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You cut me deep

And now i die

Trying to live

After all the lies



Lying on the ground

Broken and defeated

Don't really know

if my heart is still beating



Battered and bruised

Hurt and aching

When i came to find

All along you were faking



You didn't love me

Why did you lie

Why even bother

why even try



I love you

But you couldn't love me

I don't know why

but now i see



I'm alone

Thats how it will stay

Maybe i'll live

maybe one day



I will rise

leave my ashes behind

And reveal all

That i tried to hide

I tried so hard

Not to give you

My heart

And all that is true



But you managed

to slip inside

And now you see

all I tried to hide



Now you make me wonder

Did you truly love me

Or did you just

Show me what i wanted to see



Do i know you

Or was it fake

Is this a truth

given by fate



Lost i hide

What i truly feel

Because i don't know

What is real



So who are you

I can't tell now

And i don't know

Can you tell me how



I will live

How i will go on

Is what i feel

Really so wrong?

To live

to die

A question

with no why



With hope

or without

Still leaving me

with doubt



I'm numb

no pain

but it still

feel so lame



Can't laugh

or smile

will you stay

with me a while



Shaking shivering

crying faking

to be happy

to continue making



Each day

something

To live for

Without breaking



So down i fall

With no end

Never knowing

What lies around the bend

Thumping of me heart

Heard in the night

Bringing the fear

Seducing my my fright



The tears stream down

My face is wet

My hands are shaking

As my screams are met



By the cold chilling memories

Of what you did to me

I can't move on

I can barely see



The nightmares of those days

Keep coming strong

As i toss and turn

Fighting for peace all night long



Why won't the memories

Simply fade away

As they seem to do

When night turns to day

There is life

And there is death

But it's the time between

That it your greatest bet



Can you ask youself

At the end of your life

Was what you gained

Worth all that time



If you cheat

If you lie

Do you take the time

To ask yourself why



When you hurt

when you steal

Do you know

Your hurting youself still



When you sniff

when you smoke

All you are

Is just another joke



So stop and think

Before you mess up

Because the truth is

You make your own luck

I search

I dream

I live

So it seems



I'm numb

I bleed

I shiver

At each cold deed



I love

I hate

I long

For my true fate



I live

I die

I speak

But it's just a lie



I'm ok

I lie

I hurt

And want to die



I wear

A mask

I'm strong

but it won't last



You think

You see

You don't

Know the real me



I'm weak

I try

To hide

What lies behind



Will you

Search for

What makes

My heart pure



Give up

Walk away

I survive

Yet another day

Harmless motions

Heard in silence

Hateful love

Peaceful violence



Dripping dry water

Flowing wet air

A lying truth

A fearless dare



Ironic words

In the mind of a smart idiot

Perfect confusion

Can't get rid of it



Can you understand

Whats not understandable

Fill the void

Of the unfillable



Why try to grasp

Whats not there

As I disappear

Into thin air