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I have not wrote on VR in a long time I am still talking to him but we seem like friends then anything he still lives far away still can't be with me so I told him today that I can't wait forever that if I found some one I would be giving him a call to tell him so I have more things to worry about my mom is not doing to good she broke her wrist she is in a cast I have to be there to help my dad with her she is 82 years old so it's not like she will heal fast I work in the day until 12 or 1 Pm just so I can take care of my mom and dad so I don't have the time to deal with him I feel like running away my sister lives far away she can't be here to help me so i'm on my own I keep doing what I have to but I just want to leave and tell no one with I am I know I can't :( I wish I could make things better but I can't right now I Love my mom and dad and My dog but I feel like I could do better but I not sure I Love Him but he just won't come here to be with me why should I live my life that I have back Alone I spent my life looking for the right guy and I thought he was it but I guess not I am not getting any younger why can't I find someone just for me ? I am a good person I care lot about people help as much as I can do what I need to do everyday why don't I have someone for me now I been with loser's though my life I am ready to give up and live alone until I die :(