.



He says he loves me yet;

with a long silence I reply;

how long can it be till he will forget;

That someone like me can't be loved...

Pandora's box...
16:48 May 10 2007
Times Read: 587

It was not what you suspected;

it was not what was told'

though there still lay beside you,

taking the ghostly shade

in the silence long.

You know you want it but yet deny it;

You know without it you won't be whole;

lays temptation there aside of it;

you blame yourself for letting it go.



The journey now lays written

in your book, your heart it's absent

Such bad Karma that once by you got bitten;

Your memories dug in your mind as if solid gold.



Imagination runs like water;

from your brain, inspiration in your grasp you hold.

The traveller lays there thinking about his dismissal, loss in every way;

Yet it concerned him that his lies never saved the day;

''Let him who hath fury know I saw him

Let his shame be swollowed whole,

he who dehumanized me once shall shatter,

thus twice is mine gulity ray.

Thou, let my words be told !''



He knows now it's all over;

He will know that his emotional battles lay there all in vain.

Yet the cold, water fountain lay there calm yet brittle;

as Pandora's box took over him in every way.

He was gone...
16:36 May 10 2007
Times Read: 588

Some say he was lonely;

Some say he was not

but the true story happened when he tried to live,

he faught

Cause happy times may be;

But unfortunatley also sad.

He didn't care;

yet he was never glad

He stood up firmly always ready to take chances;

but life lets you down;

it doesn't take who it fancies.

He faught, thought all battles had been won;

but the war had just begun.

He thought that his friends were true;

he was wrong

and soon his life grew desperate, lonely, hard and blue.

Though life also gives chances;

he did not have time for it.

He tried to jump from mountain high;

but somehow came to his senses.

Trew himself against a wall;

thinking why on earth he wanted to fall.

Thinking about his ruined love life;

he saw a light;

grabbed it and flew;

as the wind blew...

...never to be seen again;

and he was gone!







----My second poem written when i was about 11 ..a day after one of my best friends committed suicide :(---