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wake up to being told to get dressed… check on some job applications (set up two interviews), still waiting to hear back on a background check for a job i was offered…. get bitched at because the future sister-in-law left her keys at home and we didn't know so we locked the door behind us…. she started bitching at us because she doesn't listen to us… she tells us either come up with our part of the rent or get out tomorrow… like what the hell… money doesn't grow on trees… so now here i sit while she and my fiancé are sleeping (both work 3rd shift). WHAT AM I SUPOSE TO DO?

From: me

Sent: Wed 7/29/15 11:13 AM

To: mom



Josh is doing all he can to care for me… the job opportunity was in upper MI with his buddy IF his buddy moved… he didn't. Then we got more news on his dad's health so we decided moving to where we are was the best move because it wouldn't take much and his dad would be gone. As far as his kids go, he's not going to sign off on them… once we catch up on car payments he's going to file the paperwork to set up visitation and change how much he pays in child support. You can push Josh away all you want but you're pushing me away too. You don't see what we go through every day and what Josh does for me. As far as grandma goes no i wasn't going to ask her about money no did i. I wanted to talk to her about the job i'm waiting to hear back about the background check on. I also told her about what i've been going through because she believes in prayer and i figured if she wants she can pray for me. Josh is no threat to you or the boys… he even called into work one night because he had to bring me into the ER.



Date: Wed, 29 Jul 2015 08:59:05 -0700

From: mom

Subject: Re: just please read this before deleting it...

To: me



I was not pushing you away...I love you and always will. Josh has said a lot of contradicting things, and it's hard for me to keep up. He said he would take care of you....I haven't seen that yet. He said he had a job waiting for him, then moved you to a different location than where the job was. He said he wanted to be closer to his kids, then was all ready to sign off on them. I told you to have him talk to someone, that they may be able to help him, but when I said it, you told me there was nothing else he could do. I don't trust him at all. I'm not trying to keep Joshy from you, but I really don't want him around your Josh. You are welcome here anytime, but he is not. This is not the first time you have put some guy before family....and then you expect us to bail you out when you have a problem. It's exhausting! You need to learn to take care of yourself....you put yourself in this position, not me. You still owe grandma quite a bit of money....I'm guessing you wanted to get a hold of her to ask for help? I know you two texted for quite a while....she didn't tell me what was said, and I didn't ask. You and your brothers are everything to me. All I have ever wanted for you was to be successful and happy, but you seem to have given up on the career you wanted. I was so proud of you when you were going to school and working, now I am just disappointed. I love you so much, and it hurts me to see you living your life like this. I want you in my life, but i have my limits with what I can handle.

I am still here.

Love,

Mom



From: Ashley kain ;

To: mom

Subject: just please read this before deleting it...

Sent: me



I never said i didn't care about my family. You pushed me away because you didn't like what Josh ALMOST had to do. Please note the almost, he spoke to a lawyer who told him before he does that to try to petition the court to change the amount paid in child support AND to try setting up visitations with his boys. I love you and i love my brothers. I'm going through a really rough time right now, and yes while i have been asking people for help about my car payment my post had next to nothing to do with money. (i only added that part because i knew how people would take it)

I feel like nobody in the family even likes me anymore let alone loves me. I feel like the family is pushing me away. I never wanted to lose you and the boys but you're pushing and not giving me a choice. I love Josh and I am going to marry him, but I love you, Joshy, and Zach too. I'm not going to exclude Josh and as soon as he and i can afford it we are going to marry because without you and the boys there is no point in waiting. I wanted you involved in the wedding but i'm guessing you don't care about that anymore either.

If you care to know the full amount of what i've been going to feel free to respond, if not then i guess until you get ahold of me this is the last you'll hear from me.



Love,

Ashley

he's gone to work… i'm the only awake adult with two kids, four cats, and a dog. I wish i had a job already...

The job interview i went to. ..yeah i didn't get it. .. so the search goes on. Filling out job apps every day, with a job interview in about 4 days. Hope this one brings good news.

Why is it so hard to find a job these days? I have bills i need to catch up on… ugh! I just need to find something.

I've been looking for a job for over a month and i just had an interview about 2 hours ago… i'm suppose to find out if i got it or not tomorrow. I'm very excited and nervous all at once.

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RavenxSilverclaw
03:14 Jul 21 2015

Good luck! Job hunting sucks at best. :)

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I don't know if anyone really reads anything i type or not but just wondering if anyone that sees this is a prepper or knows one. My Fiancé and his father are and sometimes it's hard on me because of how those two get sometimes. If shit does hit the fan they want to bug out together… him, his dad, his dad's gf, and i… I don't have any major problems with this apart from the fact his dad's gf drives me completely crazy, and that when him and his dad get into it it kicks up my anxiety like crazy. Just wondering if anyone has any real advice as to how i can make this work out for everyone…

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Amenthewick
23:49 Jul 20 2015

first of all I've realized there is a whole underground good guy group....who...won't let things get that far. secondly.....they feed each other positively or negatively......don't worry about bugging out until you start seeing Our armed forces fighting themselves...as this would be when a foreign force will want to attack both our sides at once.....so the plot thickens when you know and realize all this is actually staged for the removeal of unconstitutional traitors by the united states themselves...I don't worry...for its when clerks and janitors start fighting side by side with the firemen...for the constitution they'll start to rethink what they are doing.... as to whatever you were talking about.....love and understanding in the face of hatred....is usually what makes or breaks family. We need to remember....freedom can only be taken....if we believed it could ever be stolen in the first place. freedom cannot be taken from any of us....it is our birthright given at the cost of millions who died to secure it forever....I was one of them....and will gladly do it over and over again for forever....

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FallenAngel93
23:53 Jul 20 2015

alright and thank you, i'm just going crazy.

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Just kinda putting something here for the sake of typing…. kinda a blah day…. first half the day my hubby was sleeping and now i'm sitting on the computer while he gets ready to play on his ps3. It's been a long few weeks now…. just a lot going on but not sure how to word it all so i'll just leave it at that. I'd take a nap now if i could but i have one errand to run after it cools down some and if i pass out now i won't be getting up later. I never know what to put here because i don't want to bore anyone who reads this with my problems….