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confliction...



horror...



pain...





My mind in a world wind I never thought even possible....



He is changing...



and leaving me behind....



His demons run a vain so deep inside....



I have tried to be His confidante....



to rely on me...like no one else....



I know He loves me there is no doubt...



but what do I do.....



I cant be anyone else...



I am the creature He made me...



I guess you could say Im His spawn...



lover...



bond to His heart for all time...



through pain..suffering...laugher...love and tears....



what do I do....



I just cant say good bye....



Forsaken is my name...



and failure seems to be my game...





I NEVER leave or ever judge...



Im loyal literately to the end...



but I believe He will be my undoing...



so I ask you...





what do I do...

Is it bad if I say....



I want....



I want you to look at me with not just love but lust as you push me against the wall by my throat ,,,



is it bad if I say...



I need...



I need to feel the pressure of your hand squeezing lightly against my jaw as your tongue parts my lips hard with need of your own...





Is it bad if I say....



I hunger



I hunger to hear your breath heavy as you push apart my thighs and capture my wetness with your large strong hand...showing me what is yours....





Is it bad if I say....



I feel...



I feel a moan and a gasp muffle as you flip me around and your hardness presses against my bare ass...pulling my head back by my hair...to whisper in my ear..."this is where we both belong"



Is it bad if I say...





I know...



I know as you roughly enter my body and I scream with joy... you are fucking me with your body....but making love to me with your heart....







Is





it



bad





if



I



say



?

I hurt.... you hurt...



but...



We Hope For...



Many life times pass between Us...and things change...



but...



We Hope For....





Love comes with joy and pain that can not be explained...





But....



We Hope For....





we breath life into others...we bring forth life that means more then our own...





But...



We Hope For....





We grow older..watching as time passes and we start to see we dont only not think like others...but are not...





But...



We Hope For....





that connection that will make us whole that will complete us...





But...



We Hope For...



our deaths...because we are so empty we can not even function...to even walk among what we learn is sheep...



But....





Time Stops....





and our hopes become real..and I find you like out of a story book....

there is no more time...You are Him..and I am Her...two pieces of a puzzle finally complete..splitaparts ..and we finally feel weak in the knees....



it is more then love...



more then partners...



more then lovers or friends...



it is the other part of our soul...





it is ...





More then...



We Hope For....

Today I have missed them....



Today I feel them closer then I should...



Today I heard the echo of their laughter....



Today I watched a rewind of memories in my head that still burns...



Today I was crying on the inside but not out...



Today I realised is just like everyday...and forever..will be...my heart bleeding and aching...pouring out of me in loss of them... a endless ocean of indescribable pain...

stretched out for the world to see...



I bare myself to you...as always...



naked not only in body but mind..open...



your cold body stands to look and see....tongue in and out between your fangs...



never to touch... taste..or feel..



just look..to spy...



my body chained in the invisible chains of your weakness and apprehension..to keep me as just your voyeuristic toy...





to scared to touch...to afraid to confront...





wtf coward....why am I to much?

i sit here quit and alone..trying to look past this world i reside in..past all the needs and want...hurt...i cry silently to myself hidden under this mask i feel i let be created..gagged unable to scream..my eyes try to see back to a world where life made sense.....where love of any kind over took anything...and the mind was the biggest weapon you needed... my heart sinks...for i cant..i am lost..lost in what is left of that world i remember and hold so dear...my pain over takes me as i watch my myself fade...begging in my thoughts to be touched to feel real and alive again....and as the last tear falls and i fade away forever into the black nothingness....i ask why..why was everything more important then just plain love..love of humanity..love of a child...love of God..love of just one heart of another?.and now im the product...and the worst part is...no one will ever notice....-Anonymous

you slither in like a snake on your belly....



you move and tangle your body around everything you touch...



you try to sneak and hide...





but I know...





you move here and there...



finding all the corners and dark areas to hide from the light...



no back bone.....





but I know....



you are a coward...



a reptile...



with a heart even more cold... then the blood that runs through you..





but you know...



you were once a man...



warm blooded...



loving... caring... compassionate and passionate...





we both know...



you are now the father of lies...



deceit...pain..



selfish...creature...



I know....





you will regret it for all the days of every existence... you ever have



and My face will haunt you till the end of time....