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Making da effort ...12:40 May 27 2011
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tada!
Cubby gathered all the coloured paperclips in her possession and made this.
A silly display but a sincere thought. She is sorry she freaked out and she is wondering if you would give whittle cubby another chance.
stupid ... stupid ... stupid me!12:13 May 26 2011
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A tale of a girl who could never conquer her fears ...
So there was this girl who met this guy under some weird circumstances. They started talking and soon after they grew to like each other.
You see both of them have been hurt in the past and that made it difficult to move their relationship to the next level. They knew how they felt about each other but they couldn't do anything about it.
So for some odd reason they spend the weekend without talking to each other. That is when the girl realizes how lonely it was without him. She started to realize that he meant alot to her.
It freaked her out. After staying single for almost five years, the thought of loving someone terrified her. She felt vulnerable all over again.
What if it doesn't work out? What if he hurts her? What if she hurts him?
She could not relive the nightmare again. So she decided to run like a coward. She had to build her walls high and not let him in. She picked a fight with him. She ended her friendship with a coin toss. She held back her tears and pretended not to care. So the decision was made and they were to go their separate ways.
Today she finds out that he blocked her. She got what she wanted. She made him hate her and she drove him away. She smiles and then she cries. She thought she won! She won the battle within herself but she knows she lost a wonderful guy.
That stupid girl is me ... I let my fear conquer me again. The fear of relationships and love. I had to stop myself from liking him.
I ran like a coward ... with my tails in between my legs and ears flipped back. I ran scared.
He was a wonderful man ... one of the best things that has ever happened to me here.
I would like to thank all my friends ... for your kind messages. Don't worry I will bounce back ... Someday.
I will be inactive for a couple of days. I need collect my thoughts and calm down. Well I also need to slap some sense into me ... lol ...
Ps. The coin toss was in favor of us being together. I lied to him ...
*slaps own paw* Bad Cubby!
01:37 May 26 2011
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Dear bunneh ...
I lied ... I still play LBP ... I play it every night. I have been stuck in India trying to retrieve the lamp from the monkey ... Been stuck there since last week! I can't get past the spiked revolving plank thing and it's driving me nuts. I change my sack person into a boy :D He is wearing one of those aladdin costume ... lol ... well i guess you are wearing the aladdin suit and you are super cutey :)
from ... your ex gamer gal
02:28 May 25 2011
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I am going to smile and pretend everything is alright *smiles*
13:25 May 23 2011
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... wondering if he will miss me the same way I am missing him ... he will never show and I will never know ...
*waits*
11:59 May 22 2011
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I know that he is going to hurt me ... I just know it and Im just waiting for it to happen. Foolish me ...
Wanting it to work ... Somehow ... Someday ...11:14 May 05 2011
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Heart : When does one know that they are smitten?
Mind : When one makes an attempt to like the things that are of interest to the other ...
Heart : *shifty eyes*
Mind : Oh crap! *facepaw*
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COMMENTS
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Briareios
08:36 May 28 2011
The guy must be very lucky. I really do hope that he sees what you are tryng to do and he allows you that second chance as everyone deserves one most of the time. You seem very sincere in your ways. You must be a wonderful person