So a week ago my father suffered a heart attack and got hospitalized. It totally caught me off guard. I was not sure how to react given that my dad had walked out on us years ago. But I guess nature took over. Blood is always thicker than water and the moment he fell I was there to catch him, regardless of what he had done. I was not going to abandon him like he did me. I rushed over. It was awkward at first. I hardly knew the man. I did not know what to say to him or what he liked. I was emotionally overwhelmed. I wanted to cry because he was sick. I wanted to scream because I was still angry at him. I was confused because I did not know why I was caring for him.
I had to maintain my composure because I had to do my filial duties for him as a daughter without hurting my mother's sensibilities. It was hard but I think I did good job. I do not think I can ever forgive him but for the moment I sure can forget it.
This is his second heart attack and they had to perform a coronary angioplasty on him. After the surgery he suffered from appendix issues. The doctors were unable to remove the appendix because they could not place him under anaesthetics due to his heart condition. After he stabilized from his initial surgery, they performed numerous tests on him and decided that it was still risky to put him through other surgeries. Instead of putting him under the knife they opted for a safer treatment through long term medications. He is no longer in the coronary intensive care and has been relocated to the general ward.
I also have so many things happening at the same time. In the midst of this whole heart attack episode, I had to send my mother off to India. I had to help her with the packing and other travel arrangements. And as if that wasn't enough I have added responsibilities at the office. Well what can I say ... I am a wonder woman ... I can handle anything thrown at me.
I am feeling much better now and thanks to certain individuals who have stuck by me through these hard times. Had some lovely messages in my VR inboxes ... nice to know that people care ...
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No matter what happens in the past .its the ones who can forgive at the moment of trial and error to help us to the next level. our lives as we grow are nothing more than experiences and heart aches which some tend to step up and grow stronger with each passing day. By you doing this just makes you stronger.. We love you Cubby ;)
Welcome back Cubby!
I'm so sorry you're going through a lot :( But you really are a wonder woman and we missed you!!!
*Pounce huggles*
You are an amazing woman to withstand the trials that have been thrown at you. You are strong Cubby. I agree with Dan....my dad spent years in prison for various things and i will always feel betrayed for missing those years with him. He was struck by lightening a little over 2 years ago and has suffered health issues ever since. He now has migraines really bad and has issues with temporary blindness. I now live with him to help him during the day as he can not take care of himself and my little brother right now. It is amazing what we can overcome in someone else's time of need. Just always know Cubby that no matter what Momma is always here... I love you girl
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What show is this?
teen wolf ... not as bad as I thought it would be ...
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