I hate that I have to remind you to remember me...
The saddening realization that you are deteriorating, Teroso.
I have had a life easily misunderstood from the outside, but inside I am like a honey comb, buzzing and sweet. I am like a tree with animals in the hollows... that touches no other roots. I am alone and I am safe, and I am wild enough.
the only way i can describe the feeling of the way you left, is like throwing a ball for a dog, just for it to return to nobody there.
because after a while, I started to look for you. in these burned out memories of what used to be. in between the words of your torn letters. i look up to the sky, close my eyes and just dream. i’ll live for you as you watch over me.
So something inside of me kept clicking. As if it were trying to tell me something. But I guess, I already knew. I am going to lose you, like I lost every single thing that I've ever cherished.
I mean, think about it...
In the most subtle ways, we never truly get over our traumas. And sometimes we become unkind. Even to those who love us most. You see, trauma reminds us of something we have already known since birth...that we were brought into this world alone, and we will leave this world alone.
As if sexy messages and teasing pictures is enough to satiate my thirst. I will kiss every inch of you, I will write symphonies on your skin with my fingertips. I will revel in your breath in my ear and your hand on my thigh and not think about the tears I’ll cry on the way home from loving you like mad.
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