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was not my ex! I thought it would be hard to forget the times we had and move on, but have found that I was wrong. There are good guys in the world and I've met one.

I always said I'd never pick anyone up at a club, but lo and behold...I pick one up at a club.

I'd told myself that after all the bull I went thru with joe that I would be done for a while. A very loooong while. Meantime, I'm clubbing and partying my heart out, making up for 6 yrs of an overly posessive boyfriend who hated going to clubs and bars...

I see this really hot guy...and I think...ohh where has he been the last few weeks I've been coming out? But I quickly brush the thought aside and remind myself I'm here to have fun and not to try to hook up with a guy and either a) be rejected or b) find myself regretting it later...

So I go on with my night. I see him again later...damn he still looks hot! But again, I push the thought aside...Then I run into him once again on the top floor. Ok...he's having fun dancing and singing to himself...hmmm. I try to get closer to observe a little. Girl after girl walks up to him, dances with him and leaves...I thin, does he have a girlfriend? I keep watching...I'd feel like a total dumbass if I try to talk to him and his girl gets angry.

Throughout the rets of the night, I keep watching from afar, deciding if I'm gonna talk to him...at the same time, trying to fend off this little Mexican guy that keeps telling me I'm beautiful...

I finally get up enough courage and tap him on the shoulder...I wince. He turns around and looks at me questioningly...No you don't know me..I say. I ask if he wants to dance...which is retarded because goths don't really dance together just kinda near each other...We dance and because its the end of the night the get out songs are playing...but we keep dancing. He lets me know he's gonna head outside and I follow.

After he helps a friend out with an issue, he finally comes over to my car where I am patiently waiting... We talk for about 2 hours...and I mention how I'm looking to make new 'friends' after moving back to Jersey....I swore thats what I was looking for...

But here we are 2 months later...still together..that might not be long for some...but lets wait and see...I made myself wait a week before I agreed to date him...Yes he asked me about it earlier and I made him wait...but when I say I made myself wait...I mean I MADE myself wait. I liked him from the beginning. I was totally lying to myself that I wanted to be his FRIEND. So yeah, I'm his friend all right...and then some...