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Its Thanksgiving day its 5 Am in the morning I am going back to sleep soon I talk to my baby and I,m happy (: He was drinking with his friends I was doing that last night with my friends I was very buzzed leaving my friends house but i live next door so i want a cross the yard and I am home I passed out and woke up at 3 something holidays are for partying I think having fun and hanging with friends and family talk about the old days and new days life is to short I am glad I got someone to call my own and nothing will change that unless something happens between us but i feel its only going to get better I love him and he loves me I cant live with out him in my life Happy Thanksgiving ..

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crymson
21:25 Nov 28 2009

enjoy the holiday season

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Well its been one day sence I talk to him and he is doing his thing I have called him like 5 times and he is not calling me back i,m not sure what to do but if i don't talk to him bye tomorrow I will be calling him house not his cell so he better be ready . just for 5 min of his time we will see what happens but until then I will see if he calls me tonight .. he makes me crazy I care so much but talking to my sister and her friend makes me think other things maybe its good or bad not sure ?

Well its been one day sence I talk to him and he is doing his thing I have called him like 5 times and he is not calling me back i,m not sure what to do but if i don't talk to him bye tomorrow I will be calling him house not his cell so he better be ready . just for 5 min of his time we will see what happens but until then I will see if he calls me tonight .. he makes me crazy I care so much but talking to my sister and her friend makes me think other things maybe its good or bad not sure ?

It my b-day today and I am 42 now its just another number well I am going out for breakfest for my self I can at lest give that to my self no one was around to hang with though the hold weekend was a big loss I did nothen this year very sad I use to always havd my friend linda paulmarry I miss her so much we had so much fun my b-days we would hango ut and drink she took me to foxwoods and took my out for breakfest and got me a few things for my b-day and we partyed in a hotel all night long what happen to her ? I wish I could get her back she was my best friend she was my sister she lived with us too for 3 months why oh why did she get in to the bad stuff that mad her go down hill in life I wish someone could help her wake up .. I love you Linda always My friend ... Hugs where ever you are ..)-: My b-days are not the same ...

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ladySnowStrixx
16:14 Nov 16 2009

Well , How Birthday Sweetie,

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my B-day is monday and i am going to be 42 I have done so much in my life and I had my ups and down and had fun met alot of cool people done crazy things too fell in love with someone was not for me but moved on to someone that is right for me and we are happy so I Thank someone out there for giving me life besides my mom and dad not sure who that person is but its great i would not have learned so much and still learning everyday I know its just a number but its going to be my age it keeps getting bigger every year I want it to go down ..lol just until 21 and then go back up ..lol I wish so i am doing ok right now besides getting up at 3 am every 4 days it great that i get 3 days off just so i can make up the sleep I am missing .. I Love my baby !!

I did not talk to him last night but i talked to him today he never went to bed his friend did not leave until 6 am and then he went to sleep but his mom woke him up to do something for her then he had a meeting to go to at 5 pm and then going to some show at 7 pm hope to be done until 10 pm then he could go to sleep if his family or friends dont bug him he said again he needed a vaction bad he keeps saying that I am glad to hear him say them words he could come sooner then i thought i need to do some cleaning make my place look good .. I Love him I told him he would not have to do nothen at my place but chill eat drink and be happy he said that sounds great to him he would love it . so i will talk to him maybe tomorrow night hope so i know he is very tired so i will leave him alone but I hope is will sleep some time ..I love you baby !!

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crymson
00:22 Nov 24 2009

isnt love sweet

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Well it is sunday and I have to see the family today I talked to him again today and he said again How he needs a vacation bad from where he lives so it could come true that he will come to me Hope so I have to figer it out how it would be to see him in person looking at him eye to eye how will I act how will he what do we say to each other I guess we should hug I would think and give him a kiss i,m going to have someone with me just in case something gose wrong I feel so happy but i will be so nervous as well I dont know what will happen but we will see I love him so much but when we meet it will change us both for sure I know much we both want this to work and he dose love me alot I know that he would have not talk to me for the last 2 years if he sis not onces we see each other it will tell us how it will be if he will be with me or we pend another year trying to figer things out ..I want to be with him I feel that in side how my life would be with out him i would be a mess.. I Love you baby !!

I was sleeping and it was a little after 12 am when the phone rang it was him and he just woke up for sleeping and we were only talking like 10 mins when his friend john showed up so i said like l always do i will let you go now call me tomorrow or something so he says i will call you later I said its ok you dont have to call me tomorrow if its better for you no he said i will call you later i said ok he said I love you and i said I love you back but I felt like his friends dont want us together at all they seem to get in the middle always showing up or calling on his house phone or when i called him he was out with his friends we use to have our time we would talk for hours about all kind of things but now its shorter time on the phone i dont know what to do but let it happen and just be happen that he calls me I guess I can think he maybe relize that i am right why dose he even call me not sure why he should know that it is not working wait 5 mins and someone will be there at his door his friends cant live with out him not just for day but I will always love him ...

My Love Life is up and down well that's how i would put it I love this guy that I would call my boyfriend and he lives far away I have been with him for 2 years meaning talking on the phone I do Love him and wish we could be together as he says too his life is very busy and he dose a lot of things everyday so he calls me when he can it seems everyday but onces in a while he dose not call and yes i feel bad i want him to call everyday tha'ts all I got right now but he called today and i have been thinking last night about the hole thing and he dose not need to call me so much i told him I am just getting in the way of his life with his friends and his job and his family he says i,m a part of his life as much as everyone eles that he loves me and wants to be with me as much as i do I just hate taking up his time when he can be doing something that he needs to get done i know i may sound strange but i am caring about it that's who i am I love him so much to get in his way then I said I am not going to call to much because I seem to get him when he is busy with someone like his friends and we only take for like 5 min then we hang up he said no I like when you call it shows that you care he said that I can call any time i want but i don't want to i just dont want to call at the wrong time he is my life and my beat of my heart he gives me so much even over the phone feelings that I never felt before I cant see me not talking to him ever that's how stronge the feeling and love for him is he is so sweet and caring and when he is wrong he always says he is sorry and always says i want to just hug and hold you I melt inside he is my baby my man my everything if we get to together someday it was ment to be if not then time gose on so I just know this is real .. I my not talk to him tonight but thats ok when he calls then that would be great I will go on in my life as i usely do .