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I was talking to him and i asked if he would ever move away from his family he said no body will make me move away from my family after my mom and dad dies he said the house will be mine why should I move well i would say to my self how about me so right there is told me he wont move on with me so I feel I need to move on and I can;t with him sences he wants to be with his mom and dad until they die I don't live with my mom and dad he is 38 and i,m 42 he still wants to be with mom and dad damn thats sad I have mine living down the road yes i do things for them but i dont live with them .. very sad i throught he was it but I guess he is not well not sure how to tell him so we dont go on with this hole thing . he hurt my feelings and maybe he should have said it in a diffrent way to make it sound much nicer but how it said it wanted to punch him I am going to not call him and dont think i will answer his calls he needs to find someone that will put up with his shit becuase i,m not I want a real man that wants to take care of me and be a man he is not a man if anything a mommys little boy aww is that cute 38 years old and living at home wow that is sad I just dont want to do it I have been talking to him for 2 years now and I found out this what the hell could have learned about this a while ago .. I really did love him why do this to me I felt so much for him now forget it .. I will always love you thanks for everything ..

well now I,m thinking if i step back and look at my life and me what would i say for my self ? am i who I am but Who am I ? I don't really know could I be a person from out of space or am I something i,m not I want to look in me and see I am can I say that i am a tree or winds in the Air how is that go I see something but not sure I want to yell and scream so loud so someone can hear me I want to walk out of my body and be someone else for a day see how it is from that angle I don't understand men how they can mess with a girls feeelings why dose it make them feel good that they make a girl cry ? wish someone could tell me .I Love you baby Even if you make me crazy ..

It's 1:31 Am in the Morning with a candle lit and he has not called all day he is sleeping I bet he stayed up all night doing something for his mom and now he will sleep he also went to a hockey game at 5:05 pm yesterday so hope he will wake up soon and call me I miss his voice I am not hole with out him after I talk to him I always feel better I wish he would call I got him a V-day card i know its early but I picked it out now so all the good ones are gone .. I need to do something about this space between us it;s not a good time for either one of us money and time )-: we both need to hang on a little longer I need his arms around me and I want to feel his lips against mine I want to feel safe and i know I would with him I Love you Baby !!!

Well He got the box in the mail and he could not believe how much stuff was in there but the one thing he loved the best was a little bubblegum ball that had a skull in it and he love that the most i could not believe it wow well if it liked it I,m glad the clothes fit good so I was happy the gloves fit too I was happy to hear that I hope he uses the gloves and dont lose them .. I Love him and I hope he sends my box soon cant wait what ever he gave me i will Love it , I wish for him to come to me and take me away from everything show me what the world out there is like take me down the right road I think he is it I Love you Baby !!

today i talk to him and we were talking about me and him and my job well he said he dose not want a girlfriend or wife to put her job before him .. that would never happen i want to be with him every min of the day How could he think other wise ..I wish I could see him to show him but right now all I can do is wait it out I tell him all the time that i love him so much I cant stop saying that I just want to know that I do He said one time he loves when I say that but I will be waiting for our time to be together and happy ..

I look forward for the future with him .. Hope its with him .. he is not saying goodbye so i,m good we will think good things .. I Love you baby !!

It's a new Year and I hope that things get better for me and everyone I did talk to my Sweety when the ball was dropping he called right as they count down and then we both said Happy New Year to each other so we talked when it was Christmas and now New Years he dose Love for sure this year will be it for us some time we will meet and see what goes on I wrote some stuff down on paper that I wrote for him right after we said happy new year I read it to him and he has never been good with words but he did say that I make his life complete it was happy with me too I really know this is it i,m going to see him and see the man of my dreams ,, I Love him so much it make me crazy I want us both to be happy we met for some reason ? we made for each other I believe Happy New Year 20010 !!!