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I'm empty inside

So cold in my mind

Dieing to find

Something

I don't know what

As everything falls apart

I don't know where to start

I just hide within myself

Along with all the things I felt



I'm making it alright. I'm ok.

You said I'm happier this way.

But if this is happy, I'd hate to be sad.



Alone in my mind

with shards of my pride

I'm done. I tried.

I'm cold, and I feel so old.

Where do I go?

What do I say?

Would not matter anyway.

It can't be the same

Words cut the deepest

Darkside



Scouring light can clean deep from outside

it doesn't reach far enough to find the darkside

Of me. Inside of me. Following me

Wherever I go my only goal to be free

from this shadow within embracing me



Away from the light

I hide my darkside

Away from my sight

Neglected it treads

A shadow connected

To me by threads

Burn away the taint

Burn the saint I've never been



A collection of shadowy threads

I can't cut. I can't burn away that part of me

Always there. Always near. Always hidden

From others so that I can pretend

I have no shadow within dragging me



Away from the light

I hide my darkside

Away from your sight

Neglected it treads

A shadow connected

To me by threads

Burn away the taint

Burn the saint I've never been

Lost



Happiness escapes again

It slips through my hands

The dissappointment

Dulling bright

Reminds me of darkest night

Help me try

Help me try to stand



Memories they fill my head

Dredging back the things I dread

Numbing pain

Burning bright

A beacon of searing light

Help me find

Help me find dry land



Everything hits home and then

Everything has changed again

Nothing stays the same but

The the pain doesn't end

Where are you

To see me through

Hold my hand

Because without you

I am lost

I don't know who I am

MY INSANITY



Every day when I wake up, for a moment

I can forget all the conflict of the past,

for a brief second I am only in the present

I am not scarred by my previous battles;

for every day I am awake, I feel it

a sickness in my soul, eating away

I carry it in my chest, this plague

sits calmly while it crumbles my resolves

it tears down every euphoria, every triumph

and in its wake leaves a gaping hole.

this invisible cancer

has slowly removed slices of my consciousness

I am aware of it, as it wreaks its havoc

and leaves me with nothing but empty thoughts.

my soul is covered in dust from lack of polishing

I have no use for it, no reason to let it out

its cage is kept locked, the key's whereabouts unknown

but I keep it in my chest,

waiting for a day when I will be able to

relinquish my dreams to a beholder and let them grow,

maybe I will have use for my soul,

my tired, scarred soul, so tarnished and flat,

maybe I will be awake again to the world,

and live outside my confined mind.

The Beast



Can you see it?

This anger burning inside of me

I feel it freely flow in me

Boiling blood through my body

caged hell within my mind

the ecstasy of this agony

Destroying me



Clench my teeth through this pain

Nothing to lose nothing to gain

Live or die it's all the same

Hurt me now it's all the rage

Toss me back in my cage

Measure me against your gauge

Put me back in your maze

Smother me don't let me breath

Now remind me who would grieve



Burned beneath my skin

pressure's rising and I'm giving in

to the demons raging deep within

becoming something I've never been

clinging desperately to threads of sanity

my reality warped and breaking

all alone on this path I'm taking



Enter this beast of torment

Flying on broken wings

Fear of another tomorrow

Fear of another week

Of tired lies and double speak

If you die I will not weap

Promises come in torrents

From corrupt men of all things

All hail who fight tomorrow

Watch as they crush the weak

MOONLIFE



Darkness surrounds my broken form.

Void and shadow are my eyes.

Ether and nothing make me whole.

I am the noise in the night.

I am the monster under the bed.

I am the darkness and fear in your head.

Your perception makes me strong.

Your fear will feed me long.

Screams and terror are my song.

Sing for me my sanguine prey.

Feasting, feeding, my nocturnal day.

Coffins and ash comprise my home,

resting quiet among the bones.



Seplucher of ages here I rot,

The aincient, that time forgot.

I know your name, I know your soul.

Find me, my darkness, in my hole.

You sought me out, you found my lair.

Lie with me, forget your cares.

Die in my embrace, give your life to me.

Slave to the darkness, together see.

Evening tide will rise again.

And in the moonlife we will dance.

Flames



I stare into the flames

Of my world

I can do nothing and

It falls down

I accept the blame

Cast on me

Dwelling in the past

To feel the pain

At night I close my eyes

And pray for silence in my mind

In stray thoughts and memories

And dreams of beauty she comes

Arms welcoming

Smile assuring

Eyes deceiving