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I don't why I'm writing this but I just feel I need to.

When I was young I was bullied by a girl called Bonnie. She made my life hell. She was always there and more I told people the closer they put us together. She used do some things that I made myself forget and well I know remember. I became numb to the world around.

Some years later I began to suffer with depression it got so bad I planned my own death. I wasn't starting to feel but really didn't know the cause to the depression until......My cousin started to hang around with one of the girl who helped Bonnie bully me. And the locked memorys began to come. They in my dreams and I would wake up feeling dirty. Then came when ever they wanted. It was killing me inside. Until one day I told someone and it went away.

I started getting better. The depression went away. And I was smiling and enjoying life. Until a week ago when I saw Bonnie. I hadn't seen her since I left Junior school. And there she is. Alive and smiling. And everything she did to came flashing back. Worst than ever. I can remember everything she did. Its like flash back from a horrible nightmare. I'm starting to feel dirty again and I can't get her out of my head.

I feel like I been raped. I know hard to put your mind across but I do. She used to make be do things. I never wanted to do them but I just wanted her to like me so she would stop bulling me so I did what she told me. She would make me undress then get into her bed. It was sort of playing "house" and I was the husbard. I don't remember the detail like what we did when I was undressed. And I don't want to. It started when I was 7 and ended when I was 10.

I feel like I'm to blame. I let her do this to me but I didn't want it to happened. Its killing me inside. I feel so unclean. I want to kill her. I want to tell the world. But I don't people think I'm some twisted kid..and so on. I jsut wanted to tell someone and this was the easys way to do it.

Email me or whatever if you have any comments. I need some help.

"November Rain"?

Cost: $1,500,000+?

Artist: Guns N' Roses

An 11-minute video extravaganza, this video tells the supposed tale of singer Axl Rose and model Stephanie Seymour getting married, having a party, and living out their lives together until death. And all it took was 11 minutes? A classy video that combines storytelling with live concert performances, Guns N' Roses actually paid for the video themselves, to insure that it looked as they envisioned.

1. Renting a symphony orchestra: $25,000

2. Specially constructed chapel: $150,000

3. Wedding dress: $8,000

Specially constructed coffin: $8,000





The story in the November Rain video is based on

a story called "Without You" by Del James.

The story can be found in a book called "The Language Of Fear".



Awards



#1 on MTV2's Top 69 epics April 2004

#1 on Veronica's Top 1000 Songs Of All Time December 2004

#2 on MTV's "Top 10 Rock Videos of the 90's" April, 2004.

#5 on VH1's "100 Greatest Videos" 2003

#6 on VH1's "25 Greatest Power Ballads" May, 2003

#7 on Q Magazine's list of the 50 Best Videos Ever April 2004.

The 1992 MTV Video Music Award performance of the song was at #7 on MTV's "Top 10 VMA Performances" in June 2003.

#51 in Mojo magazines 100 Greatest Epic Rock Songs March, 2004







Video info:



November Rain June 1992

Director: Andy Morahan

Director of Photography/Camera: Daniel Pearl



1992 MTV Video Music Awards winner in the

Best Cinematography, Best Special Effects and Best Editing categories



#6 on VH1's 25 Greatest Power Ballads (2003)

#7 on Q Magazine's list of the 50 Best Videos Ever (April 2004)

#4 on Kerrang! TV's Top 20 rock music videos of all time (April 2004)



"November Rain" is one of the most popular songs by the band Guns N' Roses (written by Axl Rose), especially among music listeners who are not die-hard Guns N' Roses fans. It consistently remains one of the most requested songs on rock music radio stations. However, as well known as the song is itself, perhaps a greater amount of attention is given to the music video, which, in 1992, the year it was released, quickly became the most requested video on MTV and won an MTV Video Music Award for best cinematography.

"November Rain" appears on the album Use Your Illusion I. At over 8 minutes long, it is an epic rock ballad and one of the longest songs not only on that album but also that Guns N' Roses has ever recorded (both distinctions go to the 10 minute long "Coma"). On the radio, however, "November Rain" is sometimes played in a shortened version. November Rain does however hold the record for the longest guitar solo (counting Slash's two solos) in a US top ten hit ever.

The video is somewhat of a concept video, but by no means any less an epic than the song. Particularly, it can be noted for its large budget (about $1.5 million) and stunning cinematography. Many fans consider "November Rain" to be the second video in a trilogy (between "Don't Cry" and "Estranged"), and although the band has never made that statement, the similarity in production and style can be considered evidence of this intent. Like many other Guns N' Roses videos, "November Rain" contains concert footage, from the Use Your Illusion Tour.

The song has been noted that have been written since 1983. Former L.A. Guns guitarist Tracii Guns said this about November Rain:

When we were doing that EP for L.A. Guns, like '83? He was playing "November Rain" - and it was called "November Rain" ... you know, on piano. Way back then. It was the only thing he knew how to play, but it was his. He'd go: Someday this song is gonna be really cool. And I'd go: It's cool now. But it's not done, you know, he used to say. And like anytime we'd be at a hotel or anywhere there'd be a piano, he'd just kinda play that music. And I'd go: When are you gonna finish that already, you know? And he'd go: I don't know what to do with it.



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/November_Rain