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Those of you who know me personally and judge me for decisions I've made...try walking in my shoes...

When you love someone and they love you just the touch of their hands like a spark. to feel them next to you is like an electric excitement. Feeling the one you love inside you, kissing you, and looking into your eyes its like an everlasting ecstacy. I pray that I can feel that again one day

Being alone is starting to get to me. No one to talk to. No one to hold my hand or hold me as I sleep. My lonliness is sucking me deeper into depression, deeper into this black hole of despair. Just to feel somone close to me right now would be the greatest thing

Block out the noise, block everything you feel. This is what I learned from you. Your words hurt more than any pain, and cut me deeper than the sharpest knives. But I feel for you so strongly that even the fact of my pain giving you the smallest pleasure makes me smile. I'll swallow your hate and give back a love you could never grasp. A love stronger than my pain and anguish.

I'm screaming out for help. Holding onto what we had even though it's lost. Wanting somone new. Without the ability to open up, to trust, and submit to love the way I did for you. I built my life around you, but you tore it down all over again. I wonder if I'll ever have the strength to reveal myself again. To love the way I once did, unconditionally, and without doubt. To submit fully,commit even though I know love can give great pleasure and ever lasting pain.

I remember when it was us against the world. The times I thought we'd never part. All the times I held my head to your chest for the almost silent, but steady beat of your heart. When I could no longer feel you, my heart was ripped away. Sometimes I close my eyes and feel a natural high. Just thinking of your arms around me as we slept through the days, and ignored anyone who would doubt what we had together. But now you're gone from me. You've takin' that away from me. Will I ever hear your heart beat again?

I have an urge to open up, and to show you what's inside. My biggest fear is that you'll run when I have nothing left to hide. There's a strong love inside of me deep within my soul. But will you get through the darkest part of me, or look past and know what the world can't see? I want to show you, give you part of myself. Are you ready for what you'll see...the real me?