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It keeps getting worse and worse body getting sicker feel so dead inside the pain the stress. Walking aroud at times at night feeling like a zombie wishing to be out in the day to see what the world looks like with light maybe then would i not feel so numb. I go threw it alone not to drag others down with me like an apocalypse like no ones here but but myself. Sometimes it drives me into madness i know i keep going and i will i just wish i can come out of the darkness and into the light i miss the sun the warmth seeing people maybe oneday i can again

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dwaynemcgriff01
13:21 Jun 20 2018

wow

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Today was one of those days where it just poured down rain. Everyone complained but i. I thought it was beautiful watching the flower soak up the water able to live another day. Rain hiting the street but making a beautiful melody in my head. Thunder crashing like clouds making love. Lightning lighting up the beautiful sky. Its amazing how ones person dislikes is another persons joy and pleasure. It reminds me of how different and unique each one of us are.

Sometimes i wonder why i just cant go ive been clinically dead 3 times but their always able to bring me back. Sometimes i wish they couldnt. Im sick of pain hurt torture im sick of feeling numb and empty inside i want to feel someing. But sometimes death is the greatest adventure of all

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LukeTheGrey
18:16 Jun 18 2018

Your meant to live, for what time and what reason you’ll never know till it happens. It’s true that we can do so much yet also only do so little to control our fates with our free will. When it extends or goes beyond what you’ve desired or cared for is often times when you know it’s supernatural

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XZenithX
22:41 Jun 18 2018

I agree with Lukethegrey
It's the only reason I've come up with for dying and coming back. Sometimes it's hard to live with but you move on and find meaning and things to live for

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Ericatone
23:44 Jun 18 2018

Thank you both that gives me inspiration to keep pushing

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Lost with out one no guidance no one to keep me in control lost urning to find him. Wonder if hes looking for me to control and console me. If i found him would i recognize him or would i find myself drawn to him guess i will sleep another thousand years till i know

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Darkangel1876
12:14 Jun 20 2018

From personal experience u will be drawn to him as he will be drawn to u

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My heart is broken. Should sleep another thousand years to wake up to another dark angel

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dwaynemcgriff01
08:45 Jun 18 2018

You someday for find love and be happy but don't let your heart be broken

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Been living in n.y. state 20 years now maybe its time to explore for some reason thinking of going to germany or the abandoned islands need to feel awake inside staying here makes me just feel numb

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dwaynemcgriff01
04:38 Jun 12 2018

sometimes its good to explore new things

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I lay awake and wonder are my dreams real life or is real life my dreams what if dreaming is the only enjoyment i get out of life do i enjoy dreaming so much to escape the real world that all i look forward to is to sleep and dream